silenceofthepenis
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Hey there, i just wanted to share my story of ED and talk about its complexity in my situation. I encountered porn at a very young age, roughly 9 or 10, and it was in my life ever since. When i was 13, i had a girlfriend and we were very sexually active (yes, 13 year olds). I had absolutely no ED problems, so i was having sex or any sexual stimulation whenever i wanted.
About a year later, that relationship with my girlfriend ended and I turned to porn to satisfy the demand my brain suggested. I began masturbating to pornography daily or even more frequently on occasion. My senior year of high school (this year), i entered a new relationship with a beautiful girl, who is undoubtedly sexy and attractive. However, the first time she attempted to give me a blow job i lost my erection. This came as a total surprise to me, because in my 3 year drought of female sexual activity, i had not been aware of what my habits had been doing to me. My ED confuses me and my girlfriend because i can get and maintain a rock hard erection through kissing, touching, or looking, but when the moment arises for penetration, when i begin to put the condom on i lose my erection entirely. I can have the rock hard erections and just insert my penis unprotected, but if i try to put a condom on theres no hope for my erection to last. I cant figure out what causes this awkward interaction with my penis and the condom. I thought it could be sexual anxiety, but i have no fears, concerns, or lack of confidence with having sex with my girlfriend. I'd love to have sex with her, and i can, but only unprotected. I cant achieve erection on my own without porn or fantasizing about porn.
As of tonight, (February 8/2015), ive been on my reboot for 15 days. I really want to have sex with my girlfriend on valentines day, but i know i wont be able to recover by then. I was wondering if anyone had any similar situations/advice/tips for me regarding my ED? I have two viagra pills stashed away for special times, should i use them? Will using Viagra affect my reboot? Will my girlfriend giving me blow jobs affect my progression? Thanks for reading!
**EDIT** : I just wanted to add that I have a counter app on my phone that i use to keep track of my reboot. This includes number of days, orgasms, morning wood, and wet dreams. Is there anything else i should keep track of? Maybe erections lost?
About a year later, that relationship with my girlfriend ended and I turned to porn to satisfy the demand my brain suggested. I began masturbating to pornography daily or even more frequently on occasion. My senior year of high school (this year), i entered a new relationship with a beautiful girl, who is undoubtedly sexy and attractive. However, the first time she attempted to give me a blow job i lost my erection. This came as a total surprise to me, because in my 3 year drought of female sexual activity, i had not been aware of what my habits had been doing to me. My ED confuses me and my girlfriend because i can get and maintain a rock hard erection through kissing, touching, or looking, but when the moment arises for penetration, when i begin to put the condom on i lose my erection entirely. I can have the rock hard erections and just insert my penis unprotected, but if i try to put a condom on theres no hope for my erection to last. I cant figure out what causes this awkward interaction with my penis and the condom. I thought it could be sexual anxiety, but i have no fears, concerns, or lack of confidence with having sex with my girlfriend. I'd love to have sex with her, and i can, but only unprotected. I cant achieve erection on my own without porn or fantasizing about porn.
As of tonight, (February 8/2015), ive been on my reboot for 15 days. I really want to have sex with my girlfriend on valentines day, but i know i wont be able to recover by then. I was wondering if anyone had any similar situations/advice/tips for me regarding my ED? I have two viagra pills stashed away for special times, should i use them? Will using Viagra affect my reboot? Will my girlfriend giving me blow jobs affect my progression? Thanks for reading!
**EDIT** : I just wanted to add that I have a counter app on my phone that i use to keep track of my reboot. This includes number of days, orgasms, morning wood, and wet dreams. Is there anything else i should keep track of? Maybe erections lost?
