So, welcome to my journal.
I hope that by sharing my experiences and lessons Ive learned/yet to learn can help someone else on their own path. I also welcome any comments, advice and criticisms of my methods. This journey constantly provides new lessons to learn and I am excited to share and talk about them with all of you. Thank you for your time and if you have any questions or things I can help with please message.
Let me tell you about myself. I am currently 26 years old and I have been using porn since I was 14, so about 12 years. I have always used a variety of different methods to escape my unhappy reality since high school. Video games, books, and porn. From 14 onwards, porn become the thing that allowed me to regulate my emotions. It become the panacea for any negative emotions in my life. Unfortunately growing up in a Christian household meant that this habit was always shrouded in secrecy and shame.
During university, this tendancy for escapism only got more intense as my personal freedom improved. Drugs, junk food, cigarettes, video games and porn proved efficient ways to mask the pain of failed relationships and an unwillingness to take responsibility for my self.
Funny enough it was quiting smoking that opened my eyes to how much power I had in my own life. Thanks to Allen Carr's book I was able to see I actually had agency in my life. This gave me motivation to make changes in many areas of my life and I was healthier and happier than ever before in my life.
Up until that point, I had accepted porn use as perfectly normal and natural, something everybody did. However, after watching Gary Wilson's video on how porn affects the neuroscience of the human brain I become excited to quit porn like I had all the other addictions in my life. After managing about a month of quiting porn cold turkey on willpower alone I realized that porn was a far more serious problem than I thought.
That was back in 2017. Since then, I have been constantly trying to be free of porn. I can safely say that quiting porn is the most difficult thing I have ever done. Even after years of failures, relapses and binges, I am more motivated than ever to leave porn behind me and live the life I want to live. I have also realized that I can't/shouldn't do this on my own. So I hope that by sharing my experiences here I will be able to connect with others who understand the difficulties and the pain. I hope that together we can realize our inate potential and be the people we want to be.
I will try to post semi regularly, when I have something to share.
Again, please feel free to message and comment your thoughts or advice.
Today marks Day 3.
I hope that by sharing my experiences and lessons Ive learned/yet to learn can help someone else on their own path. I also welcome any comments, advice and criticisms of my methods. This journey constantly provides new lessons to learn and I am excited to share and talk about them with all of you. Thank you for your time and if you have any questions or things I can help with please message.
Let me tell you about myself. I am currently 26 years old and I have been using porn since I was 14, so about 12 years. I have always used a variety of different methods to escape my unhappy reality since high school. Video games, books, and porn. From 14 onwards, porn become the thing that allowed me to regulate my emotions. It become the panacea for any negative emotions in my life. Unfortunately growing up in a Christian household meant that this habit was always shrouded in secrecy and shame.
During university, this tendancy for escapism only got more intense as my personal freedom improved. Drugs, junk food, cigarettes, video games and porn proved efficient ways to mask the pain of failed relationships and an unwillingness to take responsibility for my self.
Funny enough it was quiting smoking that opened my eyes to how much power I had in my own life. Thanks to Allen Carr's book I was able to see I actually had agency in my life. This gave me motivation to make changes in many areas of my life and I was healthier and happier than ever before in my life.
Up until that point, I had accepted porn use as perfectly normal and natural, something everybody did. However, after watching Gary Wilson's video on how porn affects the neuroscience of the human brain I become excited to quit porn like I had all the other addictions in my life. After managing about a month of quiting porn cold turkey on willpower alone I realized that porn was a far more serious problem than I thought.
That was back in 2017. Since then, I have been constantly trying to be free of porn. I can safely say that quiting porn is the most difficult thing I have ever done. Even after years of failures, relapses and binges, I am more motivated than ever to leave porn behind me and live the life I want to live. I have also realized that I can't/shouldn't do this on my own. So I hope that by sharing my experiences here I will be able to connect with others who understand the difficulties and the pain. I hope that together we can realize our inate potential and be the people we want to be.
I will try to post semi regularly, when I have something to share.
Again, please feel free to message and comment your thoughts or advice.
Today marks Day 3.