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Re: No dopamine released by porn
« Reply #125 on: April 02, 2021, 04:10:19 AM »
Congrats, Escape, on 20-21 days hard mode.

If you can do 20, you can do 40, and if 40, than 400.

You got this!

Thanks, man. I have to, for my mental health.

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« Reply #126 on: April 02, 2021, 04:13:38 AM »
3 weeks without the junk.

My longest hardmode streak is 21 days. This is the second time when I accomplish it.

Staying away from alcohol and porn at the same time has given me double craving. I feel low and I crave dopamine as if my dopamine level is zero.

I crave a drink like crazy.
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« Reply #127 on: April 02, 2021, 08:05:22 PM »
Congratulations on the 3 weeks Escape! It makes me really happy to read your lasts posts and see how far you've come in such a short period of time.

Re the dopamine cravings, I think 3 weeks is usually the time where that phase hits the hardest. It feels like our whole being is starving but it does pass. It's evidence of the positive changes going on in your mind & body right now, which though is very uncomfortable, is also in a way quite exciting as you're really doing this and it seems to be working well.

I had a few drinks the other night after stopping for the month of March. I can assure you it's not as good as you remember and neither is PMO. I feel like some of the best days ahead may not be far around the corner for you. As you say, fuck the junk, choose life!

Keep up the great work!

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« Reply #128 on: April 03, 2021, 02:29:41 AM »
Congratulations on the 3 weeks Escape! It makes me really happy to read your lasts posts and see how far you've come in such a short period of time.

Re the dopamine cravings, I think 3 weeks is usually the time where that phase hits the hardest. It feels like our whole being is starving but it does pass. It's evidence of the positive changes going on in your mind & body right now, which though is very uncomfortable, is also in a way quite exciting as you're really doing this and it seems to be working well.

I had a few drinks the other night after stopping for the month of March. I can assure you it's not as good as you remember and neither is PMO. I feel like some of the best days ahead may not be far around the corner for you. As you say, fuck the junk, choose life!

Keep up the great work!

Orbiter, thanks for advice and support. It's true that I've been craving drinking, recently. Craving porn goes without saying already. Craving two things at once is not fun. I didn't know what else to do. They sabotage each other. I've lost the best streak of my life because of getting drunk. And after a porn relapse, I would start drinking to "medicate" my relapse. But staying away from both really sucks. I don't like this at all. I thought quitting alcohol would let me finally quit porn but it's only now that I have a longer streak away from porn, until then I kept relapsing like crazy. Maybe because I was staying away from alcohol and using more porn for coping.
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Re: No dopamine released by porn
« Reply #129 on: April 03, 2021, 02:36:36 AM »
22 days.

I've finally beaten my 3 weeks record. But I don't feel too well mentally. I feel kind of lethargic and unmotivated to do anything and I was planning to start some activities. But now I feel like I have no energy for them.

More than 2 months without alcohol as "medicine" but I crave it like crazy. I feel starved of dopamine with both addictions now. I don't like this at all.

Despise feeling not so well, I am still very tempted to watch porn.

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« Reply #130 on: April 03, 2021, 12:11:21 PM »
Great job at being 22 days away from P. As you are experiencing, craving will keep coming. You need a strategy to battle them. What works for me is to have a routine of "clean" activities, meaning that the activity will not create an opportunity to fall. For instance, watching movies with erotic content would not be part of my routine, nor browsing the web just for fun. Going outdoors and workout, clean the home, learning to cook a new dish/desert, reach out to family and friends just to chat and catch up, doing something educational, etc. These activities work form me. Keep yourself busy with uplifting activities and at the end of the day you will feel tired, satisfied, and, of course, away from P. Wishing you all the best.

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« Reply #131 on: April 04, 2021, 02:22:31 AM »
Great job at being 22 days away from P. As you are experiencing, craving will keep coming. You need a strategy to battle them. What works for me is to have a routine of "clean" activities, meaning that the activity will not create an opportunity to fall. For instance, watching movies with erotic content would not be part of my routine, nor browsing the web just for fun. Going outdoors and workout, clean the home, learning to cook a new dish/desert, reach out to family and friends just to chat and catch up, doing something educational, etc. These activities work form me. Keep yourself busy with uplifting activities and at the end of the day you will feel tired, satisfied, and, of course, away from P. Wishing you all the best.

Thanks for advice.

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Re: No dopamine released by porn
« Reply #132 on: April 04, 2021, 02:23:53 AM »
I'm depressed, man. Because I can't numb myself. Still craving porn. I wonder when the craving stops. Every day that I crave porn is a long day.
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Re: No dopamine released by porn
« Reply #133 on: April 05, 2021, 09:49:34 AM »
I'm depressed, man. Because I can't numb myself. Still craving porn. I wonder when the craving stops. Every day that I crave porn is a long day.

Hang in there escapeandnevercomeback! The cravings get lower and lower over time. You’re probably experiencing withdrawals still and best way is to break through those. Staying as busy as possible may help. Wishing you well man.
In recovery since December 2012. Porn-free since March 25, 2020.

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Re: No dopamine released by porn
« Reply #134 on: April 05, 2021, 10:51:58 AM »
Hang in there escapeandnevercomeback! The cravings get lower and lower over time. You’re probably experiencing withdrawals still and best way is to break through those. Staying as busy as possible may help. Wishing you well man.

Thanks, man. I'll keep up the good work.

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Re: No dopamine released by porn
« Reply #135 on: April 05, 2021, 10:53:16 AM »
24 days without the junk.

Mentally, I don't feel too well. At the same time, I feel very tempted. 

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Re: No dopamine released by porn
« Reply #136 on: April 06, 2021, 10:45:43 AM »
Congrats, escape, on 24 days!

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Mentally, I don't feel too well. At the same time, I feel very tempted.

I've found in myself that some times acting out for me is preceded by down or depressing thoughts or moods. If you can catch this early on, you can more easily alter your mood by thinking about something more positive.

Just some thoughts...

Be encouraged, and keep on going!

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Re: No dopamine released by porn
« Reply #137 on: April 08, 2021, 03:06:20 AM »
Fuck. Today is Day 1.

Yesterday I binged all day but I didn't watch too much porn though. I watched maybe 2 minutes. The rest of it was me thinking about stuff. I broke two of my rules and I paid the price. I won't break them again.

What happened? On Day 25 I masturbated without porn and this threw me off. I got kind of depressed and I started obsessing about messing up my "perfect" streak. Why did I do it? I could've continued, I had the capacity to do it but I had started to get sexually frustrated big time as I didn't have any "sexual" release. I started getting desperate about girls and despairing a little bit about my loneliness. It didn't help that after almost a month hard mode I was feeling lethargic and experiencing social anxiety. I started thinking that I should've felt better.

Then I let the though take over. I started thinking about masturbation without porn and it became "such a great idea". It took about 10 minutes. Alright, maybe some would say this is not a big deal but that's how my mind works. If it's not "perfect" then it becomes a bother. Plus, there is the fact that I hate masturbation for my reasons. I wanted to do it complete cord turkey hard mode.

Next day I made the second mistake: I decided to drink. I had been thinking about it for a few days. The craving for drinking had been getting harder and harder. I knew that drinking had the potential to give me a porn relapse but I tried to rationalize it again, as always, typical addict: "I can handle it, nothing will happen." I drank and then I entered that state where I didn't care about anything and I started my binge.

I won't repeat this routine again. 25 days hard mode showed me that I can do more than I think. This has only helped to strengthen my mind. I'm starting again today and do it even better this time. I'll make it to a month. There is no point in despairing about it, I will go on with my day without thinking that I'm fucked up. It will be harder but going crazy about it won't solve anything.

Peace. Don't make mistakes. 
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Re: No dopamine released by porn
« Reply #138 on: April 08, 2021, 08:51:19 AM »
Sorry about your struggle, escape!

Like you say, at least now you have a chance to reset, and begin with a new hard mode streak. You've definitely proven that you can do this, and I always appreciate your focus.

I'm like you in that regard, a perfectionist. This is why it's so important (and still is) that I not play around with p-subs or edging, as these will eventually lead into a full blown lapse with P/MO. This may be true of you regarding drinking...

Learn whatever lessons from this, modify your plan accordingly, strengthen your resolve, and just go on.

You got this!