Exodus

[peter1717]

Its amazing how we notice the tight yoga pants and the rest of it.
It does get easier to not notice as time goes on.

Over 8 months is good.  You are almost being born LOL  9 months around the corner.
8 months means you can do another 8 months and another 8 months and so on!

[MosesY]

I am Nine months free from the porn addiction now. Thanks for the encouraging comments. I do not believe you can quit pornography without a higher power. Sex is ingrained in our blood. I prayed to God and he changed my heart. I will have a good day today doing some cooking, watching Netflix "Designated Survivor" and drinking some beer.

[ToomuchisToomuch]

Bravo.  Nicely done on your journey, and I agree with you that it doesn't get easier.  There are triggers all around.  Women all around.  and that is what makes this fight so difficult.  It is such a fine line between appropriate thoughts and inappropriate thoughts.  But you have still abstained from acting out, and you are doing a really REALLY good job of checking in and having a purpose in your life other than porn. 

Just awesome dude.  Keep it going! 

[LetItGoAlready]

Congrats, Moses. It's so encouraging to hear from folks who are further along in the journey than many of us are. Sounds like you've developed some good habits and are finding joy in everyday things that give you pleasure in a healthy way. Wishing you continued success!

[MosesY]

Thank you for the comments; they really encourage me. I have a new phone now, I will have to charge my old phone and get the date off it and restart on my new phone so I don't know how many days of freedom I have had. Actually I might just set it for 9 months and start on the new phone, I know it is over 9 months. I did that just now. I am figuring as of now I am nine months porn free (sober).

I am single now, no woman in my life, had not had an orgasm for over 8 months. No porn, no masturbation, nothing. THe other night I had a dream and woke up with an erection. I was so aroused that I began masturbating. The feelings were more intense than I have ever experienced in my life; the orgasm more intense than any I ever had, including losing my virginity on the day I was married. Afterwards I thought maybe this would trigger me but the opposite is true. I think of the horror I went through to get to where I am today and I never want to go down that path again. I have not done anything since then and maybe won't for another 8 or 9 months before I have that experience again. If I have to wait 9 months to have such an experience again it will be worth it.

I just wonder what that would be like with a real woman.

[Orbiter]

Hey MosesY

How are you going? Good to hear the MO did not trigger you and you are still able to appreciate the continuing benefits of staying away from PMO. Have you been keeping busy? How is the Coleman/lantern work going?

I detect a tinge of longing in your most recent post. Is dating something you would be open to considering or do you feel you are not ready for such a thing? Would it be something you would want?

[Phineas 808]

...I know it is over 9 months. I did that just now. I am figuring as of now I am nine months porn free (sober).

Wow! Brother, 9 months is awesome! That's like 270 days! (duh, i know...).

But for you to be 'free' that many days, and you're not doing other stuff, like p-subs, is an awesome thing, because it shows how serious you are.

You deserve to be blessed with a woman with whom you can share with, and I hope and pray that this comes to pass!

Blessings.

[MosesY]

I have been porn free now for 9 months and 26 days. I am thinking about asking a woman out at work. The worst she can do is say no and then I will know. And then she will tell everyone else about it. I am working 21 days straight right now, most days are 10 hour days but on friday saturday and sunday we only work 8 hours. I am designing and building a cabinet to house my lantern parts and tools, I am very excited about it.

[Orbiter]

Glad to hear you're still doing so well Moses. It's an inspiration!

Needless to say it's important to manage fatigue & stress when you're 'staring down the barrel' so-to-speak of such a grueling work roster. It sounds like the cabinet project & lantern repairing you're currently working on will be the perfect balance to this so good job.

Re the woman at work, if you want to and you're not in a work dynamic that would make it inappropriate (i.e if you were her manager or boss or vice versa) I say go for it. Who cares what colleagues think. As you say, the worst she can do is say no and if that happens, you'll only be a stronger, more confident person for having given it a shot and asked.

As they say, fortune favors the bold.

[MosesY]

I am a long time free from pornography now. No porn sites and no cam girls. At one time I did not think that was possible. I am working on my cabinet at work in the mornings before work at the shop I work in, I have about 15-20 minutes every morning. I cut all the boards to length yesterday, today I will rip the boards to width. I found out yesterday that we will have a guaranteed day off on Christmas eve and I have a day of vacation the day before so I will have a 5 day weekend. I hope to have my cabinet done by then and spend a day or so working on reorganizing my lantern bench. These types of distractions really help in avoiding porn.