Ending 5 years of PMO

jammynofap

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I'm 18 years old, Jamaican, skinny, light skin and tall and some girls say I'm handsome. I'm currently Single. I try to have sex but I fail. She say I have a big penis.  :). Today April 29,2014. Is 41 days since no porn, masturbation and orgasm. . I started to watch porn in grade 7, the first day I orgasm it felt so good and things continue for 4 or 5 years. I am still a virgin . I really hate this ED. I want to look at ladies and get a erection, talk to them and get a erection, look at them and even hug them. . I am hope that I can get over this. I began running( physical exercise) to get a bit of fitness. I hope by 60 days to have a big improvement. I suffer from social anxiety. I sweat like hell when I get 'nervous' or something trigger it off. I have no fare to have sex. No performance anxiety. 

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Day 42. How I got started. I started on a magazine I found in my house, not sure what age I was. Then I continued with some yahoo images. I never fap during that time. The first day I O. I was watching P while my Mother and Father in  the kitchen. I got up from the living room and when to the bathroom, close the door start to M and the I O. It was one of the best feeling in life. Everything started then. I always M to P and girls, teachers and any other women I found interested. The way I used to M was just rubbing my penis in my pants and it was filled with thick teenage cum. Then I moved up to the toilet seat, dry as the desert. I shed skin it was painful at times but I enjoy the O. I then move to the shower with soap or shampoo. 'Those were the days' to be honest I enjoyed it but, it has ruin my life. More on my next post. Want to keep it short   
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FLAT LINE - Today May 01,2014. I am now experiencing flatlining. Its really shameful for a 18 year old. I feel nothing trust me this is really bad. Anyone read this please quit PMO. Porn is nothing just me. Even though I'm a virgin (only because of PIED). Porn has made me do some crazy things. Flat line is the worst part, because you already know you have PIED. Many guys this age are busy with the real thing. It is made for everyone. 

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I have relapsed, I watch porn on June 8, 2014, and I also masturbated without the use of porn. I feel bad about it, My EQ has drop (relationship problems) My Sperm quality is much better. I want to see a doctor though, my parents are unaware of this all. My best friend/ girl friend has said some bad shit about it. Help someone please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 

Gabe Deem

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Today April 29,2014. Is 41 days since no porn, masturbation and orgasm

Hey man,

Good job on going 41 days no PMO! You are doing great, keep going with the reboot.

I'm currently in a relationship with a 20 year old, who is helping going through this, we try to have sex but I fail. She cried for me when she got back to her house while we on the phone. I cried too

I know the feeling man, I had this same situation. Use the pain you experienced in this moment as motivation to stay away from porn forever. You know where that road leads you, to a place that you cannot connect properly with someone you are attracted to and care about. Very frustrating as a young man. You are not alone many guys here went through the same thing. We're here for you.

I am hope that I can get over this. I began running( physical exercise) to get a bit of fitness. I hope by 60 days to have a big improvement.

If porn is the problem, you can. Our brains can change our entire lives so there is always hope... just be patient. I cannot say how long your reboot will take as everyone is different. But be prepared for the long haul, some younger guys can take many months. I just don't want you to go through what I went through of freaking out after 6 weeks of not being healed because at the time that was the recommended time to reboot. It took me 9 months to be able to have successful sex.... the most depressing, frustrating, painful period of my life hands down. However, the good news is I came out of the reboot fully functional, full of joy and motivated to pursue my dreams and goals. You can do the same... just keep on trucking with the reboot. Don't worry about how long it "might" take. Keep re-wiring with your girl and let some time pass.

Again, you are off to a great start. Welcome to the Nation

Much love
 
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