Hey all,
I'm a new user here. I'm comforted to see so many are going through similar problems and that I am not alone in this battle. I want to kick this addiction once and for all, below is my story.
I started using porn when I was 16 at the end of high school, at this time it was new and exciting and I would happily watch it unaware of the problems it would bring later in life, when I was at college at the age of 17/18 I was watching it 3 times a day and this pattern continued for almost a year. Jump a few years to when I was at University and I would regularly binge for hours in my room thriving off the privacy and constant searching, opening new tabs, finding new videos etc. After Uni I returned home, still frequently using porn. What I wasn't aware of was the effect this was all having on me, my relationships, I experienced ED with several partners, unaware it was linked to the porn. I have tried to replicate what I have watched online in reality and expected any intimacy I had to be just like what I'd seen online, this was not the case and as such I ghosted partners because my expectations had not been met. In 2019 I met my current partner, around this time I wanted to end my porn usage I blocked it on my laptop, but how little aware I was of how difficult this would prove. I could not let go of this addiction and wanted to find new material. Since 2019 I have found my binging spiral, to using Reddit forums, Twitter, TikTok all to find material to watch and masturbate to. Jump two years to now and I am still trying to curb my addiction.
I am concerned of the long term effects this is having on me and am fully aware of the feelings it brings; social anxiety, depression, brain fog, inability to concentrate, lack of enthusiasm, I have little to no self confidence and empathy towards myself. Pornography has had a massive impact on my life, holding me back from progressing, getting jobs, earning money. I have lost contact with good friends. Recently I have started having counselling to help me with my addiction and whilst this is proving very beneficial and giving my tips to help quit I am unfortunately still fighting this battle.
I hope someone reads this and it would be comforting if anyone should comment. I will post on here with my feelings, my state, whether I have any urges etc. This is a great website and it is a boost to help me on my journey. All the best to you all.
Thank you.
I'm a new user here. I'm comforted to see so many are going through similar problems and that I am not alone in this battle. I want to kick this addiction once and for all, below is my story.
I started using porn when I was 16 at the end of high school, at this time it was new and exciting and I would happily watch it unaware of the problems it would bring later in life, when I was at college at the age of 17/18 I was watching it 3 times a day and this pattern continued for almost a year. Jump a few years to when I was at University and I would regularly binge for hours in my room thriving off the privacy and constant searching, opening new tabs, finding new videos etc. After Uni I returned home, still frequently using porn. What I wasn't aware of was the effect this was all having on me, my relationships, I experienced ED with several partners, unaware it was linked to the porn. I have tried to replicate what I have watched online in reality and expected any intimacy I had to be just like what I'd seen online, this was not the case and as such I ghosted partners because my expectations had not been met. In 2019 I met my current partner, around this time I wanted to end my porn usage I blocked it on my laptop, but how little aware I was of how difficult this would prove. I could not let go of this addiction and wanted to find new material. Since 2019 I have found my binging spiral, to using Reddit forums, Twitter, TikTok all to find material to watch and masturbate to. Jump two years to now and I am still trying to curb my addiction.
I am concerned of the long term effects this is having on me and am fully aware of the feelings it brings; social anxiety, depression, brain fog, inability to concentrate, lack of enthusiasm, I have little to no self confidence and empathy towards myself. Pornography has had a massive impact on my life, holding me back from progressing, getting jobs, earning money. I have lost contact with good friends. Recently I have started having counselling to help me with my addiction and whilst this is proving very beneficial and giving my tips to help quit I am unfortunately still fighting this battle.
I hope someone reads this and it would be comforting if anyone should comment. I will post on here with my feelings, my state, whether I have any urges etc. This is a great website and it is a boost to help me on my journey. All the best to you all.
Thank you.