Hey ! This is my first time really being apart of any kind of forum, so I will do my best to stay active on here.
Basically I'm a 22 year old male from Canada who's struggled with porn since I was probably about 11-12 years old. I never really knew, or I guess cared about the implications of my use for many years until I started College. I had little to no desire to actually go out and meet girls, I had conceived myself to just stay in and watch porn because I knew that at least I could guarantee some completely obscure and artificial form of pleasure to get me through the day. Little did I know that was just my brain trying to convince me that PMO was in some way beneficial to me, which I think everyone here can agree it's not.
Since the start of lockdown (March 2020) I really made a goal to stop watching porn and viewing NFSW images, I had some good weeks...and some bad ones, but I haven't given up yet nor will I ever. Flash forward to now, a year later since I started really trying and I'm clearing still trying ahaha in Feb I had a completely free pmo month, with no social media or anything and I felt great, but ended up relapsing. Now during March I would say I've relapsed maybe once a week for like two mins at a time just a quick look before I catch myself and stop, with one day of a total setback (w PMO). Today was one of those quick look days so I decided to start a journal on here because I've been hearing about how helpful people find them. There is more I could write here but I don't wanna end up writing an entire essay for my first post haha, so I'll just leave it here
My day 1 starts now
Basically I'm a 22 year old male from Canada who's struggled with porn since I was probably about 11-12 years old. I never really knew, or I guess cared about the implications of my use for many years until I started College. I had little to no desire to actually go out and meet girls, I had conceived myself to just stay in and watch porn because I knew that at least I could guarantee some completely obscure and artificial form of pleasure to get me through the day. Little did I know that was just my brain trying to convince me that PMO was in some way beneficial to me, which I think everyone here can agree it's not.
Since the start of lockdown (March 2020) I really made a goal to stop watching porn and viewing NFSW images, I had some good weeks...and some bad ones, but I haven't given up yet nor will I ever. Flash forward to now, a year later since I started really trying and I'm clearing still trying ahaha in Feb I had a completely free pmo month, with no social media or anything and I felt great, but ended up relapsing. Now during March I would say I've relapsed maybe once a week for like two mins at a time just a quick look before I catch myself and stop, with one day of a total setback (w PMO). Today was one of those quick look days so I decided to start a journal on here because I've been hearing about how helpful people find them. There is more I could write here but I don't wanna end up writing an entire essay for my first post haha, so I'll just leave it here
My day 1 starts now