Just feeling burned up, will it ever get better

Hi guys,

It has been a long while since I posted an update on my reboot. 104 days to be exact. And I'm still going strong. I haven't watched any porn in the passed 104 days. But I have been getting some pretty strong episodes of porn craving. They were so bad that I couldn't even get away from them, because leaving my house and going for a walk even triggered the cravings for me.

Right now I just feel like absolute garbage, maybe someday the energy will return. But at the moment I've never felt this tired in my whole life. I'm tired from the moment that I wake up to the moment just before bed. I cannot sleep and I just feel downright depressed. The only thing I want to do at this point is to just jack of until there is no tommorow, because that is the only thing that is giving me any pleasure. But the believe that things will get better is what is keeping me strong.

Are there any other people that have had these kind of episodes in their reboot and have they gone away? I could really use your help here.

you are great man. u reached 104.

the real process start when you feel like quitting. That's what I read about meditation. I felt no real progress while I sit everyday for hours. But after few months there was change in the way I feel things. But I failed in PMO matter. this was really out of matter.

U have more insight into the recovery process. U know its only boredom. ur Mind associate it with porn only.  Find something to cope with that. Completely eliminate the thought  "that is the only thing that is giving me any pleasure."

You are still great bro.
Your brain may have recovered from the neural pathway of hardwiring. But the way of thinking has to change. Meditation can help.

Yeah mate, it's the flatline. All P addicts go through it. It will improve but the process will feel slow. Exercise and meditation can help you speed it up a little bit.

SLAA or SA is also a great way not to feel alone and depressed while you go through it. And it might be the most effective way to prevent falling back in.