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Hey everyone,
Here I am, ready to embark on a journey to restart my life.
I've masturbated since I was 12 years old, but now, aged 29, things have become progressively worse. I used to have all the luck, incredible opportunities and success coming to me, but the more I masturbated, the more these things began to disappear. From the age of 18, the Dark Age started for me. Family life was in tatters, jobless, and locked away in my room, unable to talk to anyone. Porn was my salvation.
Slowly, I had to carve out something in my life. I've had a dream for a long time, but never had the guts to finish it, lacking confidence in myself to achieve it. I won't say what it is, until I've finished it. Nevertheless, in this time, I found a job in retail, and have hopped from job to job, unfulfilled, huge regrets at decisions I've made, and wondering why nothing good was happening to me. Opportunities began to open up, and quickly slip away. A work colleague said that it was like someone up above was teasing me, dangling the carrot, and then withdrawing it when I get close. I felt there had to be more to this. Why were sudden incredible job opportunities on my lap, and then withdrawn without a response from me? Dream house moves ended just when I'd received the paperwork ready to sign. Work promotions and pay rises offered to me, but then withdrawn later in the day. Something was amiss, and these stacks of incidents weren't feeling like unfortunate coincidences.
Law of Attraction
I've stumbled upon the Law of Attraction, and sexual energy, and I believe this is where it's gone wrong. I've drained myself to the point of exhaustion, unable to feel, visualise, or feel excited about anything.
Something I read talks about personal or quantitative magnetism. I'm not referring to sexual magnetism, where men/women (whichever orientation you are) are attracted to you sexually, but generally, those who have this aura around them. Not the charismatic, or the confident, but those who can say a line, and people hang on their every word. When someone walks into the room, and is able to command everyone's attention and respect.
Work colleagues past and present have often commented how it feels like I'm not even there, and it hurts. I've had enough.
My dopamine receptors are so shot to pieces, that I can't even think clearly, unable to feel good and confident, and, as another LOA piece of material said, when your magnetism is low, when you're low on energy, you're unable to transmit your thoughts to the universe, nor is your personal field large enough to influence events in your favour.
Diet & Supplements
Away from the esoteric stuff, I've also invested a lot in nootropics and other supplements to begin my journey, including Lions Mane, Bacopa, Choline, Arginine, Tyrosine, DLPA, Korean Ginseng, Ginkgo Biloba, Glutamine, Zinc, Vit D, Fish Oil, Cod Liver Oil, Probiotics, Lutein, Magnesium, Biotin, B-Vit Complex, Vit C Powder, Carnite (both L and Acetyl), Taurine, Manuka Honey, Spirulina, Chlorella, Holy Basil powder, Selenium, Sea Kelp, Turmeric, 5HTP.
I take these at different times during the week, some everyday, others at different times, but in the past week, in preparation for this journey, I've stopped all of them, to ensure my body has not adapted.
In terms of diet, I'm starting a simple diet involving one large meal with meat, a complex carb, and vegetables, which I'll eat before work. No lunch, and when I get back from work, it'll be a large bowl of porridge with fruit, nuts, peanut butter and a slice of cheese. I've been doing OMAD (One Meal A Day), which is all of your calories within one sitting. The problem is, I've been eating so much junk in that one sitting, I've just ballooned. At least eating much better foods at two parts of the day should also help me in my recovery process.
Targets
1). June 1st - August 1st - 60 days
This is my number 1 objective. Tomorrow, work starts to get hectic, and my next holiday is 1st August. 60 days to begin the healing process.
2). August 1st - September 1st - 90 days
September 1st is my next holiday, and would also reach the magic 90 day mark often talked about in Nofap circles.
3). Long term target: I read a success story that had a person suggest for every year you've masturbated, add a month to your journey. 29 years to day-12 years = 17 months.
Recovery may happen a lot sooner, or take longer, It's not a figure set in stone. I'll likely have far smaller targets, like 120, 180, 240, 300, 360.
PROJECT RESTART
PROJECT RESTART is a tag being used the Premier League in English football to resume the Premier League season, implementing safety measures in line with the Covid-19 outbreak. I thought it was a brilliant title, and something I can relate to as part of this journey.
NOFAP LOCKDOWN
I consider this journey my personal lockdown involving Nofap. Restrictions are no porn, no masturbation, and no intentional orgasm. In terms of easing restrictions, my intention is for this to be in the form of weening off the nootropic supplements, so that my brain begins to become used to its new default settings, without relying on nootropics themselves. I will look to evaluate these when I reach my first target.
Resetting my dopamine receptors is paramount to my recovery, to removing the brain fog, and being able to feel again.
Conclusion
I aim to update this post everyday to confirm I've completed a day.
Let Project Restart commence!
Here I am, ready to embark on a journey to restart my life.
I've masturbated since I was 12 years old, but now, aged 29, things have become progressively worse. I used to have all the luck, incredible opportunities and success coming to me, but the more I masturbated, the more these things began to disappear. From the age of 18, the Dark Age started for me. Family life was in tatters, jobless, and locked away in my room, unable to talk to anyone. Porn was my salvation.
Slowly, I had to carve out something in my life. I've had a dream for a long time, but never had the guts to finish it, lacking confidence in myself to achieve it. I won't say what it is, until I've finished it. Nevertheless, in this time, I found a job in retail, and have hopped from job to job, unfulfilled, huge regrets at decisions I've made, and wondering why nothing good was happening to me. Opportunities began to open up, and quickly slip away. A work colleague said that it was like someone up above was teasing me, dangling the carrot, and then withdrawing it when I get close. I felt there had to be more to this. Why were sudden incredible job opportunities on my lap, and then withdrawn without a response from me? Dream house moves ended just when I'd received the paperwork ready to sign. Work promotions and pay rises offered to me, but then withdrawn later in the day. Something was amiss, and these stacks of incidents weren't feeling like unfortunate coincidences.
Law of Attraction
I've stumbled upon the Law of Attraction, and sexual energy, and I believe this is where it's gone wrong. I've drained myself to the point of exhaustion, unable to feel, visualise, or feel excited about anything.
Something I read talks about personal or quantitative magnetism. I'm not referring to sexual magnetism, where men/women (whichever orientation you are) are attracted to you sexually, but generally, those who have this aura around them. Not the charismatic, or the confident, but those who can say a line, and people hang on their every word. When someone walks into the room, and is able to command everyone's attention and respect.
Work colleagues past and present have often commented how it feels like I'm not even there, and it hurts. I've had enough.
My dopamine receptors are so shot to pieces, that I can't even think clearly, unable to feel good and confident, and, as another LOA piece of material said, when your magnetism is low, when you're low on energy, you're unable to transmit your thoughts to the universe, nor is your personal field large enough to influence events in your favour.
Diet & Supplements
Away from the esoteric stuff, I've also invested a lot in nootropics and other supplements to begin my journey, including Lions Mane, Bacopa, Choline, Arginine, Tyrosine, DLPA, Korean Ginseng, Ginkgo Biloba, Glutamine, Zinc, Vit D, Fish Oil, Cod Liver Oil, Probiotics, Lutein, Magnesium, Biotin, B-Vit Complex, Vit C Powder, Carnite (both L and Acetyl), Taurine, Manuka Honey, Spirulina, Chlorella, Holy Basil powder, Selenium, Sea Kelp, Turmeric, 5HTP.
I take these at different times during the week, some everyday, others at different times, but in the past week, in preparation for this journey, I've stopped all of them, to ensure my body has not adapted.
In terms of diet, I'm starting a simple diet involving one large meal with meat, a complex carb, and vegetables, which I'll eat before work. No lunch, and when I get back from work, it'll be a large bowl of porridge with fruit, nuts, peanut butter and a slice of cheese. I've been doing OMAD (One Meal A Day), which is all of your calories within one sitting. The problem is, I've been eating so much junk in that one sitting, I've just ballooned. At least eating much better foods at two parts of the day should also help me in my recovery process.
Targets
1). June 1st - August 1st - 60 days
This is my number 1 objective. Tomorrow, work starts to get hectic, and my next holiday is 1st August. 60 days to begin the healing process.
2). August 1st - September 1st - 90 days
September 1st is my next holiday, and would also reach the magic 90 day mark often talked about in Nofap circles.
3). Long term target: I read a success story that had a person suggest for every year you've masturbated, add a month to your journey. 29 years to day-12 years = 17 months.
Recovery may happen a lot sooner, or take longer, It's not a figure set in stone. I'll likely have far smaller targets, like 120, 180, 240, 300, 360.
PROJECT RESTART
PROJECT RESTART is a tag being used the Premier League in English football to resume the Premier League season, implementing safety measures in line with the Covid-19 outbreak. I thought it was a brilliant title, and something I can relate to as part of this journey.
NOFAP LOCKDOWN
I consider this journey my personal lockdown involving Nofap. Restrictions are no porn, no masturbation, and no intentional orgasm. In terms of easing restrictions, my intention is for this to be in the form of weening off the nootropic supplements, so that my brain begins to become used to its new default settings, without relying on nootropics themselves. I will look to evaluate these when I reach my first target.
Resetting my dopamine receptors is paramount to my recovery, to removing the brain fog, and being able to feel again.
Conclusion
I aim to update this post everyday to confirm I've completed a day.
Let Project Restart commence!
