Greetings fellow gentlemen!
I've decided to share my story with you. Lots of ups and downs. If you'll read my journal then you'll see that it varied from one post to another. In one post, I could be extremely positive, and on the next one I would sound almost dead inside.
But let's get to the topic.
I had almost no sexual experience with humans whatsoever until the age of 20 (I am still this old, but focus DFTS, you're not here to talk about your age). And then I met a girl that made me happy. I fell in love. I am not kidding, I really am in love. And after some time, and a lot of painful, stressful situations, I finally got her. We've been together for some time, and we've decided to do it (she was a virgin too ((see? was. WAS. she WAS a virgin. such spoilers)) ). And when it came to being naked... Guess what? What it could be? I'll tell you. My dicksie was completely flaccid.
I am not kidding. I was not even able to put a condom on. It was a mix of performance anxiety and obviously PIED, but dear lord... That was embarrassing.
Next few attempts (five f-ing times. just imagine how desperate I was) situation repeated. I was able to get an erection but for a short period of time, and after putting a condom on, I would lose it. So no sex.
I abandoned porn (I masturbated maybe something like 2 or 3 times, and I was getting a BJ twice - thrice a week) you can read how it went in my journal. But tl;dr version: went through a flatline, a lot of anxiety, and one day I've decided to try to have sex again. It didn't work. I was embarrassed.
But I pressed on, and tried on the day after the failure. It was 53rd day of my reboot, and I was able to penetrate my gf. She was extremely tight, and I could not get in without hurting her, so I've decided to get a little in, and try another time. But I was able to penetrate her a little, which made my confidence fly high... On day 58 I had real successful sex. I didn't last long, maybe 5 minutes, but I was amazed that I was able to do it. And I was wearing a condom.
Now I struggle a little with PE, but guys... I am able to have sex, even few times in a row, just like I imagined it should be.
So press on, nothing is impossible.
Cheers,
DFTS
I've decided to share my story with you. Lots of ups and downs. If you'll read my journal then you'll see that it varied from one post to another. In one post, I could be extremely positive, and on the next one I would sound almost dead inside.
But let's get to the topic.
I had almost no sexual experience with humans whatsoever until the age of 20 (I am still this old, but focus DFTS, you're not here to talk about your age). And then I met a girl that made me happy. I fell in love. I am not kidding, I really am in love. And after some time, and a lot of painful, stressful situations, I finally got her. We've been together for some time, and we've decided to do it (she was a virgin too ((see? was. WAS. she WAS a virgin. such spoilers)) ). And when it came to being naked... Guess what? What it could be? I'll tell you. My dicksie was completely flaccid.
I am not kidding. I was not even able to put a condom on. It was a mix of performance anxiety and obviously PIED, but dear lord... That was embarrassing.
Next few attempts (five f-ing times. just imagine how desperate I was) situation repeated. I was able to get an erection but for a short period of time, and after putting a condom on, I would lose it. So no sex.
I abandoned porn (I masturbated maybe something like 2 or 3 times, and I was getting a BJ twice - thrice a week) you can read how it went in my journal. But tl;dr version: went through a flatline, a lot of anxiety, and one day I've decided to try to have sex again. It didn't work. I was embarrassed.
But I pressed on, and tried on the day after the failure. It was 53rd day of my reboot, and I was able to penetrate my gf. She was extremely tight, and I could not get in without hurting her, so I've decided to get a little in, and try another time. But I was able to penetrate her a little, which made my confidence fly high... On day 58 I had real successful sex. I didn't last long, maybe 5 minutes, but I was amazed that I was able to do it. And I was wearing a condom.
Now I struggle a little with PE, but guys... I am able to have sex, even few times in a row, just like I imagined it should be.
So press on, nothing is impossible.
Cheers,
DFTS