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Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: February 13, 2020, 09:37:12 AM »
Life is good, no thoughts of pmo at all. Thinking is clear, no more fog, the bones are coming back. Only looking forward. Be careful not to trip with something behind you.

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: January 27, 2020, 07:55:46 AM »
I'm in 2 months and I'm doing so good. Brain fog is gone, the bones are coming back. I'm do e with porn. It's so horrible for your brain. It's a nasty disease.

Ages 40 and up / Re: Yes I Can!
« on: January 27, 2020, 07:51:32 AM »
I wish you the best of luck Bob.  You and I have been here battling for a while now. We have the tools to beat this crap, we just need to use them when the time is right. Porn is no longer an option.

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: January 09, 2020, 11:38:09 AM »

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: January 09, 2020, 11:34:02 AM »
Time to start over. This thing really has a hold on me. I just erased everything,  and it was tough. I haven't pumped for at least 2 weeks. I'm so much better than what I e become

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: August 26, 2019, 10:53:07 PM »
Thank you Bob. I'm moving on. Porn isn't really something I think about too much. I kind of dont realize it, but things are going really good for me. Keep up the battle and keep your mind busy on producing stuff.

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: July 29, 2019, 10:57:42 PM »
I'm still around,  staying clean I had my fun on July 10 and I've been clean since.  Not much to report.  Its kind of odd I'm not thinking about porn at all. I would have thought after my slip up that I would have kind of been hung up on pmo, bit I'm not, not at all. Stay strong guys the battle continues.

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: July 12, 2019, 09:48:46 PM »
thank you Judy. I could get down on myself and feel shitty, but that will only magnify things for me. it happened it sucks and it's over. I'm going on 2 weeks clean already.  life is good.

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: July 11, 2019, 10:25:26 PM »
I've kind of slipped a little.  I gave in and had a couple night of binging. it was fun at first and then I just found myself just looking at video after video in an aimless matter. not sure what I was looking for but I spent several hours higher than a kite on dopamine . it is what it is I'm still a better person knowing what 6 months felt like I guess I'm going get clean again

Ages 40 and up / Re: Yes I Can!
« on: June 19, 2019, 05:59:21 AM »
good for you Bob.  vacations are always a good thing.  I'm proud of your progress.  you keep battling. you never give up. thank you for being there when I was having difficulties.  stay strong brother.

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: June 18, 2019, 07:48:31 AM »
today is my 6 month Anniversary of being pmo free. this is by far the longest streak I have ever had. everyday is still a challenge.  it crosses my mind sever times a day and I've just realized pmo is not something I want in my life anymore,  and I'm going to make that happen. it just a choice I have made.  its broken my heart for the last time. thanks for the support and keep strong. porn is no longer an option.

Ages 40 and up / Re: I guess every form of refuge has its price
« on: June 16, 2019, 09:01:27 AM »
jixu, you are doing great.  I was reading your observations,  and you sound like an old pro at rebooting.  I've been here a long time and I fallen more times than I care to count. the important thing is that we always get back up and keep moving forward. I'm afraid the temptation will ALWAYS be there, we just need to figure out how to work around them. just last night I was in bed and a bunch of crap went through my mind,  and if I wasnt committed to getting better, I'd still be in bed surfing the waves of desire.  stay strong and I want to thank you for your support you have given me on my journal. I have a saying I learned several years ago, IN THE BEGINNING,  ALWAYS THINK OF THE END. I know that's kind of random, but when I get the urge to look at that crap I've relied on for 3 plus decades, that saying helps me a lot.

Ages 40 and up / Re: Yes I Can!
« on: June 14, 2019, 07:08:07 PM »
maybe it's time to watch some YouTube videos with Noah church,  or Gary Wilson.  they seem to help me when iget triggered

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: June 12, 2019, 11:01:12 PM »
I continue to trek forward. I spent most of the day In A truck with full internet capabilities.  I had many opportunities to vere off the new path I have chosen for myself,  and my family.  I stayed on the straight and narrow and iam proud of myself. I need to let you know that throughout the day I had thoughts , and certain scenes of movies go through my head and I think how I could lose myself for hours, if not days catching up with my old friend. But as I have become good at this, I moved my thoughts process to something useful and productive.   Stay strong  guys, and know there is something better for all of us down a pmo free lifestyle.

Ages 40 and up / Re: Yes I Can!
« on: June 12, 2019, 07:41:06 AM »
Your a better man than iam. If i had that, I'd be elbow deep in a binge. Lol. Goof job bob, that's a temptation you dont need. As far as telling you coworker about you addiction,  I hope you trust her, and I hope she doesn't decide to air your dirty laundry.  Keep up the good fight and stay strong.

Ages 40 and up / Re: Topic 1268 (Journal)
« on: June 08, 2019, 07:08:07 PM »
Your doing great brother. I have to say about looking at women, and being in social events. All those problems your having are related to porn use. The porn has absolutely altered your mind. The longer you are free of porn, I promise that stuff gets better. When I see a pretty lady, I glance at her and smile at her. It's nothing creepy, I just smile. It's hard to explain,  but I promise,  things will be better the longer you pmo free. Stay strong and and please stay away from porn. Things are so awesome when it's out of your life.

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: June 08, 2019, 06:50:37 PM »
Thank you big mog and idunno. Its so nice to log on here and see the support iget from you guys.  It's just nice to see. Stay strong and keep up the good fight.

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: June 06, 2019, 09:54:11 AM »
Thank you Bob, and Phil. It does feel so good to be free of that stuff. I'm so glad I made the choice to stop doing the things that have caused me so much heart ache over the decades. Thanks again for the support.

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: June 05, 2019, 11:46:30 PM »
I had an minor operation yesterday and really messed up my sleep cycle. At any rate woke up at 12:30 am wide awake.  I watched t.v. for a couple of hours and played some crossword games and at about 4:30 I finally decided to go back to bed. It wasn't until I woke up this morning that I realized porn didn't cross my mind once last night. I still cant believe it. Six months ago I would have been up surfing until my head hurt.  What a great feeling that was. I feel so free from that crap I have spent so many, hours, months, and years on spinning g my wheels. Please guys stay strong and dont let that stuff get in your way of a wonderful life. I will be 6 months pmo free in a week.

Ages 40 and up / Re: Trekking to Freedom
« on: June 01, 2019, 08:16:59 AM »
Good job brother. Keep trekking and keep your guard up. That brain if our is pretty damn tricky, it loves that dopamine.

Ages 40 and up / Re: Trekking to Freedom
« on: May 27, 2019, 08:18:32 AM »
Hey big mog we haven't heard from you for a while. I hope things are going good for you. Stay strong

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: May 25, 2019, 09:26:06 AM »
Well the battle goes on.  I've just decided to not let the porn control me anymore. It's not what I want in my life.  I still not believe how different I feel, act,  and  even think. I will be 6 months pmo free in a couple weeks. I'm so excited for what my future will bring. Stay strong guys,  it's tough u know but work through the struggle.

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: May 17, 2019, 07:26:21 AM »
Here we are rebooters.  One day stronger from this addiction we are all conquering.  I still occasionally have a thought about p but it is just a couple seconds and I'm done with it. I remember bedtime couldn't come fast enough, especially on the weekend. It feels so nice to not be a prisoner of that anymore.  If you are battling, please keep up the battle.  I promise you it will be worth it.  We have so much more in store for us without this disease.

Ages 40 and up / Re: 43 year old tired of pmo
« on: May 14, 2019, 05:30:21 AM »
Thank you work. Your support means a lot to me. I'm up an hour and a half early. Life is good. Please guys stay strong. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. We have to weather the storm. Just know we are stronger than this addiction. Porn is no longer an option.

Ages 40 and up / Re: 4.5 YEARS PORN-FREE!
« on: May 14, 2019, 05:21:40 AM »
Lyon, you have been an inspiration to me since we have both began this journey at the same time.  I'm getting close to 6 months pmo free. I cant describes how great I feel not spending hours looking for the perfect video to further my sickness. Thank you lyon.

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