Hello world as the geekys often say.
I am Bunny. The average pr0n addict. 40 year old male from earth.
Tried nofap runs a few times more than a lot but here i am yet again in an attempt to heal my dingdong.
Went from mags, to pics, to video clips, to piracy, to deeper and worse and worse things till i no longer had no lust for woman and when i found one i had a sever case of mr floppy questioning why i started watching same sex clips as i never ever ever had thought that was something i found interesting.
When it was at the very worst i could only watch things once and spend over half an hour death grib the life out of myself around 8 times a day. I started hunting new shit every day just downloading gigabytes after gigabytes of things that made me feel shitty after i was done just to delete it again and start looking for more.
At one point every time i hooked up it was severe death i showed her and even tho no matter what nothing happened. Started hating woman and started on torture related data.
Some time after i ran in to nofap on reddit and laughed. I found the concept laughable. Porn being bad .. hah.. The doctors i had gone to with the floppy issue told me that touching was natural and good for you.. Then i ran in to X and she was at the time the best thing i have ever in my run across in my life. Made me feel so happy but.. Only thing i had to show her was floppy. She ended up leaving and that caused me to crash in to depression and self damage with drugs and alcohol. I crashed massively. Aaaand realized it might be something to this not touching your self and going mental some time.
have had over 20 attempts and never gotten longer than 78 days. At that point i had to get relief or i would have ended up in a fight. But "fun" thing was i felt worse than i had ever felt when i relapsed in panic over that aggression.
i am on day 5 now. After a new tinder date turned floppy.
Really makes me sad this shit. I hate the craving.. It promises me unicorns, rainbows and happieness.. Tells me just fap once.. Just once and you will feel better. Its worth it.. But never ever tells the truth. Ends up sitting in self hate and regretting.
Might just vanish in the masses of other peoples struggle but this one is mine.
Peace
Bunny.
I am Bunny. The average pr0n addict. 40 year old male from earth.
Tried nofap runs a few times more than a lot but here i am yet again in an attempt to heal my dingdong.
Went from mags, to pics, to video clips, to piracy, to deeper and worse and worse things till i no longer had no lust for woman and when i found one i had a sever case of mr floppy questioning why i started watching same sex clips as i never ever ever had thought that was something i found interesting.
When it was at the very worst i could only watch things once and spend over half an hour death grib the life out of myself around 8 times a day. I started hunting new shit every day just downloading gigabytes after gigabytes of things that made me feel shitty after i was done just to delete it again and start looking for more.
At one point every time i hooked up it was severe death i showed her and even tho no matter what nothing happened. Started hating woman and started on torture related data.
Some time after i ran in to nofap on reddit and laughed. I found the concept laughable. Porn being bad .. hah.. The doctors i had gone to with the floppy issue told me that touching was natural and good for you.. Then i ran in to X and she was at the time the best thing i have ever in my run across in my life. Made me feel so happy but.. Only thing i had to show her was floppy. She ended up leaving and that caused me to crash in to depression and self damage with drugs and alcohol. I crashed massively. Aaaand realized it might be something to this not touching your self and going mental some time.
have had over 20 attempts and never gotten longer than 78 days. At that point i had to get relief or i would have ended up in a fight. But "fun" thing was i felt worse than i had ever felt when i relapsed in panic over that aggression.
i am on day 5 now. After a new tinder date turned floppy.
Really makes me sad this shit. I hate the craving.. It promises me unicorns, rainbows and happieness.. Tells me just fap once.. Just once and you will feel better. Its worth it.. But never ever tells the truth. Ends up sitting in self hate and regretting.
Might just vanish in the masses of other peoples struggle but this one is mine.
Peace
Bunny.