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Ages 20-29 / Will I ever?
« on: November 26, 2019, 04:07:52 PM »
Call me Mal.. I am 23 years old, and I am a student!! Yes until now I spent 6 years in two different universities in two different countries and yet I haven't graduated!! Not just that!! Now I am at the third university!! Reaching the third level for the first time, not because I am a good student! But because now I'm very experienced with failure, so I know how to avoid it!
You know why??
It's Porn.
I hate to admit it, but I have been addicted to porn for a long long time! And that just made me the worst version of myself living the worst version of my life!
I used to be a debater! A very nice writer! A very caring person who cares about his family and his society! At the same time I was that great person, I was doing PORN, now I lost all that great man stuff, and I'm still doing PORN, and it sucks!

Always when you fall in love with someone, you wish him the best, so as porn addict! When I fall in love.. I leave.. Quitely, she doesn't deserve to be with such a fool! So I am very lonely! Thanks to PORN.
BTW I don't have any PIEDs, not yet!! But I think I am depressed and lonely, I hate it along with myself.

I don't have a job, I totally depend on my parents, they believe in me as all people around me do! But not me, I don't believe in myself..

Now it has been a week,, a week without PMO.. I just wanted to give it a shot for one more time! I'm not sure to be honest.. But I will do it any way..
I'm not sure will I ever debate again?
Will I ever hear people thanking me for what I write?
Will I ever get my degree?
And will I ever allow myself to love? And to be with the one I love??
I miss her so so much btw

Please if you have any thing to say.. Please say it.. I need it

Porn Addiction / I'm sure I can do it now!
« on: November 21, 2019, 05:05:00 AM »
Let's begin with the fact that I don't even remember when did I started to be addicted to porn and masturbation! I'm 23 years old and I think since eighth grade I haven't stopped this habit for more than a month! Thank God I have no health issues, not yet!! But I have  LIFE issues, MORAL issues!
You name it and I will say yes I have problems with it! And no matter how far I go denying it! At the end I know it's the porn and masturbation addiction what caused it all!
I will let you know how did this addiction affect my life and made me this bad person, but this would be in onther post, for this post I want to declare war on this habit and I'M SURE I CAN DO IT NOW! cuz I had enough! I believe I am a great person I just need to stop this stupid things! I don't want to masturbate anymore! I wanna marry a real woman! I wanna be strong and happy! with your wishes, support and prayers I WILL WIN!
I started this war just yesterday! So this is my second day! And I'm all the way up!

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