Hey Dan, I really can resonate a lot in similar situations in my x past old-self, while I was in this Jail lifestyle addiction. I remember that my inner-self was putting a lot of fight to seek the true and to overcome this disease, I won't lie to you it took me over 5-6 years fighting off back to back with this disease - Now I am free.
A little background about me, I was Severely addicted, alway had social awkwardness, always wanted to be isolated. ( Which is not me) and then developed an excessive compulsive addiction for over 20 years, now I am 36, I could?ve jerk off and edge for over few hours everyday and my Porn usage was generally escalated to hardcore porn. I was suffering from PIED for many years.
Long story short - for me to fight back, I decided to sell everything I owned and leave the country for 8 months traveling backpacking through hostels in South America.
I didn't watched not even one single Porn or jerk off the whole entire trip since I was with people the whole entire time in hostels. When I got back to reality after 8 months, I returned to my Ex ( also prior to my return, I opened up to her and share everything about me).
The great part is - when we started to make love my erections were steel and lasted the whole time with full sensation down there which I'd never ever had before ( which is truly rewired ) I was so F... happy like I've never been before ( Cause before my trip I had to take pills to maintain erections but I've never felt anything down there).
Then I developed a very darkest fantasy about my ex ( dirty talk, the most darkest and disgusting fantasies you could passably imagine ) which cause my brain to pursue for more sex and dopamine novelties. So I got back to being addicted, So I replace my previous disease to a new one, Sex Addict .
Long story short I lost my girlfriend. My biggest fear was that I'll be alone and I won?t have someone that I can needed approve that my di.. works ( become dependent on social approval )
Now I am all by myself (since 3 month ago) then I stumbled on this phenomena book THE EASYPEASY Method to never wanting to watching porn EVER AGIAN!!!!
Then I promised to myself that I'd never watch Porn and never needed to Jerk off ever. ( If you read it you'll understand that you can live happily without Porn, Jerking off or Orgazma. This years from 3 month ago I promised to myself that I am going to date only ME!!!!!! And love myself and then once I feel ready after a year, I'll get my other half wife
Bottom line - if you really want to jailbreak this disease you'll need to read this book and follow the instructions and if you can go backpacking for few months ( don't worry I promised you, you won't lose anything actually instead you'll earn your best experience in this beautiful life.
?? And Love ??