I think my desire to feel something combined with boredom causes me to have my mind bombarded by images, sounds, etc. I'm going through withdrawl, no way around it. Because much to my shame, I miss it, I long for it, the getting lost in the lust and the high that makes the world disappear.
I feel like I want to make the best out of my failure, obvserve it, learn from it and keep going
Turns out I'm weak, so I must acknowledge my weakness, learn from it and grow stronger.
So, to avoid failing I must avoid focusing on the stream of would-be-triggers flowing out of my brain, I see two options on how to proceed to achieve that: one is to ignore it and focus on something else, a.k.a keeping busy, fairly doable. The other option is to stop the stream, is this even possible? and if so how could one achieve that?