So I kinda realized something pretty profound the other day; not am I onlyaddicted to porn, I am addicted to entertaining myself through technology, wether it be TV, laptop, or phone. I just looked back at all my relapses, and they all stem from me being on my phone or laptop, minding my own business, maybe surfing a little bit of youtube....and then I start to get bored. Any normal person at that point would put it away and go do something else, but what do I do? Start looking at sexy images, videos....then relapse. Often when I have blown of hanging out with people, yes I am often in a bad mood, but what do I do instead? Do something on my computer/phone, and often there is no PMO-related things involved. I just use it to keep my mind occupied, because, I guess that is more comfortable than doing something more productive or engaging.So I have been majorly cutting back on my technology usage, and I feel like I am getting cravings similar to a quitting a sugar addiction; headaches, moodiness, and a general sense of low energy. But I feel really good about rebooting knowing that this problem has played a major role in my past relapses. Best of luck to everyone!
Glad to help, BlueHeron! Yeah I am the same way, it just hit me really hard...like a lightbulb came on out of nowhere and I was shocked at how it took me so long to realize I was addicted to all of it. I would plan my day and for absolutely no reason, I start doing whatever on my phone and an hour passes, and I just keep going, cause why not? I could just do that shit later, I always tell myself. But yeah, don't put too much pressure on yourself, just try to compromise and be reasonable, and things should start to get easier!Man, these urges are alot easier to deal with now. Whenever I get triggered hard, I just turn off my phone. I don't click on a different video, or watch a different show like I usually have, because that has led to me relapsing in the past. Don't want to feel like I've beaten anything though; I know there is a long and difficult journey ahead.
Awesome stuff! Turning off your phone is just the right thing to do. Get an urge, tell your brain no thanks, and move on to something better. It's definitely not a now-and-forever cure, but it is a huge step toward regaining control of your impulses and behavior. Plus, if other videos and stuff are also addictive, doing them instead of PMO isn't really a step away from addiction, is it? I think you've got something important figured out. Keep it going!
I’m glad that y’all can relate to me on atleast some level, I always try and tell myself to not be too hard on myself for this because we have all been conditioned to be around technology as much as possible; that’s just how the modern world is sadly.
Yesterday I fantasized on one of my old fetishes for maybe about 30 seconds, and then quickly redirected my mind. As expected, I had a really weird dream relating to that fetish that turned out to be really stressful too, as I woke up at 5 am covered in sweat. My mind was racing so it was really hard to go to sleep after that, but I’m the bright side I still managed to have a productive day and get a good nap in. I think the momentum from doing good things in the past + it being the first day of class today really helped me do what I need to do, but I fear I won’t have the same level of motivation as the year goes on and gets more stressful. Nevertheless, I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it. Hopefully then, I’ll be a lot more mentally strong.
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