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LanceG

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Failure is no longer an option (1st and Only Reboot)
« on: March 18, 2014, 05:15:07 PM »
Hey everybody, I'm 21, studying computer science at a uni in London and i am addicted to porn :(

The last time I used porn was Sunday 16th March (2 days ago) and decided to stop when I realised that it no longer gives me that hardness I used to get. I used to be in the shower and be able to throw my wet wash cloth on my boner and it would stay up with problem but I can't tell you the last time i've been able to do that  :-[ :-[ :-[

I had sex with a friend today and although she thinks i'm still good, deep down I know that I am not as solid as I used to be, can barely keep it up anymore, I miss pleasing my woman, I miss my shower erections and I don't want to worry about if I may go down whilst inside her to embarrass her and make her feel as if i've gone off her which will never be the case :'(

The time before her I had sex with a girl and anytime she went on top my dick would DISAPPEAR INSTANTLY... WTF

and also whenever a condom even goes NEAR my penis it DISAPPEARS!??!?!?!? :S  :-\

I started porn on when I was about 12 years old, there was a channel called television x that came on the good ole cable, channel 33 after living at precisely 12 for the 1minute teaser, and then I would switch to playboy on channel 28 (Can't believe i still remember)

ever since my preferences has changed from bbw to tattoed girls to big bottoms to deep throat, lesbian, hardcore, blowjob pov's and now nothing works for me anymore

I want to stop because I cant sustain a full erection anymore and I KNOW its because of porn, and I think it's causing me to not concentrate as much as I could in UNI, (a bit late for realising, 3rd year and all that)


But today is a new day, (Tonight rather)

The date today (tonight) is Tuesday 18th March 2014, I'm addicted to porn and i'm on day 2 of my Reboot Nation
« Last Edit: March 18, 2014, 05:25:31 PM by LanceG »

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Re: Failure is no longer an option (1st and Only Reboot)
« Reply #1 on: March 19, 2014, 11:03:27 PM »
Hi LanceG! Welcome to RN, glad you are here!

When I was younger, I would do the same thing with watching tv to get turned on and then switched to high-speed internet porn. Know that you aren't alone at all! Everyone here struggles in their own way but there is hope for everyone too!

I'm sorry to hear about your recent issues but the issues you described are definitely porn-induced symptoms. Over consuming it rewires your brain and sees porn as more rewarding, thus when you are with a real girl you can't get hard because your brain rewired. You are desensitized now to women and sensitized to porn.

This will take time to heal from so patience is key. Stop watching porn and fill your time with productive things. School can probably keep you pretty busy. Try to figure out what your triggers are that set you off and be aware of those to help prevent further relapsing, but I don't know how much more motivation you need other than having your dick not work with a real girl. That's plenty of motivation I'm sure.

Take some time to read and watch materials on this site and other sites that we suggest to learn more. Knowledge is power to use with your reboot.

Congrats on 2 days! Take it one day at a time. You got this.

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Re: Failure is no longer an option (1st and Only Reboot)
« Reply #2 on: March 21, 2014, 09:36:12 PM »
You're not alone here. We're all in this together. You're right... Failure is no longer an option.