It had already happened with two partners before my most recent girlfriend (now ex). One was a complete firecracker, and at the time, I couldn't understand my personal malfunction. I reasoned it out, and blamed it on nervousness. For some reason, "Marlena" still hangs around me, and I know that I can have it whenever I want. The next, I had a shot at a good relationship, and blew it by not being able to pull the trigger. I would have, had I been able to...
It wasn't until my most relationship, that I realized I had problems. Sex started out great with my then girlfriend, and I coincidentally hadn't been using porn for well over a month. We hit a rocky patch, and had some communication barriers. She used sex as a weapon, and I disarmed it with porn. She called me out on my addiction, and I wised up. I committed myself fully to rebooting, and got back into the saddle at a pretty good speed. Unfortunately, it was all for naught, and no victory I'd made was quite good enough for her. It got to the point where I couldn't put up with put-downs any longer. We broke it off.
She should have stuck around...
The girl, I'm with now doesn't know where I've been, and I'm not sure when I'll be willing to tell her, but I liked how I didn't have to lie when she casually asked me if I watched porn. I told her, "I used to." I feel like a man knowing she is getting everything I have in that dept., and I'm fully confident that she's enjoyed it. I get high thinking about spending Saturdays with her and how much fun it is "saving up" for her.
I'm sorry for being graphic.
Other guys...
For those who are without support and who've lost support...fuck them, you can do this.
-Get back to fucking reality and unplug. Do not support slave labor.
-The women you watch are pixels, and not real. They do not love you. The things they do, real women do not. A real woman will make you work for her. Find a woman worth fighting for.
-Take your Maca, start running, talk to women, touch women, flirt with women, have sex with women.
-Enjoy having energy again, and enjoy it even more when a woman completely drains you of it by Sunday morning...with all that raging testosterone boiling in you, I promise you, she will.
-Look people in the eye.
-What other people think about you is none of YOUR business. This is their problem.
-Always forward, even if you slip.
I can't promise I'll be here to post again, but I needed to let men know that this site saved my life. It will save yours if you start being honest with yourself.
You are not alone.
It wasn't until my most relationship, that I realized I had problems. Sex started out great with my then girlfriend, and I coincidentally hadn't been using porn for well over a month. We hit a rocky patch, and had some communication barriers. She used sex as a weapon, and I disarmed it with porn. She called me out on my addiction, and I wised up. I committed myself fully to rebooting, and got back into the saddle at a pretty good speed. Unfortunately, it was all for naught, and no victory I'd made was quite good enough for her. It got to the point where I couldn't put up with put-downs any longer. We broke it off.
She should have stuck around...
The girl, I'm with now doesn't know where I've been, and I'm not sure when I'll be willing to tell her, but I liked how I didn't have to lie when she casually asked me if I watched porn. I told her, "I used to." I feel like a man knowing she is getting everything I have in that dept., and I'm fully confident that she's enjoyed it. I get high thinking about spending Saturdays with her and how much fun it is "saving up" for her.
I'm sorry for being graphic.
Other guys...
For those who are without support and who've lost support...fuck them, you can do this.
-Get back to fucking reality and unplug. Do not support slave labor.
-The women you watch are pixels, and not real. They do not love you. The things they do, real women do not. A real woman will make you work for her. Find a woman worth fighting for.
-Take your Maca, start running, talk to women, touch women, flirt with women, have sex with women.
-Enjoy having energy again, and enjoy it even more when a woman completely drains you of it by Sunday morning...with all that raging testosterone boiling in you, I promise you, she will.
-Look people in the eye.
-What other people think about you is none of YOUR business. This is their problem.
-Always forward, even if you slip.
I can't promise I'll be here to post again, but I needed to let men know that this site saved my life. It will save yours if you start being honest with yourself.
You are not alone.