Dantes
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Update:
The first post below resulted in my longest streak yet in summer 2021. Since then I've had several PMO-free periods of 1-3 weeks, but I haven't been able to drop the habit completely. Looking back, journaling here seemed to be (for me) the most effective way to stay away from porn. So starting again from November 2022, I'm beginning more frequent posting (Page 7). Goal will still be to post at least couple of times a week, in the beginning probably daily.
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Day 1
Hi guys,
I'm 27-year-old dude, who has been trying to kick the habit of porn and masturbation for about 5 years now. My longest streaks have been around 20-40 days, but I have always fallen back to masturbation for the stupidest reasons. Sometimes my brain tells me I need to relapse to relax before stressful occasion, sometimes I end up alone with the laptop, tired and that is a recipe for disaster.
Currently in my life things are fairly good, and I feel fortunate to gradute from university this spring and have pretty decent job opportunities to choose from. I also have a girlfriend, which means that I probably won't reboot in so-called hardmode. Don't know if this is an advantage or not. I do quite a lot of sports and physically am in good condition, but it just feels that porn is holding back my potential. My potential to strive and get enthusiastic about improving myself, my potential to be present with other people, and overall my potential to love life, which I feel glimpses of sometimes and it is something I crave to have more. More real feelings, disappointments, anger, joy, anything that makes me feel real. I probably could go on with my life like this, PMOing every now and then, but somehow I feel that there is just so much more to this life. I feel like I have waisted years, but I'm trying to keep looking into the future, as that is now the only thing I can change.
What to expect from this journal? My goal will be to post every day for 90 days, and after that we'll see. In order to achieve this, some posts will maybe only be 1 word long. The idea is to make the threshold to journal absolutely minimal to catalyst forming of the habit. There will be quite a lot of self-improvement stuff here outside of PMO, which I hope can improve other rebooters life as well.
Wish me luck and see you tomorrow,
Dantes
The first post below resulted in my longest streak yet in summer 2021. Since then I've had several PMO-free periods of 1-3 weeks, but I haven't been able to drop the habit completely. Looking back, journaling here seemed to be (for me) the most effective way to stay away from porn. So starting again from November 2022, I'm beginning more frequent posting (Page 7). Goal will still be to post at least couple of times a week, in the beginning probably daily.
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Day 1
Hi guys,
I'm 27-year-old dude, who has been trying to kick the habit of porn and masturbation for about 5 years now. My longest streaks have been around 20-40 days, but I have always fallen back to masturbation for the stupidest reasons. Sometimes my brain tells me I need to relapse to relax before stressful occasion, sometimes I end up alone with the laptop, tired and that is a recipe for disaster.
Currently in my life things are fairly good, and I feel fortunate to gradute from university this spring and have pretty decent job opportunities to choose from. I also have a girlfriend, which means that I probably won't reboot in so-called hardmode. Don't know if this is an advantage or not. I do quite a lot of sports and physically am in good condition, but it just feels that porn is holding back my potential. My potential to strive and get enthusiastic about improving myself, my potential to be present with other people, and overall my potential to love life, which I feel glimpses of sometimes and it is something I crave to have more. More real feelings, disappointments, anger, joy, anything that makes me feel real. I probably could go on with my life like this, PMOing every now and then, but somehow I feel that there is just so much more to this life. I feel like I have waisted years, but I'm trying to keep looking into the future, as that is now the only thing I can change.
What to expect from this journal? My goal will be to post every day for 90 days, and after that we'll see. In order to achieve this, some posts will maybe only be 1 word long. The idea is to make the threshold to journal absolutely minimal to catalyst forming of the habit. There will be quite a lot of self-improvement stuff here outside of PMO, which I hope can improve other rebooters life as well.
Wish me luck and see you tomorrow,
Dantes
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