20bettermyself15
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Time to try again. I have tried to quit many times in the past with little success. A few years ago I was able to quit for over 90 days and wow what a change. I know this works and need to get back to the real world.
Just finished a long relapse of a week. Found a video that played into deep fantasies and kept going back for more. The bad part, was the lack of guilt or feeling bad. In the past I usually bet myself up, but this time it was just enjoyment. Little voice still there, just not the overwhelming guilt. That is a bad sign. I want to be better than porn, so I know that I need to change.
I am sitting here fighting the urge to look now, however I want to change. Even though I didn't feel as bad as in the past,it is time.
I have been addicted to PMO for over 30 years and will soon be 46. I will try to update on a regular basis. Monday was the last day of PMO time to start making my life the life I want and deserve.
Just finished a long relapse of a week. Found a video that played into deep fantasies and kept going back for more. The bad part, was the lack of guilt or feeling bad. In the past I usually bet myself up, but this time it was just enjoyment. Little voice still there, just not the overwhelming guilt. That is a bad sign. I want to be better than porn, so I know that I need to change.
I am sitting here fighting the urge to look now, however I want to change. Even though I didn't feel as bad as in the past,it is time.
I have been addicted to PMO for over 30 years and will soon be 46. I will try to update on a regular basis. Monday was the last day of PMO time to start making my life the life I want and deserve.