Author Topic: Starting a new journey to recovery  (Read 2003 times)

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #50 on: January 30, 2021, 11:50:58 AM »
Thanks akpal2. Sad to say Ive snapped my streak and am back at day 1 today. I stopped posting on here frequently, had a lot of pressure on myself last week and lost my concentration. Im going to post on here regularly again to keep myself poised and focused.

akpal2

  • Member

  • Offline
  • *****

  • 653
  • Personal Text
    I will beat this monster, I will get my life back
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #51 on: February 01, 2021, 12:31:45 PM »
RDR as long as you can avoid falling into the chaser effect trap, you will notice that you will notice that your last 2-3 week streak has made you stronger. Get past the first week and it will be better.

Try to beat your previous streak this time. We're all rooting for you.

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #52 on: February 05, 2021, 09:30:36 AM »
Thanks AP2, Im on day 3 no PMO now and although its been challenging Im pushing to make it back to a week and get past the chaser trap. Im noticing from my last 2 streaks that the time I feel more pressured to want to PMO is between days 15-20 and I need to be at my strongest during that time.

akpal2

  • Member

  • Offline
  • *****

  • 653
  • Personal Text
    I will beat this monster, I will get my life back
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #53 on: February 05, 2021, 08:47:53 PM »
Well done RDR. I find the first 2 weeks to be the toughest..if I can breeze through the first 2 weeks, I can go far. But everybody is different, so be on the lookout for cues and triggers.

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #54 on: February 06, 2021, 10:55:55 AM »
Day 4 and the urge to look at P is quite strong. There are several triggers that I know are not helping like social media. Im going to take a break and cleanse from instagram and tik tok. P, like content of any kind, relies on its followers to constantly consume and I feel like socials are completely overstimulating the serotonin and dopamine levels of everyone from constantly consuming content, lol. Anyway I want to minimize my screen time and stay off the socials because I know it will help with my reboot.

Thanks AP2. 2 weeks feels like a long time right now but I know it'll be 3-4 weeks fast if I hang tight.
« Last Edit: February 06, 2021, 10:58:50 AM by Readytoreboot »

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #55 on: February 11, 2021, 11:56:16 AM »
Relapsed a few days ago but Im on day 3 no Pmo again. Getting over this 1st week has been a struggle and the urge to view P has been strong in the mornings. Keeping myself busy to push through the times of boredom when I want to view P the most.

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #56 on: February 12, 2021, 10:50:47 AM »
Day 4,

Trying to be consistent with writing on here in the mornings. It kind of sets the tone for my day and I usually dont want to Pmo when I post because I feel Im holding myself accountable and dont want to let myself down. I know I cant view any P but there is a desire for it that I have to replace with something else. Posting on here everyday is gonna be that new desire.

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #57 on: February 17, 2021, 10:13:48 AM »
Back to day 1 again because I gave in to P and MO yesterday. I felt completely down about PMOing and it literally drained my energy to the point of physical fatigue. Im tired of feeling like that, its depressing at times. I feel like I let myself down and I know that I want to get out of this vicious circle of addiction. Im going to take it day by day and make the necessary time to keep posting on here as much as possible because this forum has been essential for helping me to overcome those days of weakness and temptation.

akpal2

  • Member

  • Offline
  • *****

  • 653
  • Personal Text
    I will beat this monster, I will get my life back
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #58 on: February 17, 2021, 10:37:34 AM »
Hi r2r, are you exercising and meditating? Or generally filling up your time? What is your routine like?

I am also struggling to make really strong streaks. I had sex after 4 weeks, managed it very successfully (Thanks to viagra) but still fell for the chaser effect.

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #59 on: February 20, 2021, 09:37:33 AM »
Hey Ap2,

Day 4 and keeping myself busy and distracted from falling back into P viewing. I do like to make time for exercise and meditation everyday or every other day if my schedule is really busy. I believe strengthening the body boosts mental confidence and will power. Mediation for me is essential because its a form of concentration and exercising the mind. I like to visualize myself overcoming my P addiction by me cliff hanging and climbing a high mountain or something. The chaser effect is tough to overcome and I kinda have to trick myself sometimes. The day after I have sex I tell myself that Id rather have the real thing again and Id rather save my O for having real sex again so I can resist from watching P or M and O from a source of artificial stimulation.

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #60 on: February 22, 2021, 09:08:30 AM »
Day 6 no Pmo. Its been tough but Im hanging in there and gonna push thru to one week. I was falling back into the circle of PMO and it was tough to snap out of the first few days of relapsing. Taking it day by day and making time to focus on other things has helped enormously. No more fatigue from PMO. Im feeling great energy throughout the day and getting good sleep at night from keeping myself active throughout the day.

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #61 on: February 23, 2021, 09:57:21 AM »
Day 7 and the urge to consume any form of P content is particularly high. I know that getting the hit from other content is going to possibly trigger a stronger urge to view P content so I've deleted my socials for a while. This is going to keep me strong today and also making sure I had time to post on here today.

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #62 on: February 24, 2021, 04:41:14 PM »
Day 8 and I had a few rough moments but making time for a good workout seesion changed my mood completely. I feel strong today and have a date tonight that Im looking forward to. Its been a while since I had a proper dinner date so wish me luck.

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #63 on: February 26, 2021, 11:24:51 AM »
Day 9 and morning wood is back, Massive hard on and it feels good because its been a while since I had any morning wood. I think the first 10 days of breaking away from Pmo are essential to really help reset the body from artificial stimulation and Im seeing this with my reboot. Even though my mind is cunning and in the distance craving to PMO Im not gonna give in to temporary pleasure because I know the long term results will give me more satisfaction than any PMO will.

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #64 on: February 28, 2021, 08:59:11 AM »
So I had a shitty day yesterday and caved into Pmo as a from of releasing tension. It defo didn't help but Im glad that I didn't binge or go back to PMO afterwards for the rest of the day. Today I reset back to day 1 and just take it day by day again...Here We Go

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #65 on: March 02, 2021, 12:19:41 PM »
Still going strong and on Day 3 now. Keeping myself occupied and keeping my mind on other things helps. Im ready to keep going and feel determined. Im tired of the giving in to desire and feeling like it wasn't worth it and I dont want to fail myself again. I know I can do this and I will push thru this month so that I can finally break my previous record of 33 days without PMO. Just got to keep this new pattern and mindset going and stay consistent.

Readytoreboot

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 59
    • View Profile
Re: Starting a new journey to recovery
« Reply #66 on: March 03, 2021, 10:06:34 AM »
Day 4 and have not seen a single min of P these passed few days. Im feeling good about not consuming any sexual content ,soft or hard. Im not getting too many strong urges to view P but every now and then I've had to push the thought away. I like the way I feel without P and I will focus my thoughts on that.