Hey guys,
I've been off the boards for awhile. After curing myself I kind of got on with my life. I feel a little selfish in that I haven't done more to help the next group of guys that are trying to recover. I'm here if you have any questions. I hope this doesn't come off as bragging, because I remember a time when I would get really down on myself when hearing about others' sexual conquests. I mean in the most inspirational of ways. Anyways, here's my story...
I found out about PIED when I was 24 years old (now 26). From 16-24 I masturbated to porn almost daily. I struggled to have sex for years. I just didn't feel aroused when it came time to seal the deal. I thought the girls were beautiful, but my D just wasn't responding. It was terrible. I blamed alcohol, nerves, the mood, etc. Once I discovered the real source of the problem, I gave up porn instantly. I did HARD MODE for 94 days (sort of). 60 days in, I had sex with some chick from the bar and reached orgasm with a partner for the first time ever. It was an epic milestone in my life. The next night... hooked up with a different girl from a different bar! I couldn't believe it. haha. A couple weeks later I slept with another girl, then another. I got with 4 girls from days 60 - 94. I was so stoked at the simple ability to have sex. It was something I really wasn't sure I'd ever be able to do.
Since my reboot, I've tried to be a good boy and avoid porn like the plague. I've had my slip ups where I stumbled across something hot and looked something up, and... PMO. Each time it happened, I was filled with regret and avoided it for months. Over the last 2 years I've slept with 5 more women, (9 since starting my reboot). Most of the times I was really drunk and still had difficulty keeping an erection and reaching orgasm. I never really had a consistent sexual partner that would help me "rewire".
I've tried other things to train my brain/body for real sex. I've tried hard to make masturbation more like sex. That's one of the toughest things I've dealt with since my reboot. I don't like to masturbate for a long period of time. I kind of just want to get it out of the way so I can concentrate on other things. This can lead to too tight of a grip and unnatural stimulation. A real vagina is much less stimulating, especially with a condom on. I think it's really important that people use lube/ lotion and a loose grip. Maybe incorporate both hands to keep constant light contact. Take your time!
Anyways, I think I've ranted enough. Please feel free to contact me with any questions or if you just want to vent to someone. I'll try to get on here every couple of days to check in.
Good Luck!
I've been off the boards for awhile. After curing myself I kind of got on with my life. I feel a little selfish in that I haven't done more to help the next group of guys that are trying to recover. I'm here if you have any questions. I hope this doesn't come off as bragging, because I remember a time when I would get really down on myself when hearing about others' sexual conquests. I mean in the most inspirational of ways. Anyways, here's my story...
I found out about PIED when I was 24 years old (now 26). From 16-24 I masturbated to porn almost daily. I struggled to have sex for years. I just didn't feel aroused when it came time to seal the deal. I thought the girls were beautiful, but my D just wasn't responding. It was terrible. I blamed alcohol, nerves, the mood, etc. Once I discovered the real source of the problem, I gave up porn instantly. I did HARD MODE for 94 days (sort of). 60 days in, I had sex with some chick from the bar and reached orgasm with a partner for the first time ever. It was an epic milestone in my life. The next night... hooked up with a different girl from a different bar! I couldn't believe it. haha. A couple weeks later I slept with another girl, then another. I got with 4 girls from days 60 - 94. I was so stoked at the simple ability to have sex. It was something I really wasn't sure I'd ever be able to do.
Since my reboot, I've tried to be a good boy and avoid porn like the plague. I've had my slip ups where I stumbled across something hot and looked something up, and... PMO. Each time it happened, I was filled with regret and avoided it for months. Over the last 2 years I've slept with 5 more women, (9 since starting my reboot). Most of the times I was really drunk and still had difficulty keeping an erection and reaching orgasm. I never really had a consistent sexual partner that would help me "rewire".
I've tried other things to train my brain/body for real sex. I've tried hard to make masturbation more like sex. That's one of the toughest things I've dealt with since my reboot. I don't like to masturbate for a long period of time. I kind of just want to get it out of the way so I can concentrate on other things. This can lead to too tight of a grip and unnatural stimulation. A real vagina is much less stimulating, especially with a condom on. I think it's really important that people use lube/ lotion and a loose grip. Maybe incorporate both hands to keep constant light contact. Take your time!
Anyways, I think I've ranted enough. Please feel free to contact me with any questions or if you just want to vent to someone. I'll try to get on here every couple of days to check in.
Good Luck!