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Stannis

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Some Questions(small trigger warning)
« on: August 17, 2014, 03:01:17 PM »
Hi!

So I am on day 95 of no porn no masturbation. I have tons of energy, look much better and feel better. Memory and focus have improved and I feel more confident and sociable.
But I have some conerns and some questions.
I think I started no PMO in a flatline and I am definetly still in it. Although I crave women and lust for them, when I see a hot one, I don't think I had one boner the whole time from looking at them or socializeing with them. I dont really get boners during the day at all but I preety much had 100% MW the whole 95 days. They dont last long lately but I had some strong ones in the high phases. I watched some 15 min Nina Hartley instruction video on Cunnilingus(wasnt bingeing just preparing for some better times ;) ), first pornographic video in 95 days. I was prepared for a brobdingnagian boner so I promissed myself I wouldnt touch my junk but I didnt even have a semi. But my brain felt hardcore aroused. I was only wired to porn before and never really too women at least not since puberty. So at 31  I am prepared for a long flatline. Does this mean that currently I am not wired to anything? My brain is in a limbo now and heeling itself? Will I get a lot of spontanious boners when this is over? Should I try to get boners from my own touch only? I dont think that this is possible at the moment anyway as I dont feel any reaction when I touch my penis. Oh the deadness!
So I am thinking about buying a pump to give it some exercise(if u dont use it u loose it) and to masturbate again when I get more daytime erections. No porn of course and only once every 2 weeks. Maybe with a fleshlight? Or should I just let it lay dead for another six months for more brainhealing? This is so frustrating as I have such an urge to fuck but virtually no dick to fuck with.
thanks

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Re: Some Questions(small trigger warning)
« Reply #1 on: August 19, 2014, 12:16:35 AM »
Flatlines suck. It might be that, and if so, there's no telling how long you'll need. Did you watch Gabe's video? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I0dDLWGMhUo&feature=youtube_gdata_player

However, some guys are healed and don't realize it until they're with a live partner. Suggestion: STart slow, not with a one-night stand that puts a lot of performance pressure on yourself. It's normal to "sputter" a bit at first before your rewiring fully kicks in.

Read this: http://www.yourbrainonporn.com/how-do-i-know-when-im-back-to-normal