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Title: 19th birthday but still depressed , need help from anyone. please reboot nation
Post by: rcl5354 on February 09, 2015, 12:41:42 PM
Hey everyone my name is Robert. I'm 19 today and I've been rebooting since July 15, 2014. I knew I needed to quit porn use and masterbaition because it was affecting my life. I had PIED so bad I couldn't even get it up with porn anymore. What was even scarier was that my porn tastes started to creep out of my sexual orientation. I grew up straight, but as my porn use got worse, I used gay porn a couple times to get off. I always felt disgusted with myself afterwards. Then, after I couldn't get erections worth a shit, I found this website. I watched Gabes' videos and began to have hope. Ive been doing this reboot cold turkey. Now, if I think of a certain girl I can actually get a half erection sometimes even more. Doesn't seem like much but its a lot of progress for someone in my position. Recently, I just started having wet dreams. Not so bad, but they involved gay things that made me feel unnatural when I woke up with my dick all wet. Fast forward a few more gay wet dreams and now I'm afraid to sleep. I haven't been able to sleep at all because I'm afraid of having wet dreams that might have gay things in it. (Please do not think I'm anti gay, but I always thought I was straight, I had a gf and I had my first crush in a girl in 1st/2nd grade). Please anyone help me, I literally pray and pray that I won't have these weird dreams and I never sleep. Its affecting my life badly. If anyone can give me advice, I would be very grateful. Please rebooters, a fellow Rebooter needs help. Sometimes my thoughts get to me. Like am I going to be able to have kids? Am I ever gonna find women sexually attractive again? Will I ever be at peace? Have I been gay all these years and never knew it? These questions keep me up at night.
Title: Re: 19th birthday but still depressed , need help from anyone. please reboot nation
Post by: Marko7776 on February 09, 2015, 08:03:30 PM
Hey man! stop being depressed. You have 209 days, 209 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!! and you are probably not gay man, I've reached some crazy stuff too.. Just keep going! Porn dreams/flashbacks will fade over time. Also I don't think fantasizing is a good idea (as most people here) so you shouldn't fantasize.
Title: Re: 19th birthday but still depressed , need help from anyone. please reboot nation
Post by: rcl5354 on February 09, 2015, 09:26:20 PM
Even though I had gay wet dreams ? Now all I think about in my day is the gay wet dreams and I don't want to but they stand out in my mind. & yeah I've been porn free for a while. I've accidentally run into some mudes while on YouTube or while on Google so I've limited my internet use so I don't bump into things like that. & I always loved girls but yeah all these gay thoughts are depressing me. How do I sleep? Let the dreams happen?
Title: Re: 19th birthday but still depressed , need help from anyone. please reboot nation
Post by: Marko7776 on February 10, 2015, 07:22:38 AM
Yes, let it happen and do not overthink them
Title: Re: 19th birthday but still depressed , need help from anyone. please reboot nation
Post by: rcl5354 on February 10, 2015, 10:02:36 AM
Thank u man. Just this little conversation has brought me some help!