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mylaststand

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Day 85 hardmode - but not significant improvement
« on: June 07, 2016, 10:29:15 PM »
Hi guys,
I'm on day 85 hardmode but I'm not sure my recovery it's very significant.

I definitely see some things are better, for example:
- I sleep better
- I feel happier than before
- I think I have improved my memory a bit
- in occasions I can get erection by thinking but not always

But there are so many things i still want to be fixed:
- first of all, no morning wood still. I had them only 2 or 3 occasions but they were very week.
- my libido is still no good. I think I had some of it for some days only but for some reason I think I am in some kind of semi flatlining all the time.
- my depression has improved alot but I have still mood swings regularly.

So this is my situation, I'm just 5 days away from completing the 90 day challenge and I feel a bit disappointed.
I went to a doctor to do an STD test, I don't have anything, also also the doctor looked at my dick, I don't have any kind of injury looks like. I didn't do a blood test, I think I have all ok but I will check in few days.

What about you guys, has anybody being in day 85 or more and not being recovered. Is there something else I need to do? Should i try sex? Or should I go to for another 90 days hardmode. What would you do?

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Re: Day 85 hardmode - but not significant improvement
« Reply #1 on: June 07, 2016, 10:53:56 PM »
If I were you I would not think about it , this forum, or anything related until day 91. These last few days completely clear your mind of this topic. Then on day 91 I would MO without porn and use a light grip. See how it goes / if you notice improvements. I would then MO without porn once every 3 days or so for a week or so and see if you can get it going. If no change still I would go back to another 90 day hard mode and document progress / results after the first 90 days.

again, just what i would do! Good luck , I pray and hope to be at day 85 someday just like you .

Feel free to check out my journal and compare.

-J
« Last Edit: June 07, 2016, 10:56:03 PM by justin90210 »

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Re: Day 85 hardmode - but not significant improvement
« Reply #2 on: June 07, 2016, 11:27:46 PM »
Hey bro, not sure how old you are but reboot can take longer for younger guys. If I can give you some advice from personal experiance here it is but first, if this is me I would not M after 90 days. What I would do is ask a girl out or try having sex with your partner (I don't know your situation) but PIED is serious shit. I know because I've had it for a very long time and just last night I had sex without V or C and with a beautiful woman who I shared my struggles with. Yesterday was day 62 of my Hardmode. I Oed with her a few times but no erection(BJ). So my story is like this.

I meet this girl and we start talking on the phone so I ask her if she is dating or seeing anyone and her response is no not at the moment. So I say to her would you consider dating me? And to my surprise she says yes. So now I'm really stressed because my history is PIED and embarrassment. Almost every time for the last 10 years or so. So we start dating and I really like her but I say to her that I sometimes have ED and I'm just telling her in case we have sex and it doesn't work I did not want her to think something is wrong with her. Kind of a half truth because I blamed being diabetic and over 40. Then after a week and things are getting hot, she gives me a BJ and I come home only to watch P and M. I was so disgusted with myself. The next time I saw her I vowed to let her know the whole truth and I proceeded to do just that. Obviously she was shocked at first but after sleeping on it she said she was happy I was honest with her and decided she wanted to support me in the recovery. She also said she would not tolerate relapse. That was the best thing that could happen to me her saying that because I finally took it seriously. I have been PMO and M free for 63 days today and have been rebooting my intimacy level with her for two months. I please her to O often and enjoy doing so. We share deep conversations and are falling in love. I had been in flatline for most of the initial reboot but was able to have sex last night for the first time. I stopped in at her house tonight and got an erection while kissing her though I did not stay.

My point is this. You will not get rebooted by M. Find yourself a girl that you like and get close to her, kiss her often. Show her your heart. This is what needs rebooting, not M.

This is my take, whatever you decide I wish you well. Feel free to PM me anytime or visit my journal on the 40+ forum.

Cheers,
RJ

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Re: Day 85 hardmode - but not significant improvement
« Reply #3 on: June 08, 2016, 05:38:09 PM »
I hope you've read a lot on this forum and at yourbrainonporn.com. Watch Gabe Deem's videos. It took him a lot longer than 90 days. And masturbating, if you've read how this process works, its not what you do after a reboot. Instead, you rewire with a live person. That means starting slow, kissing, body contact, etc. Slowly teach your body to be relaxed and sexual with a live person again. You don't have to get naked right away. This is long process of understanding and action. This is how it works--not going back to your hand like a masturbation monkey in a cage, but with a live human being. Good luck buddy. You've come a long way. Don't go backward. Keep going forward.

Read William's posts too. He has a very clear understanding of how this works. Cheers



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Re: Day 85 hardmode - but not significant improvement
« Reply #4 on: June 09, 2016, 01:28:22 AM »
Thank you so much for all the answers,
I read all of them carefully. I think I understand more or less the process, somehow let's say now I'm probably unwired from the hand or the screen, I have now to rewire to a human... I think that is the way I will go.I have a couple of persons in mind but they are just friends for now and I'm not sure if I like them for a relationship at this moment. I think I will continue hardmode some more time until I find somebody that actually means something to me.
My biggest concern, since I started is just the morning wood, I'm not sure why is not there. I remember losing it maybe 2 yrs ago and I had it back only extremely sporadic times. I was thinking to hard mode until it comes back an then start thinking about woman. But I hope that happehappens one day. For me that is a big factor for the depression, is so demotivational when your dick is not hard in the morning I just can't accept that.
Guys thanks again for the support.

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Re: Day 85 hardmode - but not significant improvement
« Reply #5 on: June 11, 2016, 09:06:56 AM »
How many orgasms from wet dreams did you get during those 85 days?

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Re: Day 85 hardmode - but not significant improvement
« Reply #6 on: June 13, 2016, 04:30:56 AM »
Zero, I actually never had this in my life that I remember(I'm 30). I don't know what that looks like.