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« Reply #275 on: November 14, 2017, 08:06:29 AM »
So I did an exercise routine this morning which is good and will make an effort to record that I do it every day from now on. Thank you.

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« Reply #276 on: November 14, 2017, 08:43:21 AM »
One of the things I want to do is make sure that if I do fall of the wagon, I only MO and not PMO. There is still the risk of corrupt fantasy involved with MO but it is not nearly so materialistic as PMO. Pleasure is not love. I think if I fall off the wagon again then I am going to try a completely different approach that I have muted before, namely to allow myself to MO once a week, or more if necessary, so long as I don't look at P, soft mode instead of hard mode. I really want to get away from deriving my sexual satisfaction from searching for and looking at pixels. Thank you.

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« Reply #277 on: November 15, 2017, 04:32:27 AM »
Another day of exercises in the morning going well. Urges to act out have been coming pretty much every other day at the moment. I need to remember to only MO and not PMO if I do act out. Thank you.

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« Reply #278 on: November 16, 2017, 04:51:57 AM »
Woke this morning feeling tired, despite a good nights sleep. Didn't feel like doing my exercises but managed to do them anyway. I'm going to keep reminding myself that MO is better than PMO. Am making the effort to read every day as well. Thank you.

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« Reply #279 on: November 17, 2017, 04:12:12 AM »
Another day of exercises in the morning. Need to keep reminding myself that MO is preferable to PMO. At the beginning of December I'm going to start doing half-an-hours maths revision every morning after my morning coffee as well. Wanted to start immediately, but couldn't find the energy. Hopefully by setting a target date to start I can build up to it in my mind. Thank you.

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« Reply #280 on: November 18, 2017, 12:03:38 PM »
Another day of exercises. Need to keep reminding myself that I must MO if I fail and not PMO. Thank you.

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« Reply #281 on: November 19, 2017, 05:33:48 AM »
Another day of exercises going well. Still reading every day which is good. Really need to gear up to doing my half-an-hour's maths in the morning after coffee. Must keep reminding myself to MO instead of PMO if I fail. Thank you.

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« Reply #282 on: November 20, 2017, 08:45:16 AM »
Another day of exercises. I missed out the standing stake exercise in the morning because I was late for an appointment, but did it later on in the day. Also, finally I have started doing half-an-hours maths revision, though I didn't do it first thing after my coffee in the morning. I will do this every day from now on and will update about it every day as well. Last but not least, I will keep reminding myself to MO rather than PMO if I fail. Thank you.

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« Reply #283 on: November 21, 2017, 12:33:02 PM »
I again missed my standing stake exercise in the morning and only managed to do it just now, but other than that I have now done over a week of exercises first thing in the morning. I have also done half-an-hour's maths today again. Doing these two things is important to me and I will update everyday to make sure I do them. Finally, I will keep reminding myself to MO instead of PMO if I can't fight the urges. Thank you.

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« Reply #284 on: November 22, 2017, 10:38:48 AM »
I again only just did my standing stake exercise now, whilst doing the rest of my exercises first thing in the morning. I don't know if this really matters. Part of me thinks it is better to start the day with the standing stake meditation but perhaps it is not that important. Also managed to do my half-an-hour's maths today again. This is all good. Finally, once again I remind myself that I must MO rather than PMO if I fall off the wagon. Thank you.,

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« Reply #285 on: November 23, 2017, 12:55:36 PM »
Still doing my standing stake meditation in the early evening instead of first thing in the morning. Not that bothered, it seems to be working. Did the rest of my exercises first thing and also my half-an-hour's maths revision. I should really be doing several hour's worth of maths a day, but I am finding it hard enough to do just half-an-hour at the moment, concentration, at least at that level, is still difficult. I hope to increase it though, but I think I will wait at least a month to make sure that the routine becomes cemented. I absolutely do not want to have another psychotic relapse. I'm trying to stay away from politics as much as possible and engaging with the internet except this site. Hopefully that will help. Finally, I will keep reminding myself that if I fall off the wagon I must make sure I only MO and not PMO. Thank you.

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« Reply #286 on: November 24, 2017, 07:53:09 AM »
Great work, I also want to stay off news and digital media, apart from work and recovery.

BY the way, do you have any cool resources for "standing stake" meditation for tai chi and qi gong..?
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« Reply #287 on: November 24, 2017, 01:34:37 PM »
Thanks Phoenix, I don't really have any resources for standing stake, qi gong or t'ai ji, almost everything I learned from classes, but I'm sure if you use google you can find all sorts of resources to help. I almost PMOd today. Thankfully I managed to avert it. Did my exercises and my maths revision. Must remember to MO instead of PMO if I can't ignore the urges. Everything good. Thank you.

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« Reply #288 on: November 25, 2017, 02:43:26 PM »
Another day of exercises and maths revision completed. It's not much but already I feel like there is more purpose to my days. I'm also trying to read books a bit each day. Have to remember to MO rather than PMO if I get the urge. So far so good. Thank you.

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« Reply #289 on: November 26, 2017, 01:01:34 PM »
All my targets met for today again. Must keep reminding myself to MO instead of PMO if the urges become uncontrollable. Thank you.

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« Reply #290 on: November 27, 2017, 03:48:33 PM »
Another day of completing all my targets. Completed them a bit late today, but had some social engagements in the day so that's fine. Got to keep reminding myself to only MO and not PMO if I feel unable to resist. Thank you.

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« Reply #291 on: November 28, 2017, 01:02:33 PM »
So my journal's getting a bit boring for others to read which I'm not too bothered about whilst it helps, but I do appreciate the occasional comment from someone else, so I don't know. Anyway, did all my targets for the day. Keep on reminding myself to MO and not PMO if the urges get too much. Feeling like I have much more purpose at the moment and generally feel good. Thank you.

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« Reply #292 on: November 29, 2017, 01:31:18 PM »
Another boring post I'm afraid, but I'm succeeding and that's what counts. Did a little bit more maths revision than usual today which is good since I want to increase the time I spend gradually over the coming months. Did my exercises as well, but didn't read any books today, though there is still time I suppose. Generally pleased. Was a bit worried that I was having some fatigue with my routine, but as it happens I've finished earlier than usual. Need to keep reminding myself to MO instead of PMO if the uncontrollable urges strike. Thank you.

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« Reply #293 on: November 30, 2017, 09:30:31 AM »
So finished my maths revision quite early today, about the time I really want to be aiming for every day once I start increasing the time spent on it. Also did my exercises in the morning and finished one of the books I've been reading. I keep reminding myself of the need to MO instead of PMO if the urges become irresistible. Thank you.

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« Reply #294 on: December 01, 2017, 12:12:14 PM »
Another day of maths revision and exercises in the morning. I am still only doing three ten minute bursts of maths revision in the day, I don't know where all the rest of the time goes, but anyway it is a start and it does give me more sense of purpose which is good. Haven't read any books today, but there is still time, I suppose. I will keep reminding myself to MO rather than PMO. Thank you.

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« Reply #295 on: December 02, 2017, 03:17:40 PM »
Almost didn't do my maths revision today, slept most of the day and had a social engagement, but I did manage to do it all in a half hour burst just now. Did my exercises as well. I really don't want to miss a day unless it is unavoidable due to other commitments as once I get out of a routine, even for a day, I find it hard to start again, which is clearly stupid and psychological, but that is the truth. Anyway, am still succeeding, keep reminding myself to MO instead of PMO if ever I cave. Thank you.

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« Reply #296 on: December 06, 2017, 02:56:03 PM »
So a few days have passed. I need to start doing my maths revision again. I stopped because I started thinking outside the box on a maths problem and that caused a chain reaction in my thinking that led to mild psychosis. I also had a doctors appointment, for something other than mental health, which was causing me anxiety. So far I have completed 127 pages of the 149 pages I need to revise and I really want to finish everything. Anyway, I have been doing my exercises in the morning, though not the standing stake yesterday. Other than that I am succeeding. Need to keep reminding myself to MO instead of PMO. Thank you.

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« Reply #297 on: December 08, 2017, 01:39:31 PM »
So there are 23 days left till new year. I am going to try to continue "soft mode" until then before I make any analysis of my progress. I did my exercises today and my maths revision and my standing stake. I need to remind myself to MO rather than PMO if I get urges, multiple times if necessary. Thank you.

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« Reply #298 on: December 13, 2017, 03:33:11 AM »
Hey man, do they have SAA (sex addicts anonymous) meetings, or similar, in your area or some kind of support group. I've been missing the meetings in my group, but made a commitment to return to the next one. It is such a powerful place to offer and receive support from others going through the same thing. It isn't an easy journey but with help and information from others, we are able to take things one day at a time. Maybe see if there are therapists who specialise in sex addiction. Be strong man, we just need to imagine how many guys out there are suffering with this addiction.
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« Reply #299 on: December 13, 2017, 06:29:30 AM »
Hi Phoenix, I would be really scared to go to an SAA because I am so close to my family that it would be impossible to go without them knowing pretty much. The MO not PMO works for me at the moment because my primary aim is to stop looking at P which causes me the most shame. I have not felt really bad about MO without P, it is kind of natural, though I don't think it is admirable, whereas I can find no justification in my mind for looking at P other than I am addicted. Indeed, looking at P makes me feel shame and distress at my disgrace. Since joining this site I have twice gone periods of between four and five months. So should I be making the final push?? I'm not sure, a part of me thinks that there will always come a time when I cannot help but MO and I want to make sure that when that time comes, there is no P involved. However, in the last couple of days, I have slipped, I have binged on PMO. Also, by allowing myself to MO every time I got the urge to PMO, I lost all discipline and greatly increased the times I MOd. I don't really know what to do, I need to start again. Perhaps the best thing to do is oscillate between "soft mode" and "hard mode". When I fail at "soft mode" after a month or so, I will try "hard mode", when I fail at "hard mode" for a month or so, I will try "soft mode". With that in mind, I am going to try "hard mode" again. The new year is approaching. Wish me luck. Finally, I have finished my first revision of my maths course, all 149 pages, and now need to go back and do each chapter in more detail. I am keeping a log of this, because getting of P goes hand in hand with turning my life around. My first student has been ill so I haven't started tutoring him yet, however I hope to start in the new year. I intend to advertise as an undergraduate tutor from the autumn of next year. If I can get two or three students that will be more than enough to keep me busy. Thank you.