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MosesY

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« Reply #150 on: April 10, 2020, 03:48:49 AM »
Freedom from porn for 69 days now. We are getting Fridays off with pay now so I have extra time at home alone. I have a very big book to read called "Things to Come" by J Dwight Pentecost. It will keep me occupied so I will not look at porn. I am going to buy a couple steaks today and tomorrow I make potato salad so my roommate and I will have a great dinner. In the past I would have spent all my money on cam girls and would not have been able to afford a good dinner.

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« Reply #151 on: April 10, 2020, 07:28:17 AM »
Nice going MosesY

     I have felt doing things like that are so important   It gives a great reason to be alive.  Its amazing how porn could replace that and we forgot what a great pleasure  life can be.  Quite fankly I''m sure during our addictions we were telling other people  the life we were supposidly living   but were living a lie  I know I did it many times   Wanted people to think one thing about me ....  That I was cool successfull  hip   etc   but in reality   I was a nobody   well no more of that   Itstime to kick back and live the good life 100%

    cheers  and enjoy the steak

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« Reply #152 on: April 16, 2020, 08:44:24 PM »
Thank you for responding. I got my stimulus money yesterday, over a thousand dollars in the bank. I am buying a mini lathe with some of it but I still have a lot of money in the bank. We have an extra day off tomorrow with pay so the trick will be not to spend money on cam girls. I am 75 days free from porn now. I lost all my meds when vinegar leaked into my med drawer. I am working on replacing them now but it will probably be a couple days or sometime next week. A perfect storm; no meds, money in the bank, and lots of free time. If you pray, please say a prayer for me.

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« Reply #153 on: April 18, 2020, 04:40:00 AM »
77 days free from porn now. I plan on cooking today, I have new sheets to put on my bed and I set up my new coffee pot. I will probably work on a lantern and I am watching "Shooter"on Netflix. No temptation to look at porn.

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« Reply #154 on: April 18, 2020, 12:38:49 PM »
Folks with long streaks like this are one of the big encouragements I have...keep giving the rest of us with shorter streaks motivation...

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« Reply #155 on: April 22, 2020, 02:34:51 AM »
Thano you for the response. I am 81 day free from porn now. I am getting ready to go to work; no quarantine for me unfortunately. I get Fridays off with pay so only 4 day weeks. I bought a mini lathe with my stimulus money so hope to turn some wood this weekend. I hope to make some goulash this weekend which is a first for me, looking for recipes on cooks.com.

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« Reply #156 on: April 22, 2020, 07:23:55 AM »
If you make something with the lathe I hope you'll post a picture of it, just like you did with that lantern awhile back.  Sorry, not much of a cook, can't help you out with the goulash!  Keep moving forward! 

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« Reply #157 on: April 23, 2020, 08:11:13 PM »
Thanks for the response. I am 82 days free from porn now. Tonight I am drinking Black Velvet whiskey, staying up all night and setting fire to the internet. I have tomorrow off and can sleep tomorrow. Paid for sleeping is appealing to me. Hopefully I will avoid slipping over to the cam girls. Will let you know tomorrow when I wake up.

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« Reply #158 on: April 28, 2020, 01:55:07 AM »
87 days free from porn now. I have not spent a dime on cam girls in almost three months now; another 3 days it will be 90 days. I am up early and getting ready to go to work.

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« Reply #159 on: May 01, 2020, 05:47:31 AM »
Today is my 90 days mark. I worked 9 hours yesterday and came home, drank a beer and a double of whiskey while chatting with a friend, ate dinner and went to bed at 7:30 pm. I woke up at 11:30 pm wide awake. I figured I would burn down the web for a few hours then go back to bed. Those wee hours of the morning would normally have been spent looking at porn but today there was no temptation. Possibly because I am old now, 52 years old, and not as virile. Possibly because I am no longer addicted to porn because I have been mostly off it now for six months. We have Fridays off now with pay due to COVID-19. I worked 47 hours in 4 days and today I get paid for doing my laundry; it is done, folded and put away at 6:43 am. I will go out and about with a mask today to the grocery store etc.

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« Reply #160 on: May 01, 2020, 03:52:37 PM »
Congratulations Moses! That’s a great milestone.

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« Reply #161 on: May 02, 2020, 08:32:27 AM »
Nice going MosesY   I am somewhere around day  135 or 140  I would have to look   but I am still not ready to post in the  success section  I really want to be sure.   I'll admit  every once in a while I too celebrate with a nice shot of whiskey or a bottle of good wine   perhaps a steak.  As I have said before I am remembering  some of the finer things in life  and enjoying them when a year ago I would try it and for some reason it didnt feel right   almost as if i hadnt really earned it   But things are different now   Keep up the fight and hit 100 days

   cheers

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« Reply #162 on: May 03, 2020, 04:04:59 AM »
I am free now for 92 days. Plan on hitting the 100 day mark soon. I am cooking this morning probably at 6 am. I sm eorking on a gas lamp today, replacing the packing both in the valve and the tip cleaner. It should be a good day.

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« Reply #163 on: May 08, 2020, 01:50:02 AM »
97 days porn free. I am off work with pay today due to COVID-19. I am moving a couch today with help from a friend. I plan on doing my laundry and grocery shopping today as well then the rest of the weekend if free time. I plan on getting out my wood lathe and turn a handle for a mallet. I think working on projects like this makes it less likely for me to look at porn; it gives me a place to focus my energy instead of looking at porn.

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« Reply #164 on: May 12, 2020, 01:25:49 AM »
101 days free from porn now, no temptation to look at porn. I am up early reading my forums and facebook, probablly will watch some "Shooter" before going to work.

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« Reply #165 on: May 15, 2020, 04:57:35 AM »
I am free from porn now for over 9 million seconds. I believe the internet is the great harlot spoken of in Revelation 17. Porn is an abomination to God, especially anal sex. It is amazing how far into porn I had sunk, wasting hours per day and thousands of dollars. I feel better about myself now, enjoy the little things more. I nice sunny day and the trees turning green and the freshly mowed yard all touch my heart now where before if I was not looking at porn I felt bored and useless. I believe a person needs some form of higher power to permanently overcome porn. I basically had to soften my hard heart and only God could do that for me. I know if I was relying on my own intelligence to quit porn I would not be able to do it.

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« Reply #166 on: May 15, 2020, 08:04:27 AM »
NIce going MosesY

         The Key is not so much  to not look at porn  to fill your time but to  have other more meaningfull things to fill your time with   I have to admit  the only time I really think about it is now when I come here  and read and write.  The rest of my time is spent on much more worthwhile endeavors  But at the moment I think maybe it is a security blanket  and if it keeps me away from porn than so be it

   cheers

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« Reply #167 on: May 16, 2020, 11:42:39 AM »
Well done on the streak, Mosesy. Real inspiration to see your journal clock up the days. I hope not to wasted any more time on that harlot.

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« Reply #168 on: June 06, 2020, 05:40:01 AM »
I am free from porn now for 126 days. I did my laundry this morning, about to go grocery shopping. I am spending the rest of the day working on Coleman lanterns.

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« Reply #169 on: June 27, 2020, 02:31:02 AM »
Freedom from porn now for 145 days.  am watching Sandra Bullock and Julia Roberts movies on Amazon Prime now. I have a good day ahead of me today (Saturday). My laundry is almost done, I have an appointment at 7:20 am to get my hair cut, grocery shopping after that and then lanterns after that. It is so nice to have extra money. I don't have to worry about how much I spend on gas and groceries, I can buy another lantern once a week, and still have money to put in savings. I don't have any idea how many thousands of dollars I spent on cam girls.

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« Reply #170 on: July 07, 2020, 02:46:38 AM »
I am free from porn now for 157 days. Going for 200 and then 365. I am going to work this morning, normally I would be surfing porn before work but this morning I am watching movies on Amazon Prime, no temptation to look at porn. Once I read "Your Brain on Porn" it just showed me how much damage it was doing and I made the conscious decision not to look at porn and am doing very well with that.

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« Reply #171 on: July 07, 2020, 04:23:34 AM »
Congratulations moses, you are already at a place a lot of others would like to be. Im pleased for you.

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« Reply #172 on: July 10, 2020, 11:26:38 PM »
Congratulations on your growing streak! I'm at the very beginning of the journey and looking for motivation. How do you feel different, how has life changed (if at all) since you gave up PMO?

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« Reply #173 on: July 12, 2020, 05:49:38 AM »
I am porn free now for 162 days. It feels good. My roommate is now my best friend. Instead of hiding out in my room we talk to each other, drink and smoke together, and sometimes go on road trips. Yesterday I bought two large porterhouse steaks and early this morning I made a big bowl of potato salad to eat with the steaks. We will feast like kings this afternoon. I would not have had the money to do this when every penny I had was spent on cam girls. This was a secret so I had to avoid people, my eyes downcast, my shoulders slumped, defeated. I am free from that now; I look people in the eye, I care about them, I have overcome Satan's defeat.

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Re: Exodus
« Reply #174 on: July 12, 2020, 11:46:55 AM »
Don't forget the asparagus!  Well done Moses, good job and congratulations!