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Rk_TG

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TODAY I'M ENDING IT, TODAY I'M GOING TO CHANGE.
« on: November 01, 2020, 07:08:18 PM »
Hello I want to tell my story, I am a 21-year-old woman from Latin America and this has been the first place I find where I know that I will not be judged and where I can overcome this addiction that for many years I did not want to call it for what it is and for several years I've wanted to quit but I've been weak
I started around 15 years old and a few days ago I told myself how much my brain has affected, I was about to have sexual intercourse but I did not feel excitement from his caresses or kisses or from how he touched me or masturbation, it did not lubricate and it was much more painful As it should be, I thought it was a problem of dehydration or something remediable but today I realize that I really don't get turned on without porn, I can't beat myself up without porn and I have reached the point of watching rough or rape videos. Before I felt bad but ultimately the feeling of guilt left and that worries me more, I already want to quit this addiction once and for all, I decided that at the end of this year but I have been 11 months and I have not achieved it. Today I decide to quit, today I put an end to this and I will overcome this addiction. I would like to receive your support and help. I am very weak and fall into easy temptation.
Success to everyone in their recovery, love.

BennyB.

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« Reply #1 on: November 11, 2020, 06:31:34 PM »
Hello Rk_TG,

I can relate to your story very much. I also started using P around 15 yo. At the time, it was nothing serious, and it did not seem wrong at all. A couple of hours per week on P sites here and there, and that's it.

But this is exactly the kind of atmosphere in which P takes its root, that is when everything seems alright and common, and that PMO is perceived as a normal daily activity by everyone. In these circumstances, it is easy to indulge in it. But as you have also experienced it, as the time goes, the content we use to jerk off with escalates in weird stuff that at first, seems strange and bother us, but slowly becomes acceptable (in a sense). After a while, (real) sexual intercourse slowly becomes a odd thing to do, and we almost feel like freaks, because we're not giving the performance of a lifetime!

P is one of the worst addiction of our time: it is everywhere, it strongly affects the reward system in our brain (and modifies its chemistry until nothing else is ever fun in life), and make us feel like idiotic "zombies". For my part, feeling dizzy all day was one of the worst, because it was a serious handicap to my productivity at work, in the relationship with my friends, etc.

First few days are the worst. Keep your head up, remember why you are doing this (if possible, on a daily basis), and share with us your mood, feelings, and thoughts. Also, use the forum (and every section of it) to help others by engaging in a conversation with them. It is a proven practice that trying to help others really heal ourselves.

For my part, I use my journal as a device to monitor my progress and share my worries with others. You can take a look at it here http://www.rebootnation.org/forum/index.php?topic=19227.0

Don't give up sister! :)
« Last Edit: November 11, 2020, 06:38:29 PM by BennyB. »
There are three musts that hold us back: I must do well. You must treat me well. And the world must be easy.
Albert Ellis

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« Reply #2 on: November 21, 2020, 11:45:11 PM »
Yes it definitely is a process, I went 6 days without doing p or m and I relapsed today and I felt so discouraged. I never really had a community before so hopefully this can help.

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« Reply #3 on: November 30, 2020, 12:13:21 AM »
Hello Rk_TG,

I can relate to your story very much. I also started using P around 15 yo. At the time, it was nothing serious, and it did not seem wrong at all. A couple of hours per week on P sites here and there, and that's it.

But this is exactly the kind of atmosphere in which P takes its root, that is when everything seems alright and common, and that PMO is perceived as a normal daily activity by everyone. In these circumstances, it is easy to indulge in it. But as you have also experienced it, as the time goes, the content we use to jerk off with escalates in weird stuff that at first, seems strange and bother us, but slowly becomes acceptable (in a sense). After a while, (real) sexual intercourse slowly becomes a odd thing to do, and we almost feel like freaks, because we're not giving the performance of a lifetime!

P is one of the worst addiction of our time: it is everywhere, it strongly affects the reward system in our brain (and modifies its chemistry until nothing else is ever fun in life), and make us feel like idiotic "zombies". For my part, feeling dizzy all day was one of the worst, because it was a serious handicap to my productivity at work, in the relationship with my friends, etc.

First few days are the worst. Keep your head up, remember why you are doing this (if possible, on a daily basis), and share with us your mood, feelings, and thoughts. Also, use the forum (and every section of it) to help others by engaging in a conversation with them. It is a proven practice that trying to help others really heal ourselves.

For my part, I use my journal as a device to monitor my progress and share my worries with others. You can take a look at it here http://www.rebootnation.org/forum/index.php?topic=19227.0

Don't give up sister! :)


DOnt give up! Good luck to you indeed.

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« Reply #4 on: November 30, 2020, 05:00:28 AM »
Hello,

I am new here. I’m determined to stop this time! This forum looks a great place for support.
I also really like Fight the New Drugs site, and they have a good podcast called Consider Before Consuming. I like listening to this and learning more about it’s harmful effects. For me anyway, the more I learn, the more determined I get to stop! You can do this!!
Well done for coming on here, it’s not easy but it’s brave :)

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« Reply #5 on: December 29, 2020, 04:49:24 PM »
Happy for you!

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« Reply #6 on: March 12, 2021, 12:22:29 AM »
Hey Rk_TG,
I can relate to you with my previous lifestyle. I was really hooked on this debilitating new drug that we have in our generation.
I had progressed to similar genre addiction. I was so hooked that I was doing it daily for more then few hours in a raw without ejaculated, just edging for endless a mount of time, Literally Zombie.

Once your dopamine level gradually raising up the navels that your brain being pursuing is unbearable and then you meet up someone that you totally attracted to only to realize  that you are NUMBED down there with no sensation whatsoever.

Long story short I've been away from Porn for very long time, over 3 years, but 3 month ago I failed for 48 hours in a row that triggered me to chase hookers ( one of my old habit), So 3 months ago I told myself, I've been away for such long time from this JAIL disease that I'd never ever fall for it again!!!!!

So everything that I had been linked somehow to my Porn habit old lifestyle, Fantasies, dirty talk ( which were the most worst results that I've ever developed from Porn)  I'd never do. Cause I want my body and my brain to be functioning for a real woman and enjoy being FU... PRESENT WITH HER!!!

So to help you with this Jail lifestyle here is your ultimate ANSWER read this book ( only if you going to implement it ), it will change your life FOREVER!!!!!!

THE EASYPEASY METHOD!!!

Peace ☮️ ✌️  and love ❤️