I have been in and our of the P use habit for many years. At my early 20's I was able to last a full year without it. Then I left my hometown to study abroad. The loneliness was brutal and made me turn strongly back to P.
I moved again and, in my new city, I met a beautiful girl and we got married in our late 20's. Everything worked perfectly in the intimacy. However, the memory of P remained. I hate to say this but I started going back to P. Mainly because of selfishness since she was not always available when I wanted to. As time went by, I started to feel more attraction to P than to her. This, along with other circumstances, have separated us in intimacy. I fall to P, on average, once every three weeks. Occasionally, I last a few months clean, but always find my way back to P. With the new online ways to see hundred of girls almost instantly emerging daily, it has been harder and harder not to fall back to P. There is always something new and exciting waiting on the screen. My falls usually start with a strong crave for finding out that new stuff. As a consequence, I started to experience ED. I did not paid attention at first, and kept on falling to P, until recently. There has been several occasions where I am not able to be intimate with my wife. It kills me, and especially now that we are trying to conceive. I still have some morning erections, but not every day. I am 36.
What do you suggest I should do to overcome the temptation of that "something new and exciting"? I work on the computer all day long in my home office. A few minutes of weakness is the only thing that separates me from recovering.
Thanks for reading.
