CyrusG
Member
Good morning all,
I am new to the site and did post a lengthy intro on the main forum section. I will make this one a bit shorter or at least will attempt to.
I'm 42 yr old father of 2, currently going through divorce. Like many I've read on here, my story started way back as a young teen and then gradually became an addiction. I've known within the last few years that it was a serious problem however I did not have the will power to address it. Instead I just kept making excuses to myself and to the women that were in my life sexually. I was even at one point afraid to tell my therapist the degree as to which it over my life. I think the biggest thing for me was the realization after reading articles and such that this was serious. It's not just a fluke that the enormous amount of men in particular are experiencing the affects of PIED and other things associated with the subject matter.
I know there is a strong emphases on PIED but there is so much more that is going on. I realized that I to had become numb mentally to the beauty of a meaningful healthy relationship with a woman. the industry had taken another victim (me) for the last time. I used to be a different man back then. I respected the bond between a woman and man and I felt it inside when I really loved that person. We deny ourselves the ability to be loved and to love. Without that how can that manifest into physical love? It's P induced attraction, its the act 2, scene 3 induced moment we want with her. It's not her we really want and only what we want her to be in our twisted mind state. one can not have both worlds.
At any rate, I'm starting my journal here and although i look forward to getting back to the man I once was, I know this will be a tough journey ahead. So this is DAY 1 without P.... I know I will be fine for the first week or so but after I start feeling the tank getting full again, the real challenge will start physically and mentally. I do appreciate that there are "real men" out there like myself who only want to better themselves. I look forward to supporting everyone here and for your support as well.
I am new to the site and did post a lengthy intro on the main forum section. I will make this one a bit shorter or at least will attempt to.
I'm 42 yr old father of 2, currently going through divorce. Like many I've read on here, my story started way back as a young teen and then gradually became an addiction. I've known within the last few years that it was a serious problem however I did not have the will power to address it. Instead I just kept making excuses to myself and to the women that were in my life sexually. I was even at one point afraid to tell my therapist the degree as to which it over my life. I think the biggest thing for me was the realization after reading articles and such that this was serious. It's not just a fluke that the enormous amount of men in particular are experiencing the affects of PIED and other things associated with the subject matter.
I know there is a strong emphases on PIED but there is so much more that is going on. I realized that I to had become numb mentally to the beauty of a meaningful healthy relationship with a woman. the industry had taken another victim (me) for the last time. I used to be a different man back then. I respected the bond between a woman and man and I felt it inside when I really loved that person. We deny ourselves the ability to be loved and to love. Without that how can that manifest into physical love? It's P induced attraction, its the act 2, scene 3 induced moment we want with her. It's not her we really want and only what we want her to be in our twisted mind state. one can not have both worlds.
At any rate, I'm starting my journal here and although i look forward to getting back to the man I once was, I know this will be a tough journey ahead. So this is DAY 1 without P.... I know I will be fine for the first week or so but after I start feeling the tank getting full again, the real challenge will start physically and mentally. I do appreciate that there are "real men" out there like myself who only want to better themselves. I look forward to supporting everyone here and for your support as well.