Day 2

[Jre033]

Alright.. onto day 2.. feeling really good about my chances on this round of trying. My 2nd or 3rd real shot at trying to quit this habit/addiction. It drove me crazy that it’s turned me into a person who has zero control over myself. I watch porn throughout the week and binge drink alcohol just to chase a dopamine kick that will never satisfy. I will try and stay up to date on posting because i think that’ll help this process for me. To document where I can actually talk the truth and not have to worry about being found. Good luck everyone to just another day of sobriety.

[Sanders]

Hi Jre033,

Welcome here, happy you've taken the step to come to a public place and write about your struggles. Dealing with seperate issues of alcohol and porn addiction that seem to fuel each other sounds like a very difficult task. Frequent posting is something that has helped me a lot, so it's good to read that you're planning to do that too! I'm curious how you're going to overcome your addiction this time, you've mentioned that you're feeling good about this round since the earlier tries failed. Hope you're prepared well, it won't be easy for most!

Good luck

[Icandoit]

Alright.. onto day 2.. feeling really good about my chances on this round of trying. My 2nd or 3rd real shot at trying to quit this habit/addiction. It drove me crazy that it’s turned me into a person who has zero control over myself. I watch porn throughout the week and binge drink alcohol just to chase a dopamine kick that will never satisfy. I will try and stay up to date on posting because i think that’ll help this process for me. To document where I can actually talk the truth and not have to worry about being found. Good luck everyone to just another day of sobriety.

I know how this works cause I've done it many times already. After relapsing, I was low in dopamine and wanted to PMO again for more dopamine. Then I would start drinking to make myself feel better but nothing worked. PMO binges and alcohol don't help anything. My take this time is to stay away from touching anything that is porn behavior: Looking at anything, watching anything, edging to flashbacks from my head etc. If I don't light the match, I don't start a fire. Although the urges and cravings are really difficult, it's still better than when I mess with porn and lose control.

[Jre033]

Already almost a whole work week down. Still feeling good. Feeling positive in general and already seeing the positive side to quitting. I’ve been down this road before and I know a couple weeks from hell will soon be upon me.. have to come back to these post and keep myself motivate. Long road ahead of great freedom and to get there I gotta go through hell. Stay positive and beat porn one day at a time.

Until next post! Happy 4th