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I need help and this is my story
« on: January 20, 2016, 12:11:10 PM »
Hello! I am new here and I understand that I need help and support. I am 23 year old medical student. I started watching at pictures of half naked women in my early adolescence, then at 14-years old I started watching internet porn only when I was home sick or when no one was around. It was not a problem for a couple of years. Then 6-years ago I got into a relationship and started having sex and there were no problems and it felt great. Then I got another girlfriend and she was so hot. It felt amazing to have sex with her. But we broke up one year later and I started drinking and taking drugs to ease my pain. We reunited with her and stayed together couple of years more and then one night I couldn't get it up and I felt worthless. One week later I started having panic attacks at night for no reason and some months later they started happening outside, so I had to take antianxiety drugs and antidepressants. Broke up with the girl and my depression got really bad, I stopped taking medication and had nightmares every night and started to wake up at night feeling that my life has no point and everything around me felt so alien and I got really scared. So I started taking medication again and then I stopped watching  porn for 14 days and felt really good, but I don't why I started watching again and again. So I think this is my place, to get help and help others. I am eager to meet you guys!


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Re: I need help and this is my story
« Reply #1 on: January 20, 2016, 03:58:28 PM »
Sounds like you have a pretty complicated situation and your PIED may not be related to your depression. I'd tackle them separately. Go to a good therapist and make sure you are OK. Cut down on your drinking. And know that many anti-depressant drugs can totally kill your boner. Personally, I think the fewer drugs you take the better, but you need to decide that for yourself.

Second, stay off porn. It doesn't help no matter what. Learn all you can here and on Welcome to the community and Good luck buddy.