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Re: yet another journal
« Reply #25 on: July 03, 2016, 04:56:01 PM »
Day 16! I had a busy couple of days and promptly didn't manage to post in my journal as I intended. But.... no PMOing! For some reason I have not been bothered with unwanted sexual thoughts at all recently. I am quite surprised and wondering why. I assume it's because I am getting used to it a little bit. But definitely no time for complacency. I've been here before. So I am staying vigilant and firm in my resolve about the reboot. As it's a holiday weekend I am trying to enjoy time with wife and kids and really be available for them and not just think of my own pleasure.

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« Reply #26 on: July 04, 2016, 05:01:55 PM »
Day 17. July 4th holiday. Holidays are always difficult for my wife as she comes from a large family and is used to huge get togethers. Now, all she has is my company and I have a hard time replacing her siblings. Other than that I usually struggle with slight anxiety before the first work day of the week which is double difficult without my "medicine". Anyway, still feeling great and excited about 17 days without PMOing. My wife and I signed up with a nutritionist because we have been trying to shed a few pounds unsuccessfully. We are hoping that professional advice and accountability will finally help us to reach our goals.

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« Reply #27 on: July 06, 2016, 12:30:05 PM »
Day 19. Almost 3 weeks into my reboot. I struggle again with fantasies especially at night before I fall asleep. Honestly it's now really hard not to indulge into thinking about sex or porn. I am starting to feel too confident and I forget all the negative effects my additction has. I have some business travel coming up and my wife is travelling with me. I'll be busy but there should be plenty of time to spend with her and I am looking forward to that.

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« Reply #28 on: July 07, 2016, 10:02:54 AM »
Day 20!  :D In the 30+ years I have PMOed, twenty days without PMO is a rare occurance for me indeed. Probably only had 4 or 5 periods of this length. I feel great, but I don't want to be overconfident and stay focused on keeping my thoughts clear of fantasies.

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« Reply #29 on: August 16, 2016, 08:16:25 AM »
Guys, I'm impressed by some of you that actually manage to tackle this thing. I myself keep failing. I recently had about 20 plus days and I could clearly see the benefits of a reboot. I'm kind of surprised that I cannot do this... I am otherwise quite disciplined and I was able to quit smoking easily once I stopped hanging out with friends that smoked. My therapist tells me my problem is that I don't want to quit! She's probably right. That means I am selfish prick that puts his pleasure (which has almost diminished anyway because of my decades of self-abusing my body) before the happiness of his wife.