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John02@

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Day two

Hello, so yeah, this is it. am on day two of noPMO. I learnt that I had an addiction last year September and have since tried but always relapsed. I am 22 and my highest streak is 9 days. What I have learnt during my tries is that the first 3 days are fine. I don't have those many or strong urges, they only become strong on day 4 - 7 from day 8 they jut come and go.

So year join me and lets get this done.
 
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John02@

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Day 3

Yesterday at night was hectic. I had dreams about PMO and I had erections the whole night when I was waking up. I woke up many times running to the bathroom to pee.
 
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anubu0

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Pretty common. Push through. First week is brutal but if you can get past it you'll be in a good spot.
 
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John02@

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Day 4

I had urges yesterday. It was hectic but its usually day 3-6 that I relapse. So I got reed of my phone for a month because that's what I have been using since.
 
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worldlit4213

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Hey bro if you need an accountability partner personal message me and I'll keep up with your journal and you can lmk how you're doing. I'll try to respond quickly. Using the reboot journal is really helpful, it's important to jot down thoughts and summaries of your day and how you're doing. The first week or so is always the most difficult, so if you get through it it'll become gradually easier to build momentum! Keep going!
 
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John02@

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Day 5.

I had many urges yesterday. Even right now as am writing this. And i have a feeling that it will be the same through out the day. But I wont PMO, I am not going back to day one and start afresh.
 
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worldlit4213

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It's good to hear that you're aware of the temptations! I highly recommend checking out Strive21.com. It's free and it walks you through your first 21 days of no P. Equips you with some tools, advice, and encouragement. I find it a great help and I in fact go through them repeatedly. Stay strong bro, we're all watching and here to support you!
 
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John02@

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worldlit4213 said:
It's good to hear that you're aware of the temptations! I highly recommend checking out Strive21.com. It's free and it walks you through your first 21 days of no P. Equips you with some tools, advice, and encouragement. I find it a great help and I in fact go through them repeatedly. Stay strong bro, we're all watching and here to support you!
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Thanks bro. I just checked out the site and it will definitely be helpful
 
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John02@

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Day 6

currently experiencing strong urges and fantasies but then I am one day away from 1 week and 3 days from 10 days. Am extremely proud of myself.
 
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worldlit4213

Active Member
Don't worry John, after a week or so you may hit a flatline which will help to guide you through another week or so. Keep pushing bro!
 
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John02@

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Its really amazing what habits can do to the brain. I have been PMOing for 8 years now!! But I now understand that its not supposed to be easy, just like anything in life. This is a journey that I will one day reflect on my death bed and say " I conquered".

I cant wait to finally say "I don't watch porn" without feeling guilty, it will take time I know but I just have to embrace this journey and build healthy habits that will last.

This journey I am going through has taught me many thing about myself and life it's self and I am really grateful. I know it sounds crazy but am kind of enjoying feeling depressed but excited, feeling anxious but very energetic its like an adventure, like WW1, My brain had gained territory and control and now I have waged war to try and reclaim the territory back. I have to strategize and try to anticipate what my brain will do next then I counter attack. I need to build a route to the hypo frontality and recover and re-organize it, but brain is trying to stop that from happening coz it knows that once the hypo frontality start working, it will be hard to remain in control of the gained territory.

I never chose this journey but then I guess life chose it for me so I might as well embrace it and go with the flow.

At least I got a chance to feel how it is like to be an addict.
 
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John02@

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Day 7

I woke up early today and had strong urges. I didn't give in and am getting ready to go for a run. I feel like the whole of next week will be the same, waking up early and experiencing urges. I cant wait to get to the flatline
 
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Chris Oz

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John02@ said:
Its really amazing what habits can do to the brain. I have been PMOing for 8 years now!! But I now understand that its not supposed to be easy, just like anything in life. This is a journey that I will one day reflect on my death bed and say " I conquered".

I cant wait to finally say "I don't watch porn" without feeling guilty, it will take time I know but I just have to embrace this journey and build healthy habits that will last.

This journey I am going through has taught me many thing about myself and life it's self and I am really grateful. I know it sounds crazy but am kind of enjoying feeling depressed but excited, feeling anxious but very energetic its like an adventure, like WW1, My brain had gained territory and control and now I have waged war to try and reclaim the territory back. I have to strategize and try to anticipate what my brain will do next then I counter attack. I need to build a route to the hypo frontality and recover and re-organize it, but brain is trying to stop that from happening coz it knows that once the hypo frontality start working, it will be hard to remain in control of the gained territory.

I never chose this journey but then I guess life chose it for me so I might as well embrace it and go with the flow.

At least I got a chance to feel how it is like to be an addict.
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I love this idea of world war 1 and taking back territories. It's exactly what this journey feels like. We are like new recruits on a mission, as we fight the war, we get more experience, eventually we'd be turned into special black ops and we'd have enough skill to change the tide and then win the war. Lol.

I really do love this.

Hang on John. I'd be following you up now
 
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John02@

Member
Fantasies are becoming a huge problem. How do you guys deal with them?

I am experiencing anxiety, urges come and go but everything I see I am associating it with something sexual. Its really annoying.
 
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John02@

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Day 8

I am currently experiencing no urges and its early morning around 5am. But yesterday I did struggle to sleep and I woke up during the night for no reason. No morning wood which is what i had been experiencing since day one. But I think sexual urges will creep in during the day. And am expecting a lot of fantasies during the day.

But I honestly feel good. I have confidence, yesterday I met these girls and I didn't freak out as I usually did. But am not doing this for girls or something. I want motivation, drive, focus, concentration to get through with my degree and start an online business. Am studying Electrical and Information Engineering.
 
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worldlit4213

Active Member
Hey John! I think the first couple weeks are pretty tough because the brain is used to consistent dopamine from P. It's like experiencing withdrawal from quitting cigarettes. Once you hit flatline it'll be way easier, and after that I don't believe it will be as intense. Maybe try playing video games, adjusting your room, changing routine, picking up a hobby, or playing video games when you get hit with a tough wave of thoughts. Keep pushing bro!
 
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John02@

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Day 9

Do not fantasize, i repeat do not fantasize!! I did that this early morning and i felt like giving up. The more you read reboot material, the more the determination to stop PMO. I have been slacking off a bit on my reading and i feel weak.

I fantasized about myself in action and i almost relapsed, But i will get through today.
 
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universe1

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I have been working on recovery for close to a year now (with a few relapses) and the urges come and go no matter how long it has been.

The best piece of advice I can offer is to be honest with yourself. Try to differentiate between a porn urge for the dopamine rush and what is a genuine sexual urge driven by an actual person. If it isn't clear what is motivating your urge, perhaps it best to keep pushing for a flatline.

I continue to have vivid flashbacks of previous pmo sessions. I have found the best technique to counter these is to bring to mind the awful consequences of this addiction. When the thought of a 'pleasant' pmo experience may be on the horizion, remind yourself of the damage you have done to your life. I hurt my significant other through my addiction, reminding myself how much pain  I caused her helps to curb the desire to pmo.

Best of luck,  it does get better.
 
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