I think a big part of people have the same problem as me. We all know that porn is hard to quit, so there must be something that really make us feel suffer.
For me, I was really a confidence guy and I live really happy everyday before all the symptom arises. When I was in my high school, I can took only few hours to study the content of one semester.
Yea, many of friends asked me, why u can go through these so easily. My answer is, repletion and rich after I finish my everyday tasks. Those "missions" actually make me feels good. At that time I was thinking of everything of my life is good, though there is hardness in life, but I am optimism enough and I really don't worried about anything. I just feel my life is soo good.
But after I graduate from high school, when I get into university. About right before University starts 3 months ago, I started to have social anxiety. Just don't know why, I used to be a really talkative person, Im willing to talk to everybody. But after "that one day" just a moment, with no reason, I get society anxiety, my heart almost jumped out at that time since I was soooo nervous.
Social anxiety, however, doesn't make my life worse. I can still enjoy many things, I still enjoy reading, basketball, party with friends (I don't nervous in front of friends, they only made me relax).
The change happed after my university started. It was Sep 2013, Im an engineering student and there is actually not a lot of things to worried about at the beginning. For M, I still masturbate once a week and it made me feel good. The way I masturbate is I look at Porns first to make myself excited, after looking at different porns I got some many really attractive pictures.... then when my libido rise I start to M. Usually I look at pron for 20-30 minutes and M only take me a few minutes. I think things went wrong from PMO, continue talking my university. Gradually, after mid Oct 2013, I start to feeling energy loss: for no reason I feel sleepy, and I am not smart anymore. Study Physics used to make me feel really enjoyable, because I am smart, those knowledge is just easy for me, but for no reason, I use longer and longer time to read physics books, and as time pass, brain fog got only heavier....
Till late April 2014, when my first year is about to End. During the final exam period. I will describe my condition as follow:
1. Everyday, I weak up as usual, nothing special, but after 2 hours I weak up, my brain just can't think, So fuXXing heavy brain fog, that brain fog sometimes even make me don't know what I am doing. Just soooo heavy.
2. My energy is almost zero, I feel sleepy so easily, its almost I feel sleepy all the time, EVEN I AM PLAYING BASKETBALL, still sleepy...
3. because of 1. & 2. nothing interested me anymore, my life is just.... everyday I just suffer from brain fog and sleepy. I used to enjoy and curious of everything. Now I don't, not anything can make me excited.
So I don't need to talk more, these symptom have made my life like in hell. That is why I went to hospital and scan my brain. Check my organs...BUT EVERYTHING IS JUST OK. Nothing went wrong, doctor told that I am health. So I started to thinking of: Is there one thing that make me different with other people? I think PMO may be the only "bad" habit and the only reason. So I searched a lot of webpage asked a lot of people (I even asked my father if he masturbate when he is young...don't "imao" , guys.... im serious because my life is like a hell I don't care what im asking and who im ask. So my father told me that in his teen time. Rarely have male M, all they did is wet dreams.... So yea, maybe I got the answer, PMO ruined my life. So I start to quit it, but
very soon, I PMO, then I want to quit, then I PMO again...
The reason why I quit PMO so hard is almost everyone around me my friends, my university folks.. they all PMO and I think why that they can do it but I can't so when my libido rise, I PMO because I can't help stopping it, we all know it feels so good. But I realize something, although my friends PMO, but they don't addicted to it at all. For example: one of my friend is a metal music fan, there is two months that he don't PMO at all because his favorite band dismissed (I am sure he don't PMO because he is one of my best friend so I know what he do everyday). But for me, I can't stop PMO, if I don't do it for around 9 days, my libido will stay pretty high and I can't fall into sleep!!!! Even I don't PMO, I will get wet dreams. I still remember 2 months ago, I went to the cinema with my friends to look Sim City II and after that movie when I went to the washroom to pee, I saw my underwear got wet!! (don't imao again its truth thing).
So fuxx my life!! My life was really enjoyable before my university start. But now ... after looking at my story, u know im living in hell now. I joined the reboot nation I want to have my happy life BACK!!!!
Thanks for all the friends here sharing knowledge, every story here can encourage others. So this is my story, I swear I will reboot my brain and get back to real life again. After I success reboot, maybe my success story can encourage many peopele like me and to convince them GET THE HELL AWAY FROM PORN!!!! Its nothing different than heroin kind of drugs!!
BTW I still looking for help:
Does't anyone here has the same symptoms as I described before? If u also suffer from heavy brain fog and sleepy, how long it takes for u to recover?
For me, I was really a confidence guy and I live really happy everyday before all the symptom arises. When I was in my high school, I can took only few hours to study the content of one semester.
Yea, many of friends asked me, why u can go through these so easily. My answer is, repletion and rich after I finish my everyday tasks. Those "missions" actually make me feels good. At that time I was thinking of everything of my life is good, though there is hardness in life, but I am optimism enough and I really don't worried about anything. I just feel my life is soo good.
But after I graduate from high school, when I get into university. About right before University starts 3 months ago, I started to have social anxiety. Just don't know why, I used to be a really talkative person, Im willing to talk to everybody. But after "that one day" just a moment, with no reason, I get society anxiety, my heart almost jumped out at that time since I was soooo nervous.
Social anxiety, however, doesn't make my life worse. I can still enjoy many things, I still enjoy reading, basketball, party with friends (I don't nervous in front of friends, they only made me relax).
The change happed after my university started. It was Sep 2013, Im an engineering student and there is actually not a lot of things to worried about at the beginning. For M, I still masturbate once a week and it made me feel good. The way I masturbate is I look at Porns first to make myself excited, after looking at different porns I got some many really attractive pictures.... then when my libido rise I start to M. Usually I look at pron for 20-30 minutes and M only take me a few minutes. I think things went wrong from PMO, continue talking my university. Gradually, after mid Oct 2013, I start to feeling energy loss: for no reason I feel sleepy, and I am not smart anymore. Study Physics used to make me feel really enjoyable, because I am smart, those knowledge is just easy for me, but for no reason, I use longer and longer time to read physics books, and as time pass, brain fog got only heavier....
Till late April 2014, when my first year is about to End. During the final exam period. I will describe my condition as follow:
1. Everyday, I weak up as usual, nothing special, but after 2 hours I weak up, my brain just can't think, So fuXXing heavy brain fog, that brain fog sometimes even make me don't know what I am doing. Just soooo heavy.
2. My energy is almost zero, I feel sleepy so easily, its almost I feel sleepy all the time, EVEN I AM PLAYING BASKETBALL, still sleepy...
3. because of 1. & 2. nothing interested me anymore, my life is just.... everyday I just suffer from brain fog and sleepy. I used to enjoy and curious of everything. Now I don't, not anything can make me excited.
So I don't need to talk more, these symptom have made my life like in hell. That is why I went to hospital and scan my brain. Check my organs...BUT EVERYTHING IS JUST OK. Nothing went wrong, doctor told that I am health. So I started to thinking of: Is there one thing that make me different with other people? I think PMO may be the only "bad" habit and the only reason. So I searched a lot of webpage asked a lot of people (I even asked my father if he masturbate when he is young...don't "imao" , guys.... im serious because my life is like a hell I don't care what im asking and who im ask. So my father told me that in his teen time. Rarely have male M, all they did is wet dreams.... So yea, maybe I got the answer, PMO ruined my life. So I start to quit it, but
very soon, I PMO, then I want to quit, then I PMO again...
The reason why I quit PMO so hard is almost everyone around me my friends, my university folks.. they all PMO and I think why that they can do it but I can't so when my libido rise, I PMO because I can't help stopping it, we all know it feels so good. But I realize something, although my friends PMO, but they don't addicted to it at all. For example: one of my friend is a metal music fan, there is two months that he don't PMO at all because his favorite band dismissed (I am sure he don't PMO because he is one of my best friend so I know what he do everyday). But for me, I can't stop PMO, if I don't do it for around 9 days, my libido will stay pretty high and I can't fall into sleep!!!! Even I don't PMO, I will get wet dreams. I still remember 2 months ago, I went to the cinema with my friends to look Sim City II and after that movie when I went to the washroom to pee, I saw my underwear got wet!! (don't imao again its truth thing).
So fuxx my life!! My life was really enjoyable before my university start. But now ... after looking at my story, u know im living in hell now. I joined the reboot nation I want to have my happy life BACK!!!!
Thanks for all the friends here sharing knowledge, every story here can encourage others. So this is my story, I swear I will reboot my brain and get back to real life again. After I success reboot, maybe my success story can encourage many peopele like me and to convince them GET THE HELL AWAY FROM PORN!!!! Its nothing different than heroin kind of drugs!!
BTW I still looking for help:
Does't anyone here has the same symptoms as I described before? If u also suffer from heavy brain fog and sleepy, how long it takes for u to recover?
You have to stay "sharp" and focused .... This topic could be very usefull for you http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=282.0