after a month of nofap, now finally i can concentrate! and i was confused by a software development tool for months, but this morning i figure out how it actually works!
it's just a beginnening. i started to fap when i was 11. and now 10 year past, i became a totally loser & perve. i got no friend, and no one like me.
when i started fapping, i was too young to realize what is love, and porn made me believe 'sex is love, and partner like to make her painful and hurt hersulf'. so i started treated others like object. years later i still couldn't have relation with anyone. and every girl think me as a perve.
huge failure in social life, and addiction conbine together, leading to serious mental issue. i was living in depression and l just couldn't be happpy what ever i did, it feels like i was just a breathing machine, consume water, food and porn, then waiting for death. i can't actually 'achieve' a thing, couldn't focus, and mod swing and insomnia -- that's just painful.
it's just a start. i'm gonna quit the god damn porn FOR-EVER and live my life
it's just a beginnening. i started to fap when i was 11. and now 10 year past, i became a totally loser & perve. i got no friend, and no one like me.
when i started fapping, i was too young to realize what is love, and porn made me believe 'sex is love, and partner like to make her painful and hurt hersulf'. so i started treated others like object. years later i still couldn't have relation with anyone. and every girl think me as a perve.
huge failure in social life, and addiction conbine together, leading to serious mental issue. i was living in depression and l just couldn't be happpy what ever i did, it feels like i was just a breathing machine, consume water, food and porn, then waiting for death. i can't actually 'achieve' a thing, couldn't focus, and mod swing and insomnia -- that's just painful.
it's just a start. i'm gonna quit the god damn porn FOR-EVER and live my life