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Re: We can do it if we don't give up
« Reply #125 on: August 14, 2020, 09:04:49 AM »
Day 2

I relapsed 2 times in a row but, this time, I didn't binge in neither of them which was good for my brain. I didn't fuck myself up completely like I used to but I, of course, feel that "post-relapse flatline" that I go through for several days. Because of this flatline, I don't feel too good. It's like the "life inside of me" is asleep.

It annoys me how this addicted brain does things. How it "forgets" the misery, how it does give a fuck about the big picture and only wants the fix. In the heat of the moment, I forget all the misery that waits for me for days afterward. Again, not binging has actually been the best thing in all this. I don't remember when I didn't binge last time. I'm fucking tired of not being balanced. I alternate between feeling too aroused and feeling lethargic.

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« Reply #126 on: August 15, 2020, 05:06:37 PM »
On the positive side though, you didn't binge though right? I feel in the quest for 'the perfect streak', we forget to recognize how important things like this are. I feel this is important as things like not bingeing or not succumbing to the chaser multiple times before getting back on track is a sign the strength & mechanisms of this addiction are slowly breaking down.

You said awhile back you had a goal to lose a certain amount of weight I believe? How's that going?

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Re: We can do it if we don't give up
« Reply #127 on: August 16, 2020, 10:09:12 AM »
On the positive side though, you didn't binge though right? I feel in the quest for 'the perfect streak', we forget to recognize how important things like this are. I feel this is important as things like not bingeing or not succumbing to the chaser multiple times before getting back on track is a sign the strength & mechanisms of this addiction are slowly breaking down.

You said awhile back you had a goal to lose a certain amount of weight I believe? How's that going?

Man, I haven't been doing shit. I know, this is not alright.

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Re: We can do it if we don't give up
« Reply #128 on: August 16, 2020, 10:09:45 AM »
Day 4

The craving for porn is pretty intense.

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Re: We can do it if we don't give up
« Reply #129 on: August 17, 2020, 05:46:05 AM »
Day 5

I've been here thousand times. The craving for porn has started so did porn dreams. I can feel the routine trying to sneak in and lead me back to relapsing on my free days. I'm tired of binging on my free days and then going to the first day of work feeling lethargic and overwhelmed by everything mentality.

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« Reply #130 on: August 17, 2020, 06:22:41 AM »
Hey Buddy, with the upcoming free days; have you tried making a planning for those days to keep yourself occupied. As you've said it yourself you've been here quite a lot. What is it that you can do to change it this time? Can you do something in the house? Go to a friend or family? Do some exercise?

You have to stay strong for a couple of days after that it will get less intense!

Good luck buddy i'm rooting for you!
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Re: We can do it if we don't give up
« Reply #131 on: August 17, 2020, 07:09:08 AM »
Hey Buddy, with the upcoming free days; have you tried making a planning for those days to keep yourself occupied. As you've said it yourself you've been here quite a lot. What is it that you can do to change it this time? Can you do something in the house? Go to a friend or family? Do some exercise?

You have to stay strong for a couple of days after that it will get less intense!

Good luck buddy i'm rooting for you!

Man, I don't really know. I'll see what I can do.

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« Reply #132 on: August 17, 2020, 08:46:43 AM »
Hey Man, no worries it doesn't have to be profound. For all I know clean out the refrigerator haha. But try to think about stuff like that. I do know that on days when I'm home alone and I don't have a plan, i tend to relapse. Now for instance the wife is going out and this is perfect for relapsing but I got a plan in place; I am going to do 15 minutes of work out then play 30 minutes on the playstation and then do the dishes (when the dishwasher is ready).



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« Reply #133 on: August 17, 2020, 12:18:41 PM »
Is loosing weight still one of your current goals? If so, why don't you invest some time and effort in making it happen. You could, for example, establish a small daily working out routine, read about healthy eating habits, learn to cook a couple of healthy dishes on your own, etc. Be proactive, focused, and in control. The lack of these, could lead you back from where you want to move away from.

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« Reply #134 on: August 18, 2020, 03:17:34 AM »
^ This

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« Reply #135 on: August 18, 2020, 07:37:10 AM »
Be proactive, focused, and in control. The lack of these, could lead you back from where you want to move away from.

Indeed; this
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Re: We can do it if we don't give up
« Reply #136 on: August 20, 2020, 07:30:14 AM »
Day 8

I'm struggling. And it's not like I have a month away from porn. It's too fuckin early for this shit. Difficulties start around a week mark every fuckin time.

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« Reply #137 on: August 20, 2020, 10:41:57 AM »
That's normal and we all know about the power of autopilot. There seems to be no way out, but there is. Give yourself the time you need to find the right way through this period.

In general, pick a goal that you want to achieve but you can't because of PMO. I've posted about the theory behind it somewhere else, but it will weaken the urge.
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« Reply #138 on: August 21, 2020, 01:29:11 AM »
Hey Buddy,

Around day 8 is also very difficult for me! Keep fighting the good fight!
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« Reply #139 on: August 30, 2020, 02:23:45 PM »
Hey Buddy how are you doing over there? Even when times are rough we are here for you! please give us an update on how you're doing.
Doesn't matter if you're doing great or bad! We are here nonetheless
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