Several issues...reboot can help?

Uderson

New Member
Hi guys,

I'm 44 years old, look and behave like I was in my twenties, don't have gray hairs, no health problems, go to the gym every day, etc. Maybe because I didn't reach many goals in life and never had the responsibilities expected from people in their middle forties.

I got into puberty quite late, I was 15, almost 16 when I had my first ejaculation. Because all the boys at school started to become stronger, grow body hair, and change their voices at 12, I was seen as a freak, then I used to masturbate a lot trying to induce something, but had no pleasure and nothing used to come out. Finally, when I was 15, I reached the climax for the first time, got my first ejaculation, my voice changed, I grew body hair,  and, became taller and stronger, even more than the other boys who started the puberty years earlier.

After that I became addicted to masturbation without porn.
A relevant detail: My fantasies to masturbate used to involve both genders, so I used to imagine myself doing boys and girls. Maybe I was bissexual?

My first "sexual" experience came with a boy, I was 17, but we never had sex at all, only masturbation, we tried oral but we didn't like it.

Then, when I was 21 I had my first experience with a girl, I didn't reach the climax so after she came 2 or 3 times, I've faked an orgasm and got rid of the condom before she notice It was empty.

Then I got my first PC and the addiction to port starts, and yeah, I used to masturbate for straight and gay videos, mas after some time, straight videos were not turning me on in the same intensity. I used to masturbate to porn till I get really dry! I got injuries on my dick because of that!

I had 4 girlfriends in my life and I finished all the relationships because of problems down there, I could not keep the erection. I regret I was a douchebag, I never explained the girls the reason why I was dumping them, I was ashamed.

So, I thought I was gay, maybe I am, but the fact is, I never had a boyfriend and never reached the climax fucking a guy, sometimes I can penetrate them, but as soon as I'm inside, I get softer and never cum..thought I could be a bottom, it didn't work at all, my wiener gets soft instantaneously  when I feel something getting into my ass, I feel discomfort and give up. But had sexual encounters with guys I've met in the internet. A lot of guys! But having the same problem with all of them!  I reached the climax with 3 or 4, but never having sexual intercourse, only with oral in some really specific situations or masturbation, in some ocasions I used to ejaculate with my dick still soft.

So, I guess this long years masturbating to porns broke me and I can't find pleasure with a real person and I'm now decided to search for resources to fix me, otherwise I'm going to die alone and this is really freaking me out!

Sorry about the long post and if I'm bringing issues beyond the addiction to porn, but I think the addiction to porn and or masturbation originated the other issues, including doubts about my sexual orientation. I'm happy to hear all kind of oppinions though.
 

Joel

Active Member
Hey Joey,
Sounds like you've had a tough time. Yeah, porn screws with the brain and causes all kinds of emotional and physical shortcomings. 'The Great Porn Experiment' video of the front page of the website talks it up pretty well. A lot of guys here have a goal of a 90 day reboot, with the goal of that being the beginning of a porn free life. I've heard of a lot of guys not having erection problems anymore after 'reboot'.
 
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