Hello! I am new here and I understand that I need help and support. I am 23 year old medical student. I started watching at pictures of half naked women in my early adolescence, then at 14-years old I started watching internet porn only when I was home sick or when no one was around. It was not a problem for a couple of years. Then 6-years ago I got into a relationship and started having sex and there were no problems and it felt great. Then I got another girlfriend and she was so hot. It felt amazing to have sex with her. But we broke up one year later and I started drinking and taking drugs to ease my pain. We reunited with her and stayed together couple of years more and then one night I couldn't get it up and I felt worthless. One week later I started having panic attacks at night for no reason and some months later they started happening outside, so I had to take antianxiety drugs and antidepressants. Broke up with the girl and my depression got really bad, I stopped taking medication and had nightmares every night and started to wake up at night feeling that my life has no point and everything around me felt so alien and I got really scared. So I started taking medication again and then I stopped watching porn for 14 days and felt really good, but I don't why I started watching again and again. So I think this is my place, to get help and help others. I am eager to meet you guys!