I have been watching porn since I was 12 and am 28 now... I lost my virginity when I was 20 and didn't even finish and my first sexual experience was at 18 and it took probably 30 minutes for me to finish then... I always wondered why and would call it my gift because I didn't have a problem keeping an erection. So I could last as long as I wanted once I figured out there was only one position I could finish out of which mirrored in many ways me watching porn. I remember the girl I lost my virginity to saying she read for me to stop touching myself for 30 days and I laughed because I didn't think I could. Then she said I could touch myself to finish which I also laughed to but after many times of me not finishing I finally did which became a habit for me finishing during sex...
I was always bragging about being able to last so long to my friends but I didn't realize that porn was taking over my sex life because I would just rather have sex and not finish then when my partners would leave finish with porn. It came to the point where I couldn't keep an erection and I always thought this was because I was about to break up with the girl. After the break up I didn't want to have sex with anyone for about 6 months then before my next girl friend I gave up porn which made everything a lot better till that relationship fell apart and struggled with depression from it which I turned to porn. I didn't realize I was coping my depression with porn till after watching videos on porn addition...
I had a very close friend die of cancer and when I got the call early in the morning that he passed the first thing I did was watch porn... I didn't know why till now... I didn't realize my gift was a curse from porn... I didn't realize how much more damaging it was till now... I thought it was just not good for your relationships since I could still get an erection at the start with every relationship but how much damage it does to your everyday life...
I'm done... I will keep this curse our of my life but I'm a little scared that the next time I have sex I will finish too fast to be honest since I have never had that problem but it would be better than destroying my mind from this crap. Keep it guy everyone we need to beat this curse...
I was always bragging about being able to last so long to my friends but I didn't realize that porn was taking over my sex life because I would just rather have sex and not finish then when my partners would leave finish with porn. It came to the point where I couldn't keep an erection and I always thought this was because I was about to break up with the girl. After the break up I didn't want to have sex with anyone for about 6 months then before my next girl friend I gave up porn which made everything a lot better till that relationship fell apart and struggled with depression from it which I turned to porn. I didn't realize I was coping my depression with porn till after watching videos on porn addition...
I had a very close friend die of cancer and when I got the call early in the morning that he passed the first thing I did was watch porn... I didn't know why till now... I didn't realize my gift was a curse from porn... I didn't realize how much more damaging it was till now... I thought it was just not good for your relationships since I could still get an erection at the start with every relationship but how much damage it does to your everyday life...
I'm done... I will keep this curse our of my life but I'm a little scared that the next time I have sex I will finish too fast to be honest since I have never had that problem but it would be better than destroying my mind from this crap. Keep it guy everyone we need to beat this curse...