Depressed (SOS - PLEASE HELP) - Journal (Zero to hero?????)

Hi brothers,

I am a 26 year old man who had low sexual activities with a girl but exposed to porn and masturbation for the last 11 years. I excessively masturbate (Everyday, sometimes 2-3 times a day). I always thought I was sexually strong considering I could hold on for long time till I came across my ex-girlfriend. We had great connect but when it came to bed, the horror struck me hard wherein I was not able to get a erection. Even if I did get one, I used to lose it in few seconds of insertion. My ex-girlfriend wasn't patient enough and she ghosted me away after a month of failed attempts (I wouldn't blame her for that).

Then I came across Reboot Nation and I read stories of those who faced similar situation and got hopeful. I also took test to check if I have PIED.

1. I casually got a hardon by just watching porn and but got a better hardon when I could stimulate myself from hands (60-70% hard).
2. But I got a strong hardon (80-85%) when I do both stimulation with my hand and watch porn/sext/imagine.
3. I also sweated profusely first time I had sex with my ex-girlfriend.
4. I used to get morning hardon which has reduced significantly.
5. Only hardon is through stimulation with hand or combination

So does that mean I have PIED or anxiety issues? Is my dick alive?

I am so confused, can I be cured? I can go on a very hard control from now by rejecting Porn and masturbation. Brothers, I have only hope from you guys. I will follow whatever you guys suggest me. I do not want to end up with tablets/pills. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP. SOS.

Yes, you have porn induced erectile disfunction  (PIED).

Stop watching porn and any porn substitutes (instagram models, sexting, erotic stories, basically anything that isn't a real life woman).

Stop masturbating, do not touch your dick unless you are cleaning it or peeing.

After some time of rest try to find a girlfriend and explain your situation to her. Then slowly teach your brain to respond to her, start by kissing, touching and eventually sex, though don't overdo it in the beginning, try to have sex only when you can and up for it, don't force anything.

As long as you avoid porn and masturbation and keep reviewing with real women you will heal. Just accept the fact that it may take you years to do so. But as long as you keep it up and don't go back to porn things will improve, and they won't get worse.

I wouldn't be afraid of Tablets/Pills because the main point of getting cured is abstaining from porn and wait.
if you have partner and need to have sex pills are just saviors. just use them and have sex 1-2 times per week is enough. having sex also helps recovery.
I'm on the 6th month of recovery. I had so severe ED that Pills didnt work first 1-2 months. when it worked i was sweating around. now i see the improvement. I dont get nervous now over the pills weither they will work or not. my main point to get cured is time i guess.

Dont worry bro. you will heal! just you need to have patience.

Thank you so much brothers for the confidence and kind words. I am on day 4 of no PMO hard mode. I plan to atleast have no porn and no fap for this year for sure.

Currently have 0 libido, my dick feels dead but I'm sure I can have good days ahead. I am planning to journal everything here from now.

It's been 4 days now and these were the things which happened till now.

1. My girl friend broke up with me
2. I fell terribly sick and recovered with strong determination
3. Watched noah church videos and read lot of success stories here and felt better
4. It's been 4 days so far with hard no PMO (feels weird at times, no morning wood yet but felt extremely horny at times but not going to give up)
5. Shared my goals with my closest friend to be supportive and remind me of my goals
6. Went alone to an exotic brunch to celebrate the start of a new transformation ahead