So I am approaching in my 90 day hard reboot on Monday I believe. I have been clean the whole time, I did not relapse, only thing I did do was open a fake Facebook account and did a little bit of flirting but no M, that lasted about a week and then I come to realize what I'm doing is wrong and I'm just gonna end up relapsing so I deleted the account. I have also woken up a few times in the morning with a woody and strocked it a little bit but never orgasm so I think I have been pretty clean so far. My issue is that I am married and been clean all this time and my wife knows about my situation and I am wondering if and when and how do I start to get on track again with a normal sexual relationship, she is not ready to have sex with me because of an affair I had about 2 yrs ago so do I start to masterbate with her around, or do I just continue to not do anything and be clean? I spoke with her about it and she seems to think that if I do masturbate then it's pleasure that I'm getting without her and that may not be the healthiest choice, so I don't know what's right and what's wrong anymore. Does anyone have any tips or guidance for me. Maybe there's somebody out there that can provide me with the right answer, a professional answer.
I'm so confused about what to do and what not to do, I feel like my head is all messed up
I'm so confused about what to do and what not to do, I feel like my head is all messed up