I guess the addiction has pretty much taken over, but sometimes I can manage a thought or two and today I realised how addicted I have become. It's like a secret life that comes to life at night or when I find myself on my own. During the day I work hard, try to train hard but tbh I am exhausted and am on the edge. I kinda play a character to get through life. I'm known for always being in a good mood and being positive. Behind it all I have struggled to make it through the day. My porn addiction.... I can edge to porn for 2 - 3 hours per night, 7 nights per week. Easy. I have all my favourites, I can hop from one seen to the next until I find the "perfect" scene.Anyway it's all old news. Novelty is king.But I guess there is always a choice and I can always walk away.