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Rick (sen_citizen) Again
Hello folks. It?s been a long time since I posted on this site. I feel compelled because of what happened this past weekend. First, let me say that I?ve got to be one of the oldest members; 67 soon to be 68.
Anyway, last Friday I was looking forward to a 3-day weekend. I knew I was going to PMO as I was driving home and I didn?t feel bad or guilty because the last time was January 3rd (2 months without). One justification/excuse these days is to see how much volume my ejaculate is since I am a prostate cancer patient (hopefully a former one). Another trigger was 2 very friendly ?Hi?s? from 2 very attractive women at work during the week. So, I spent 2+ hours viewing porn before PMO. Again, no guilt or coming down hard on myself.
Saturday arrives and I decided to spend the day doing what I feel like instead of the usual grocery shopping, house cleaning, and other work. Not long after the cable repairman left, I thought ?why not see if I can produce ejaculate the day after PMO?ing?? Answer, yes, but after spending 5 hours watching porn, and the caveat being I did not get hard. I must say that I felt miserable afterwards and still do as I write this on Monday.
I am going to try to be more participatory here and I hope it helps. I also discuss this and other issues with a therapist once a month. Take care all.
Hello folks. It?s been a long time since I posted on this site. I feel compelled because of what happened this past weekend. First, let me say that I?ve got to be one of the oldest members; 67 soon to be 68.
Anyway, last Friday I was looking forward to a 3-day weekend. I knew I was going to PMO as I was driving home and I didn?t feel bad or guilty because the last time was January 3rd (2 months without). One justification/excuse these days is to see how much volume my ejaculate is since I am a prostate cancer patient (hopefully a former one). Another trigger was 2 very friendly ?Hi?s? from 2 very attractive women at work during the week. So, I spent 2+ hours viewing porn before PMO. Again, no guilt or coming down hard on myself.
Saturday arrives and I decided to spend the day doing what I feel like instead of the usual grocery shopping, house cleaning, and other work. Not long after the cable repairman left, I thought ?why not see if I can produce ejaculate the day after PMO?ing?? Answer, yes, but after spending 5 hours watching porn, and the caveat being I did not get hard. I must say that I felt miserable afterwards and still do as I write this on Monday.
I am going to try to be more participatory here and I hope it helps. I also discuss this and other issues with a therapist once a month. Take care all.