This too shall pass!

Hey ! This is my first time really being apart of any kind of forum, so I will do my best to stay active on here.

Basically I'm a 22 year old male from Canada who's struggled with porn since I was probably about 11-12 years old. I never really knew, or I guess cared about the implications of my use for many years until I started College. I had little to no desire to actually go out and meet girls, I had conceived myself to just stay in and watch porn because I knew that at least I could guarantee some completely obscure and artificial form of pleasure to get me through the day. Little did I know that was just my brain trying to convince me that PMO was in some way beneficial to me, which I think everyone here can agree it's not.

Since the start of lockdown (March 2020) I really made a goal to stop watching porn and viewing NFSW images, I had some good weeks...and some bad ones, but I haven't given up yet nor will I ever. Flash forward to now, a year later since I started really trying and I'm clearing still trying ahaha in Feb I had a completely free pmo month, with no social media or anything and I felt great, but ended up relapsing. Now during March I would say I've relapsed maybe once a week for like two mins at a time just a quick look before I catch myself and stop, with one day of a total setback (w PMO). Today was one of those quick look days so I decided to start a journal on here because I've been hearing about how helpful people find them. There is more I could write here but I don't wanna end up writing an entire essay for my first post haha, so I'll just leave it here

My day 1 starts now

So I guess now its actually the full day 1.

I got through the whole day without it pretty well. It popped into my head from time to time but I just let the thought pass and moved on. I noticed that not doing other things that require self-control helps to make not viewing porn easier, like not eating whenever I want or going on my phone at the first impulse that pops up. I also went camping last night so that was nice to be outside and relax

and now im back to day 0, just had relapse. I don't even know what happened I just felt stressed and thought one quick look at  social media wouldn't hurt, and that turned into a full PMO. I need to be more honest with myself about staying away from everything

So I made it one full week with no PMO, then just had a relapse. I find that I don't usually think about porn a whole lot, or at least I can just not act on it UNTIL I have a dream about it. I don't understand. Usually around the one week mark I will start dreaming about watching it, or some sort of sex related dream. Then when I wake up its the first thing on my mind, and for the rest of the day it will be a constant thing on my mind. It happened two nights ago, then I was on the brink of looking at porn throughout that day but I stopped myself, then last night I had ANOTHER sex dream and ended up having a relapse.

It is annoying because it feels like my mind is working against me cause theres not a whole lot I can do about the stuff I dream. Has anyone here found something that helps them when they are having sex dreams? or at least some advice on how to push through