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« Reply #200 on: July 06, 2016, 04:14:22 PM »
Boo, I've only overlapped with you here on RN for a short time, but I have really appreciated your strength and resolve, your clarity of purpose, and your wisdom and insights.  I wish you all the best.

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« Reply #201 on: July 06, 2016, 04:40:47 PM »
Here's some of my favorite quotes that have some relevance to our struggles here:

Life is difficult. This is a great truth, one of the greatest truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it. Once we truly know that life is difficult-once we truly understand and accept it-then life is no longer difficult. Because once it is accepted, the fact that life is difficult no longer matters- M. Scott Peck

Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.' Mature love says 'I need you because I love you. – Erich Fromm

When a person can’t find a deep sense of meaning, they distract themselves with pleasure.-Viktor Frankl

The dead drug leaves a ghost behind. At certain hours it haunts the house- Jean Cocteau

Just because you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town- George Carlin

These are great, thanks.  I also really liked your comment about "surfing an urge".  I love the imagery of just riding out the wave until it loses its power, rather than letting it get on top of you, turn you upside down and maybe even drown you.
I never use porn or masturbate Now.  I am in charge of my life.

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« Reply #202 on: July 07, 2016, 05:28:33 AM »
Hi Boo, thank you for dropping by to say farewell, I appreciate your kind and heart felt words. You have been a great support to me and many others. I would encourage you to drop back from time to time, let us know how you are doing and offer up longer term wisdom. Wishing you all strength and joy, keep well. FF

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« Reply #203 on: July 07, 2016, 09:08:37 AM »
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I appreciate your recent visits and comments. I'm writing my last journal post now. I'm reaching 90 complete days PMO-free in a couple of hours.

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« Reply #204 on: July 07, 2016, 09:41:45 AM »
2 Hours to go for 90!  Whoo-Hooo!  Lets celebrate with some porn...  Just Kidding.  Its been a honor, we didn't always agree, but we did always respect. 

Be well Boo.

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« Reply #205 on: July 07, 2016, 09:43:58 AM »
2 Hours to go for 90!  Whoo-Hooo!  Lets celebrate with some porn...  Just Kidding.  Its been a honor, we didn't always agree, but we did always respect. 

Be well Boo.

Thanks Chip. You're a "MAN who quit porn". All respect to you. I'll be back here to read your manifesto when you publish. Yours in Christ,
Boo

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« Reply #206 on: July 07, 2016, 09:52:02 AM »
Dear Boo,

All the very best, mate. I second Feetfirst's thoughts of you dropping by ;) Responded to you in my journal yesday too. Will look forward to your post.

Thanks for all the advice and comradeship, Bro!

Take care, fyg
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Wherever water flows it creates ruts. Where is your mental water flowing?
PMO increases DeltaFosB in your brain, which in turn makes you crave the next PMO even more. DON'T DO IT! Your future self will thank you :)
PMO & excessive MO fux up your Prefrontal Cortex

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« Reply #207 on: July 07, 2016, 11:41:20 AM »
Well, this is my last post in my journal here at Reboot Nation. I’ve reached my 90 day goal. My journal isn’t particularly long but I I’ve tried to make some contributions that were useful and a bit transparent.  Probably most of what I’ve said is because I needed to hear it myself. I’ve always appreciated the support and interest that some of you have shown. I hope I’ve reciprocated in kind. 

I never wanted to replace physical masturbation with mental masturbation here at RN. There’s only so many ways to talk about all of this before one reaches the point of diminishing returns, not only for the writer, but also for the reader.  My goal was to post only when I had something worthwhile to say and then try to say it well. I came here with a commitment to myself. I’ve been very serious and I’ve refused to ever feel victimized by PMO. Like everything else in my life, I am responsible.

Quitting PMO and its related habits is for me not only an act of volition but a change of heart. My change of heart began when I finally matured to the point of saying “Enough is enough. I’m a man, I’m a free moral agent, and I’m not going to live like this anymore”.  My little poem/affirmation below serves to remind me of my innate responsibility to myself to live in a way that serves my greater good:

I am not a prisoner of bad habits,                                                                                                                               
I am a master of good habits.                                                                                                                                     
I will live my life in that truth every day,                                                                                                               
until whatever pain resides there, fades away, fades away.


Going forward I know that although I could have a slip here or there I will never have a full blown relapse. I’m not self delusional and I know that at least some challenges lie ahead.  As George Carlin said about addiction, “just because you got the monkey off your back doesn’t mean the circus has left town”.  I believe urges will fade evermore over time but I’ll also keep Jean Cocteau’s quote in mind “The dead drug leaves a ghost behind. At certain hours it haunts the house”.  I believe it always will.  My quiver is full of mental arrows to shoot at the ghost and make it fade away quickly. So, I no longer fear the ghost, although it may reside in my mental house till the day I die. Men, don’t fear the ghost: Master it!

My final advice would be to always have a viable strategy for handling the inevitable urges or cravings. They will come when you least expect it. It’s a rare person who can completely leave this stuff behind without any cravings or urges hitting them in the future. Memory is a powerful thing.  Please remember why you came here to RN in the first place. I’ve always said you had to have a clearly defined “why”. Never let a lapse turn into a relapse. Forgive yourself while you discipline yourself. Don’t  give up on your ability to heal yourself.

Many of us lost a piece of our innocence at a young age when we were first exposed to pornography, in whatever form and however we came upon it. None of that matters now. We’re men…. we have to transcend that sad reality and live as noble adults. Life is a tapestry. I hope all of us can weave our tapestries well going forward.

I’ll probably check in on journals (read only), to see who’s progressing. For now, I’m going to say goodbye with a short film clip that captures the innocence of youth in a very lovely way. (Everyone in porn was someone’s child first)  My late, beloved mother took me too see this film when I was a young boy. With all the ugliness in this world, there’s still sweetness to behold. I want to close with something sweet, and for me, maybe it’s a tad bittersweet.  It’s called “So Long, Farewell” and it’s from “The Sound of Music”. Be well and God bless!  Boo

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