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Ages 20-29 / I am frustrated.. Trying for 3 and half years now...!
« on: June 21, 2020, 12:24:58 AM »
Day 1 Today at 21 June
Today relapsed after 20 days.

Trying to do reboot from 16 December 2016.
My best streak is of 49 days. At 16 December 2016 I know all bad effects of porn, but i continued with porn.

Now my addiction is on peak. I need some help of you brothers.
Please support me to rise again and do it now.
Please support me to end this 4 years of battle against porn.
Please support me to it this time.

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Ages 20-29 / Breaking the cycle of addiction for whole life
« on: November 27, 2019, 08:28:40 AM »
 Day 0
Getting tired off.
Getting bored.
I am ashamed of relapsing after each successful attempt.
Getting frustrated after each relapse.
Lossed so much because of this addiction.

Day 1 at november 29
Getting started.
From today going to start it.

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Ages 20-29 / Last attempt to quite porn
« on: August 17, 2019, 05:46:14 AM »
Hello i am 21 years old.
I started watching porn when i am 15. I am not able to focus on my study after one year of heavy addiction.
Past three years i am trying to leave it . but today i am relapsed . i am relapsed 103 times in 2019.
Its a hudge number. Doing single mistake 103 times is very bad thing. This shows that i don't want to reboot .
But today i am writing this new journal to play a final reboot. I know that every relapse don't reach you to 0. But its dangerous that to relapsing when you know everything about this shit.
So my friends from 4 pm of 17th august i start my final reboot journal.
Day 0
Just relapsed. Feeling very guilty. Very depressed. I don't want to go out of home.

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Ages 20-29 / Its time to really change
« on: June 02, 2019, 09:12:50 AM »
Started at 7 pm at June 2
I checked my fapping frequency today. And its 16 times a month. Its horrible .really horrible. And from now i really need a strong plan to recover mentally as well as physically.

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Ages 20-29 / Reboot is not choice its mandatory
« on: May 20, 2019, 10:07:15 PM »
May 21(Mission Reboot 79)
Day  1(79th day for me)
Foggy head from morning. Yesterday afternoon i am relapsed. Defeated urges at night. Now at day 1.

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Ages 20-29 / Many times i relapsed but again started.
« on: March 19, 2019, 01:33:39 PM »
Day [email protected] 20 March 2019
Yesterday i relapsed because of an gif .
I lost my reboot control and relapsed.
But now started again.

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Ages 20-29 / Life of relapsed rebooter
« on: February 07, 2019, 12:26:13 AM »
hi friends
i am here for 2 years now. i just relapsed after 30 days of reboot.
i did 4 times pmo. i am feeling very guilty about myself.
i am 15 years old when i first saw porn. from that age i am addicted.
now i want to stop but i am unable what should i do.

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Success Stories / A big success for me after so many relapse..
« on: December 29, 2018, 07:02:24 AM »
Hello everyone
I am at day 11 today. From age of 13 I am addicted to porn. Now this year I am frequently relapsed after 147 days successful reboot. After that this is first time to I am at day 11. So for motivation I am written my success here.

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Ages 20-29 / started reboot at 12 September 2018
« on: September 12, 2018, 03:03:00 AM »
hi guys and girls
i am here after relapsing after 147 days.
yes i am relapsed. i doing PM from 5 years. i am frustrated now. suciadal thoughts are  there. i wasted my five years of life. i am unable to quit this addiction please help me.
at this time i have so many urges. i am controlling myself from this second. i need to first change my thinking. first day is always a hard day. so i need to fight it. but anyone here please motivate me and guide me.

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Day 1 at march 26
my internet connection is off now. all i have little bit urges. But completed this day. Meditation helped me a lot to solve my urge problem

day 5 at march 30
successful 4 days. doing daily meditation.

day 11 at april 5
high confidence. good health. feeling very well.

day 24 at april 18
feeling great

day 29 at april 23
 clean day

Day 35 at April 30
As I am addicted to porn , I have so many urges before 10 days, but now there is no compulsive urges, living life without stress . solving my problems on my own ways

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Teens / REBOOT IN 2018
« on: December 18, 2017, 12:29:48 AM »
hello to my all friends ,

 i am here from december 2016, today i completed total 1 year i want to make my 1 year performance journal. In 2017 i did my best and i also failed many times.
my average of relapse is 4 to 7 times in a month. by this average my 2017 year score is 84 relapses from 365 days. that is 261 days reboot.
As today is 18th december 2017 and its my 2nd day of reboot relapsing after 14 days. in 2017 my best is of 44 days. in 2016 its of 89 days.
in this whole year i learned so many things. I thank you reboot nation you educated me , and i hope this new year which coming in 13 days made we all a successful rebooter.

from dec 2013 to dec 2014
i relapsed 306 days in a year.

from dec 2014 to dec 2015
i relapsed 170 times,

from dec 2015 to dec 2016
i relapsed 150 times.

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Teens / Want to leave this addiction (suffering 4.5 years)
« on: November 28, 2017, 11:05:56 PM »
i am very frustrated now , and i want to leave this. i want a real reboot.
Day [email protected] nov :
Today morning is not good. feeling sad because i am relapsed yesterday. God please help me to reboot.
i will promise myself to dont do it again.
i am very lucky person in past days but porn changed my life and made me looser. as i see my past 4.5 years i just did reboots and relapsed. i not tried anything else in mylife. my carrier is flushed , i am very alone in my life.
now i doing prayer to god to save me. and i know that god save me from this.


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Teens / 100 Days challenge for Great Life !!!
« on: October 10, 2017, 09:31:35 PM »
Octomber 11
This is my first day to reboot because i relapsed . i fight this addiction from age of 16. now i am 19. three years are gone but never changed. so please gather on my this journal to reboot ourselves.
today i deciding new goal of 100 days
100 Days = 10*10;
i devide 100 days into 10 parts. each part is of 10 days.
First part start at 11 octomber 2017
day 1:
today i fighting with this addiction . i need to ignore all urges today.at end of day i learned one thing that is to act in present moment. from today in my whole life i never see porn.

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Teens / Let me do it ..
« on: September 13, 2017, 10:11:38 PM »
I was scared of doing reboot again and again and relapsing. Want to stop. God pls help me.
Day 1
I succeed today .

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Ages 20-29 / New Reboot
« on: September 06, 2017, 07:33:06 AM »
From today I turned to 20 years old . so starting new reboot

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Teens / 900 Days challege; 30 subparts in this each part is of 30 days
« on: August 07, 2017, 11:42:46 AM »
Day 1 and 2
Clear days
Day 3 and 4
Foggy head.
Low self esteem.
Did exercise .
Positive towards my goal
i counting it in decreasing manner from 900 day .
It means my 4th day today :P is 897th day for me. It helps.

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Success Stories / 30 days success after 4 years of struggle
« on: July 06, 2017, 01:01:36 AM »
hi friends...
i am a 19 year old boy. i hooked to porn addiction at 2013 . In 2015 i decided to quit porn becauase porn addiction affected my life nigatively. every common things in my life became negative. I posted my journal in teens section of this site. I come  directly on changes.
1. After rebooting i thinking positivly in every way in life.
2. i living life with a joy..
3. nothing special than friends and family in life i learned after reboot.
4. At last guys i am sad because i wasted 4 years of my life i this addiction . pls leave it. it is totally life nigative thing.
today i thinking about my 4 years which i lost in this darkness. I am very lucky person bcs i defeated this addiction. i realise diffrence between real life and virtual life.

what i did to reboot?
1. I meditated each and every day .
2. Played ground games like footbaal.
3. Tried long yoga sessions.
4. I am writing my personal diary each and every day which helped me alot

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Teens / How to Overcome Porn Addiction and Get Your Life Back
« on: May 16, 2017, 07:42:38 AM »
How to Overcome Porn Addiction and Get Your Life Back


Break the cycle of porn addiction in 5 easy steps
How to Overcome Porn Addiction and Get Your Life Back

"How to Overcome Porn Addiction and Get Your Life Back" courtesy of mandyxclear

He sat there in his suit and wept. "I've stopped going out. I'm scared I'll get discovered doing it at work. I don't even want to see my girlfriend! It's ruining my life!"

Jeremy wasn't talking about alcohol or crack cocaine or marijuana. He was talking about the porn addiction that had been dictating his work and social life, even the amount he was sleeping. "Honestly, it's as if I am being held ransom by the need to look at the stuff!"

Porn addiction is as real as any other chronic dependency. Sure, you're not injecting or ingesting anything into your body. But chronic porn viewing does have a physical effect (exhaustion of dopamine release in the brain). And the time spent 'ingesting' porn is mind-numbing and leaves you exhausted. After hours of viewing porn on his computer, Jeremy couldn't 'switch off' his mind enough to sleep.

Internet porn addiction, like online gambling, is easier to fall into, because what once involved going out and meeting others face-to-face can now be done easily and covertly at the click of a button. This availability makes it all the more potentially devastating. So why does porn addiction happen?
Am I really addicted to pornography?

Being addicted to porn isn't, strangely, just about sex. Viewing porn is hypnotic in that it narrows the focus of attention and makes us lose track of time. So people use it for escapism but, in the end, people always want to escape the very thing they were using...to escape. Jeremy said as much: "If I was having a rough time at work or been rowing with the girlfriend, I'd use porn to just forget about everything." Eventually, of course, the cure becomes the curse.

How do you tell if you're actually addicted to porn? Well, if you feel it controls you and you regularly view porn for hours and often feel you can't stop; if it affects work, social life, sleep, and (in Jeremy's case) even made him miss meals, then it needs to be dealt with.

"The problem," Jeremy told me with a shaking voice, "is that my job needs lots of very detailed concentration."

Porn blunts the senses and leaves you feeling unable to focus or concentrate on anything else. It can also leave you feeling disgusted with yourself.

Excessive porn viewing steals time away from actual real-life and potentially productive projects. The more porn you view, the more you want to view and the more extreme it needs to be to give you the same 'buzz'.
How porn addiction lies to you

Like any addictive behaviour, porn ultimately never delivers what it seems to promise. First there's the feeling of building expectation before you start viewing. At first there is excitement but then, bit by bit, you start to feel hollow as the 'pornographic gorge' gathers pace.

And, as with all binges, you start to feel overloaded, bloated with images. When you do finally stop, you feel worse than you did to start with as you experience the post-binge comedown.

But, as Jeremy found, there is a way back. Here are five key steps to overcoming porn addiction.
1) Feel the consequences before they happen

Ever notice how, in the moments before you view porn, you are stuck in the moment? How you become blinkered to how you're going to feel after viewing porn? How the excitement clouds out the reality of the post-viewing exhaustion, disappointment, shame, or disgust?

Next time you feel tempted, for whatever reason, walk away from the computer or DVD or magazine and sit in another room – just for twenty seconds. Close your eyes and really focus on the memory of the reality of how you feel after a porn viewing session.

Or listen to the free audio session at the bottom of the page for help doing this.

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Focus in on the tiredness, the self-disgust and disappointment, the feeling of foggy-headedness. Get into the habit of doing this. It's like unmasking a seemingly attractive stranger and discovering the ugly reality. At this point, you may feel conflicted. It's as if one part of your brain is trying to trick the rest of you.

So:
2) Challenge the porn baloney

Step two is to challenge the addictive part of your brain that tells you stuff like:

    "It's not so bad; plenty of people do it!"

Challenge: You could tell yourself: "Yeah and plenty of people self-harm!" Or: "I don't want to be like all those other people out there doing it!"

    "It's okay, you only need do it for a few minutes; just have a look!"

Challenge that with something like: "Yeah sure, look how much time I waste usually. I know that you won't let me get away lightly! It's all or nothing!"

    "Come on, you've had a difficult day. You deserve it!"

Challenge perhaps with: "Yeah and this would make it ten times worse! I need something that is really going to make me feel better about myself."

    "Who's going to know? It doesn't matter!"

Challenge with something like: "Well, don't I matter? Because I'm going to know and anyway, others could find out!"

So, whenever you catch yourself trying to justify looking at porn, learn to challenge it. You can do this by first catching what the attempted 'phony sales techniques' or 'baloney' of your mind are that try to get you to view. Write these down, then write really good objections to them.
3) Gain insight into how porn addiction works

Think about when the danger times are. What's different about these times? Are you more likely to be procrastinating from a work project or feeling bored, lonely, unappreciated, or tired? Using porn because you are tired and need to 'rest the brain' has the effect of making you much more tired.

Make a plan for when you feel like this that doesn't involve flinging portions of your life away on porn. If you feel tired, close your eyes for twenty minutes and relax, have a bath, or even go for a walk (exercise can often make us feel more energized). Get to know yourself and when you are more likely to be taken in by porn's promptings. Plan ahead by telling yourself: "Okay, tonight is the end of a long week and I'll be tired and maybe a bit stressed. I know it's a porn danger time, so I'm going to the gym after work. Then I'll arrange to meet friends." The more you walk away from porn, the easier it becomes to walk away.

Also think about the times when you haven't used porn, even when you had the opportunity. What was different about those times? Really think about that. Because therein lies the solution.
4) Use your imagination to help yourself

It's often been said that the largest sexual organ is the brain. If you feel genuinely sexy, then rather than dulling your imagination by passively watching porn, learn to fantasize. You'll spend much less time doing this and can 'direct your own porn' within your mind. You'll find this ultimately more satisfying, but strangely less compulsive than viewing porn. Why is this?

Addiction relies on 'unpredictable rewards'. That means that we feel compelled to keep doing something if its rewards are unreliable; so slot machines, even email, can be addictive because they don't always give us something worthwhile. (1) If slot machines always paid out, they would be, strangely, un-addictive! So it is with porn; some images do it for you and some don't. Your own fantasy can be consistently rewarding and therefore less addictive, saving you time and energy.
5) Go do something more interesting instead!

Ideally, what would you rather be doing with time you've wasted on porn? Furthering your career? Perfecting playing a musical instrument? Socializing? Even watching TV can feel more productive. Time isn't infinite, so rather than spending time worrying about porn viewing or feeling guilty, start focusing on what you really want to do with your time. Suppose someone spent 40 hours viewing repetitive porn (and porn is repetitive). How good would they become if they used those 40 hours to cook or read or write? How fit would you be if you ran for those hours or took dance classes? How informed would you be if you viewed the History Channel for that time? What we put into our heads is just as important as the diet we give our bodies.

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Teens / 90;days challange
« on: May 07, 2017, 11:39:14 PM »
As i founded i seen porn last 1350 days. means if i don't see porn 1350 days from now then i will be strongly rebooted. as someone says Small aim is big crime , because of these i decided this aim at 18th of May 2017. and this end at 18th May 2022. and as i did 4 months successful reboot till now i am able to did these.
1st day of reboot:
Today i feeling very child minded and light. with a headache in my head.and at last the day is ended without any relapse

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Teens / Relapsing - Learning- Rebooting
« on: April 08, 2017, 07:26:11 AM »
Today is 4th may 2017 1st day of point
reboot,
                                   I relapsed yesterday , but i learned many things, and my temporary successes is based on knowledge i have from this relapses. i just want to tell u that i am not depressed because of relapse but like an worrier i want that this not happen in my life again.
and i am very curious about my reboot because of this i can leave my problems like
1. slow in study
2. Low IQ
3. Social anexity
4. Foggy head
5. bad personality

above all problems i have from when i first seen porn that is at age of 16..
and now i am very happy that am going to reboot my all powers..

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Teens / Relapser must read it one time..!!
« on: February 19, 2017, 05:15:32 AM »
here i am writing urges i defeated in my whole life or things that cause a big urge
bcs i realised there are 5 Stages of reboot is like follows:
1. start reboot
2. relapse 1(Reallise a new strong urge)
3.again reboot2
4. relapse 2(Last new urge )
5.again reboot 3(reallise again a new strong urge)
  6. reboot (Facing old urge with its known facts)
   7.reboot (Facing old urge with its known facts)
   8.reboot (Facing old urge with its known facts)
   9.reboot (Facing old urge with its known facts)
 
10. Finally rebooted bcs no a single new urge is remained to fall u dowen.

and now i am at step 5.


* when i am a child and don't know about sex i had many urges to see porn.

* when i seen the videos first time i have urge to see the diffrent types of videos

*when i see any hot girl in tv, pics or at web then have an urge to see porn clip of that girl.

* to check new videos bcs don't wnt to see old ones.

* when i accedentally have an porn clip.

* when i read positive about PMO.

* When i am alone.

* in holidays or boredom

*after a reboot to check positive effects of reboot i did PM .

i faced this urges till now , and i know u also faced it.

Again one advice to u all

* Please don't check your sex drives by relapseing.

* keep in mind that because of reboot u r healthy.

* Do sex with ur gf but don't see porn if u wnt to see changes caused by reboot, and if u don't have gf then relax bcs u get it early because of u r rebooted now.

and i leaving porn for my true love.
and see today is 23rd march  . that is 6th day of my reboot.
at 25th march its a 8th day of reboot and a clean day

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Teens / 5 main stages of rebooting after relapses...
« on: February 04, 2017, 08:50:17 AM »
here is me after success facing a failure.
but i know my failure is just a step forword to my reboot..
bcs i realised there are 5 Stages of reboot is like follows:
1. start reboot
2. relapse 1(Reallise a new strong urge)
3.again reboot2
4. relapse 2(Last new urge )
5.again reboot 3(reallise again a new strong urge)
  6. reboot (Facing old urge with its known facts)
   7.reboot (Facing old urge with its known facts)
   8.reboot (Facing old urge with its known facts)
   9.reboot (Facing old urge with its known facts)
 
10. Finally rebooted bcs no a single new urge is remained to fall u dowen.

and now i am at step 5.
pls all of you leave porn to save  human beings

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Porn Addiction / i liked this one
« on: January 30, 2017, 07:40:39 AM »

500 days! :')
« on: January 26, 2017, 09:52:55 AM »

    Quote

Today marks a big day in my NoFap journey. I hit 500 days with no masturbation. Zero.

Since taking on NoFap and getting past the initial withdrawal, I've earned a Bachelors degree, and now I'm halfway into my Masters degree.

My confidence is SKY HIGH. I feel I can better direct my thoughts, I can focus better.

I'm with this incredibly beautiful girl, who is well aware of my NoFap journey.

Now, I used to get off about 4-5 times a day, everyday, for about 8 years. (!)
I was mentally and physically 'broken'.

I used to get hot women into bed, but my penis wouldn't fucking budge.
You can imagine what a beating my confidence took.

But all that is in the past and I have a few tips for you guys :

1) Begin!
Beginning is really one of the hardest parts of the challenge. I've tried and failed many times on day one.

2) Set short goals

Immediately beginning with the goal of doing 90 days is super intimidating. I started with two days.
When I managed two days, I tried four. Then a week, so on.

I did fail many times in between, and its okay to fail, but remember the longer you put it off, the longer your full recovery will take.

3) Everybody's body is different.

Just because someone else was healed in 90 days does not mean you will.
It is highly likely that you will, but the hardest battles are always meant for those who can fight it.

4) The withdrawals.

For me, this was the hardest part. I had mood swings and began feeling incredibly alone. It only makes you want to masturbate more, but DO NOT GIVE IN.

5) Stay positive.

You will begin seeing changes very soon. Its just the first two-three weeks that are the hardest. Get past it and you're sorted.

6) Talk about it.

Talking about it to someone, maybe your partner, is incredibly useful. Try it.

7) Help others.

Once you reach the end of your journey, you realise NoFap is now part of your life and it will remain so.
Put some time aside to help others who are just beginning their journey. (:

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Porn Addiction / Relapse is the big problem..but not so difficult.!
« on: January 29, 2017, 09:40:23 PM »
NEW SUCCESS JOURNAL FROM 27-02-2017
hey friends,
i am a 18 year old boy, with thinking of have a good life and be successful in life. but as every successful man have some trouble in his life before he success , i feel we have this struggle in our life.  i tried reboot after i seen body weakness , social anexity . When i started i have 1 to 3 days reboot each time. after some months i able to do 10 days reboot. after that in aug 2016 i did 50 days reboot. after that in dec 2016and jan 2017 i did 33 and 30 days reboot. i also written my success stories in this site. but after relapse i was gone again in addiction cycle. and today is 27th feb 2017 and i remember i relapsed first at 26th jan 2017 after that i did 5,7,10 days reboots. but still not completed final reboot or still not completely leaved the PM; so i starting this journal to keep all things experience track, i writing here what i feel, what i think, how i defeating urges, and more info. I only wnt by reading my journal u reboot and get a motivation to reboot.
trigger of last relapse:
while i am searching on youtube for a video i seen some sexual video advertises. after that i think in mind that- i am a successful rebooter now and there is no chance to fail , so why not i check new videos and come back. after that while checking i played one video . with no no in mind i did M. and not one time i did it two times this day

27-02-2017-First day of reboot
Today i have a upset belly and feeling dumb and bored. today is my university exam starting. not prepared well and this relapse also makes me feel very guilty. I wnt to over this day early. at last day i am in reboot and its 7th day (u read it in comment i posted) i am very good. but after relapse i feeling very bad. had so many urges. not wnt to go away from home today , only wnt to play computer games and see TV , also not wnt to study bcs of a foggy head. i don't know when i completely get away from porn , but i know this time i done this.

https://sites.google.com/site/hackbookeasypeasy/home
pls check it. its very good; when u read it u have a clear mind and u also able to reboot quickly. this book is not a self motivation but a reality of how easy u can reboot.


After success we can't think about our reboot hardwork. how we are worked for just one day reboot at first timne. and bcs of it we fail .

keep in mind that addiction is not a controlled fun. without it its a slow poison to all human social values and human bodies. we are the community here to work for society. we working for our all human being. we are starting rebooters. and good news is that members are increasing for reboot nation.
Again one advice to u all

* Please don't check your sex drives by relapseing.

* keep in mind that because of reboot u r healthy.

* Do sex with ur gf but don't see porn if u wnt to see changes caused by reboot, and if u don't have gf then relax bcs u get it early because of u r rebooted now.

and i leaving porn for my true love.
and see today is 23rd day of my reboot . that is 6th day of my reboot.
at last best of luck.

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Porn Addiction / REBOOT-2017
« on: December 31, 2016, 12:30:39 PM »
I completed 27 days of reboot starting from 28th dec to today 23rd jan 2017.
I learned from my experience of porn addiction without knowing the effects of porn deeply anyone cant reboot ..

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