I'm 49 and have been compulsively masturbating ever since I can remember. When did I start? Six? Seven? Eight? I'm not sure. Pretty much on a daily basis. Many days two or three times. I don't think I've gone longer than a week since I was ten years old. Online video porn with high speed Internet set me completely over the top. I have been in recovery for addiction issues for almost three years, but now feel that I have merely replaced one set of addictions with another. Online porn feels like drug addiction to me. I have the same craving, sense of anticipation, crescendo of dopamine, come-down, apathy, and the cycle continues.
I've been reading YBOP for years. I just discovered this community. I want to get out of this cycle, for the sake of myself, my wife and my kids.
I've been reading YBOP for years. I just discovered this community. I want to get out of this cycle, for the sake of myself, my wife and my kids.