Hello everyone. It has been 7 years since I have been on this site. In fact I can?t believe I still remember my login. That is a good thing. The reason for my lack of participation is because I WAS healed! I did not need to come on here to get answers or try to make myself feel better.
Very quick background. I had PIED since my first sexual experience when I was 17. I started looking at porn at around age 14. I didn?t know why I had ED and it continued all throughout college until I found out about rebooting. I was 22 at this point. It probably took me 6-9 months to see the type of benefits discussed on this website. In fact I can remember seeking out Gabe personally looking for help. I was in a very bad place as many people are who suffer from this are.
After months and months of rebooting I finally went out to breakfast with this girl I met at a party. We talked and went to breakfast. After breakfast we went on a walk and held hands. I WAS HARD AS ROCK. Despite feeling a little embarrassed I was SO HAPPY! This occurred in 2015. I am writing this post 6 years later because I screwed up. Throughout our relationship, which has unfortunately just ended, I started PMO again. Towards the end it felt like I was just using her for sex and not connecting. I lost it. I lost sight of what I worked so hard for. I recently went on another date and my Dick was dead. Totally dead. I?m convinced I could still get it up for my ex, but that?s only because I was comfortable with her.
When I was with her and striving towards making good decisions I was able to start a good career, buy a home, start my own business, etc. now I?m flatlined and pissed at myself. The porn itself was not necessary the cause of the end of the relationship but I promise you it didn?t help and now I?m in flatline.
I?m telling you all this as a warning. Our situation is the exact same as a raging alcoholic having a sip of beer. It?s just not a good idea. I?m genuinely curious to see how long it will take me this go around to recover again. Thank God I know from experience that it is actually possible.
Very quick background. I had PIED since my first sexual experience when I was 17. I started looking at porn at around age 14. I didn?t know why I had ED and it continued all throughout college until I found out about rebooting. I was 22 at this point. It probably took me 6-9 months to see the type of benefits discussed on this website. In fact I can remember seeking out Gabe personally looking for help. I was in a very bad place as many people are who suffer from this are.
After months and months of rebooting I finally went out to breakfast with this girl I met at a party. We talked and went to breakfast. After breakfast we went on a walk and held hands. I WAS HARD AS ROCK. Despite feeling a little embarrassed I was SO HAPPY! This occurred in 2015. I am writing this post 6 years later because I screwed up. Throughout our relationship, which has unfortunately just ended, I started PMO again. Towards the end it felt like I was just using her for sex and not connecting. I lost it. I lost sight of what I worked so hard for. I recently went on another date and my Dick was dead. Totally dead. I?m convinced I could still get it up for my ex, but that?s only because I was comfortable with her.
When I was with her and striving towards making good decisions I was able to start a good career, buy a home, start my own business, etc. now I?m flatlined and pissed at myself. The porn itself was not necessary the cause of the end of the relationship but I promise you it didn?t help and now I?m in flatline.
I?m telling you all this as a warning. Our situation is the exact same as a raging alcoholic having a sip of beer. It?s just not a good idea. I?m genuinely curious to see how long it will take me this go around to recover again. Thank God I know from experience that it is actually possible.