NewMan10
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Hello everyone. I started with PMO at 10 years or so, I consumed hours and hours of pornography, so I masturbated many times in a single day, now I am 21 and I am trying to stop this addiction that is ruining my brain and my sex life with my partner (premature ejaculation, PIED, insecurity, frustration...).
I've tried to quit addiction many times and I've often relapse. Right now I am around on the day 30th, I have not seen porn or masturbated, but I think I fell because I have seen pictures of women in bikinis and other photos of them without clothes (Google pictures). Is this a relapse or not?
I see myself with my girlfriend every eight days or fifteen days, and when she tells me that she's going to have the house alone, I come in as an anxiety to have a lot of intimacy with her (because I have in my mind that the house will be alone), that is, days before I meet her I just think about having intimacy with her, on her genitals, she naked, having sex (one way or another fantasize about the days before with her , it gives me like an anxiety, and I have little erections because of this). How can I deal with this? Is this kind of fantasistizing a relapse? ?How to solve this?? Is it advisable or not to have intimacy with my girlfriend (touching, kissing, oral sex)? And another thing, I'd talked to my girlfriend before about my addiction and that I'm trying to complete the 90 days in a difficult way, but I've always fallen into sexual contact with her. Then I don't know if it's convenient just to kiss her and already or do more than that?.
I feel like I have very sensitized pathways in my brain, for example, when I take a shower and wash my penis or shave it, I start to get a little erection. Is it normal to have this or is it because of my addiction?
Even sometimes fantasies arise from my mind related to my girlfriend's mother, and her big breasts operated, that is, imagining that her mother is also naked and that I am having sex with her. When I have these fantasies, I also have little erections. This leads me to think that porn has greatly affected my mind. Is this considered a relapse? How do I fix this? How do I get my mind not to generate those fantasies? ((This same question applies when I fantasize in my mind about my girlfriend))
I really just love my girlfriend, and I only think of her, I never want to be unfaithful to her.
I still have my doubts about the reboot and the difficult way, I would like to know how I should cope with my sex life with my partner so that I do not feed my addiction. if you can answer the questions above and the next questions I would be very grateful to be able to fight right with addiction and heal my brain and my sex life.
It should be clarified that when I have these fantasies, small erections or when I saw the images of women in bikinis and without clothes, I always put my feet and hands cold, is this anxiety?
I'm a virtual college student, so every day I have to be on the computer. I follow RebootNation on YouTube and have watched several videos.
I currently deleted my social networks and have the BlockerX extension for web browser, block several shit pages I visited from the Windows host. If anyone knows that more techniques can be implemented I would thank them.
I hope these questions help more people. I wish everyone can recover from this shit of evil!
Should I start over from day 1?
When do I know I'm satisfactorily recovering?
At what point do I realize I'm really advanced in recovery?
The post above is a little long but I appreciate your help.
I've tried to quit addiction many times and I've often relapse. Right now I am around on the day 30th, I have not seen porn or masturbated, but I think I fell because I have seen pictures of women in bikinis and other photos of them without clothes (Google pictures). Is this a relapse or not?
I see myself with my girlfriend every eight days or fifteen days, and when she tells me that she's going to have the house alone, I come in as an anxiety to have a lot of intimacy with her (because I have in my mind that the house will be alone), that is, days before I meet her I just think about having intimacy with her, on her genitals, she naked, having sex (one way or another fantasize about the days before with her , it gives me like an anxiety, and I have little erections because of this). How can I deal with this? Is this kind of fantasistizing a relapse? ?How to solve this?? Is it advisable or not to have intimacy with my girlfriend (touching, kissing, oral sex)? And another thing, I'd talked to my girlfriend before about my addiction and that I'm trying to complete the 90 days in a difficult way, but I've always fallen into sexual contact with her. Then I don't know if it's convenient just to kiss her and already or do more than that?.
I feel like I have very sensitized pathways in my brain, for example, when I take a shower and wash my penis or shave it, I start to get a little erection. Is it normal to have this or is it because of my addiction?
Even sometimes fantasies arise from my mind related to my girlfriend's mother, and her big breasts operated, that is, imagining that her mother is also naked and that I am having sex with her. When I have these fantasies, I also have little erections. This leads me to think that porn has greatly affected my mind. Is this considered a relapse? How do I fix this? How do I get my mind not to generate those fantasies? ((This same question applies when I fantasize in my mind about my girlfriend))
I really just love my girlfriend, and I only think of her, I never want to be unfaithful to her.
I still have my doubts about the reboot and the difficult way, I would like to know how I should cope with my sex life with my partner so that I do not feed my addiction. if you can answer the questions above and the next questions I would be very grateful to be able to fight right with addiction and heal my brain and my sex life.
It should be clarified that when I have these fantasies, small erections or when I saw the images of women in bikinis and without clothes, I always put my feet and hands cold, is this anxiety?
I'm a virtual college student, so every day I have to be on the computer. I follow RebootNation on YouTube and have watched several videos.
I currently deleted my social networks and have the BlockerX extension for web browser, block several shit pages I visited from the Windows host. If anyone knows that more techniques can be implemented I would thank them.
I hope these questions help more people. I wish everyone can recover from this shit of evil!
Should I start over from day 1?
When do I know I'm satisfactorily recovering?
At what point do I realize I'm really advanced in recovery?
The post above is a little long but I appreciate your help.